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For the past several years (and perhaps longer) in the P&P fandom I've seen a lot of people who want to rehabilitate Mrs. Bennet: like, sure, she's uncouth and seems greedy, but it's because she cares so much about her daughters' futures; her situation is actually really stressful and uncertain and she's powerless to change it and her husband makes fun of her, and so it's natural that it would cause her to be anxious all the time; maybe she doesn't have the intelligence or social awareness to understand that her behaviour is actually harming her daughters' prospects, but at least her heart is in the right place.
I'm usually not the type of person who argues that fandom is actually being too nice to a female character, but in this case I don't buy the counter-narrative (which I think is popular enough at this point to be fanon / a narrative in itself) about Mrs. Bennet.
For one thing, she was never really powerless in this situation. These people are rich even for gentry. Mr. Bennet's income was always good, at 2,000 pounds per annum (even though I can't believe he isn't neglecting some practices that could raise it higher). Mrs. Bennet had 4,000 pounds from her parents and a further 1,000 from Mr. Bennet. Invested in the 4 per cents (for example), this is 200 pounds per year in pin money that Mrs. Bennet could spend without touching the principle of her dowry, and without affecting Mr. Bennet's income. This is more than some people's entire yearly incomes.
The picture of Mr. and Mrs. Bennet that we get in P&P is not of people who are helpless against their circumstances, but of people who are extraordinarily neglectful. We're told that:
Mr. Bennet had very often wished, before this period of his life, that, instead of spending his whole income, he had laid by an annual sum, for the better provision of his children, and of his wife, if she survived him. [...] When first Mr. Bennet had married, economy was held to be perfectly useless; for, of course, they were to have a son. This son was to join in cutting off the entail, as soon as he should be of age, and the widow and younger children would by that means be provided for. Five daughters successively entered the world, but yet the son was to come; and Mrs. Bennet, for many years after Lydia’s birth, had been certain that he would. This event had at last been despaired of, but it was then too late to be saving. Mrs. Bennet had no turn for economy; and her husband’s love of independence had alone prevented their exceeding their income.
We also know that the "continual presents in money which passed to [Lydia] through her mother’s hands," plus her allowance and food, amount to about 90 pounds per year. Rather than saving up from the beginning in case the entail is not broken, rather than beginning to save once it's clear a son will not arrive, rather than making Jane's dowry the full 5,000 from her mother (which would be something) and saving up for the younger girls' dowries thereafter—which is what would be typical, and that's why Lady Catherine was so shocked that all the girls were out at once—Mrs. Bennet's housekeeping, dress, the girls' allowance, presents of money over and above their allowance, plus whatever Mr. Bennet is spending money on (and other expenses relating to servants, carriages, maintenance &c. which are unavoidable), add up to their entire income. The only reason why Mrs. Bennet doesn't overspend even that is that that's where Mr. Bennet puts his foot down.
Mrs. Bennet is actively harming her daughters' prospects, not even of marriage, but of living respectably if they don't marry, because she doesn't have the temperance not to spend all of the income that is allotted to her. It is the role of the woman in a marriage to take charge of the housekeeping, servants, cooking, furniture, and all expenses relating thereto (plus certain attentions to her tenants and any living in genteel poverty in the area, though presumably this will depend on her income and whether there's a parish church with a parson's wife who's doing some of these things). She's an adult who should be competent to manage these things in a reasoned way without needing to be dictated to.
It is supposed to be the role of the woman in a marriage to take charge of her daughters' education—and yet Mrs. Bennet did not hire a governess, and Elizabeth says that she didn't spend much time teaching her daughters anything (it's not clear to what degree she's educated herself). Granted, the girls did have masters—but, from the sounds of things, that was only if they requested them. No one was required to learn much of anything, which will probably further harm the marriage prospects of the girls who "chose to be idle."
I think the "point" of Mrs. Bennet is that she is one half of one type of bad marriage which the novel illustrates, in contrast with the Gardiners' marriage. These marriages are two possible models for the Bennet daughters to look to. At one point, Elizabeth's prospective marriage is explicitly compared to her parents', with her in the role of her father: Mr. Bennet says "My child, let me not have the grief of seeing you unable to respect your partner in life" (emphasis original).
We might wonder whether Elizabeth saw herself potentially in the role of her father, in a marriage that was very intellectually unequal, when she rejected Mr. Collins; or whether she also saw herself in the role of her mother, married to a man who insults and doesn't respect her, when she rejected Mr. Darcy. Ultimately, she accepts Mr. Darcy after she realises that he is nothing like her father; that he is diligent in attending to his responsibilities, and that he does evidently respect her mind.
This isn't me defending Mr. Bennet, who is also a bad parent and a bad spouse. I do, however, find it a little disturbing when people suggest that Mr. Bennet is at fault for not controlling or curtailing his wife. His wife is a grown woman. Surely we don't actually believe that a situation where a man is legally in complete control over his wife, merely because he is a man and she is a woman, is in any way natural, moral, or just? (This also goes for people who suggest that Mr. Bingley needs to get his sister 'in line' 😬😬😬.)
Mrs. Bennet should be competent to manage her household and her daughters. Given that she's not, yes, Mr. Bennet, according to Georgian and Victorian ideas of the role of a man in a marriage, "should" have stepped in and started dictating to her. But I don't really think that's what Austen is suggesting went wrong here. The models of good marriages we have—the Gardiners, the Bingleys and Darcys after their weddings—are all ones in which the women were basically sensible people to begin with. In the latter two cases, we are told of particular ways in which the men stand to benefit from some mental quality of their future spouse (Elizabeth's good humour and ease in company; Jane's steadiness and determination).
The ideal which some Georgians had of a husband's role being to shape his wife's intellect doesn't seem to be what's being advocated here. If Mr. Bennet made a mistake, it was in marrying a silly, selfish, ill-tempered woman to begin with, not in failing to browbeat her into submission once he found out that she was silly, selfish, and ill-tempered. The idea is that you should choose your spouse carefully. But that message doesn't work if Mrs. Bennet is just a woman in a difficult situation who has her heart in the right place.
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couldn’t have said it better myself.
#ao3#fandom#the thing about censorship is that everyone wants to draw a different line#but the thing about trauma is that it shouldn’t be held in#i’ve read some fucked up shit on ao3#and it helped me a lot
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I just read siat, and I was wondering if you had any pictures of what the gangs Yule ball outfits looked like? I googled the basic look, but I'm finding it hard to picture them exactly. If not, it's all good, just wondering!
aaahhh okay i’m answering this publicly because a few people have asked, so.
i didn’t find specifically what i wanted, but here’s some reference pictures of what i was thinking of.
harry:
this is the style, though his was dark blue accented with green.
his robe is made out of this material, but green. the heavy beading/stitching is important.
luna:
her dress was this style, but black and with a daikon pattern, which is not a typical pattern. she had a green obi to match harry.
white radish, or daikon, is common in japan and looks like this
cedric and cho wore traditional hanbok, like this, although they had ravenclaw blue and hufflepuff yellow as their color scheme
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ooh, the latest chapter of siat is so wonderfully written like everything you write. Question: will you explain in-fic the reasoning behind the gang's names on the Chimera'a map? im hoping the names arent foreshadowing any bad trouble for the future because i just like to see the kids happy. But whatever direction you may or may not take with it is sure to be spectacular
thank you!!
and no, they’re not foreshadowing, they’re more about how the characters see themselves.
harry - achilles - he’s already survived so much but he has this sense that more is coming, and he’s not invincible, one lucky strike is all it will take to kill him
hermione - arachne - she wants to be the best and thinks being punished for being better than a supposed master is crap. she wants to be arachne, wants to master magic even though she’s eleven years behind
ron - herecles - he wants so badly to be the hero, he loves his friends and his family but he wants to be the center of attention, just once. herecles is his reminder that being the hero isn’t so great, in the end
draco - icarus - fly too high and your wings will melt, fly too low and your wings will melt. draco is so, so aware of the delicate line he walks with all his lies and secrets
pansy - medusa - let them come for her, let men come, let people think she’s nothing more than vain and pretty. she’ll turn them to stone (literally, transfiguration is her best subject after all)
blaise - midas - he’s a zabini, he’s of the severan dynasty, they still called the elected leader of magical italy emperor. don’t be too greedy, or you’ll lose everything. but, do be greedy.
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one of the best gags in leverage is when the crew starts naming random cons, even better when they disagree and give us just enough information to be more confused - "it's like the cherry pie, but with lifeguards" or "the roper has a glass eye. No! It's a cue ball." bafflingly perfect, 10/10.
But a close second is when they just reference a con they did, without giving us any useful information. Now we see physical bits during like the broken wing job which is great. Or the night out jobs where they show the chaos of both nights in pieces from the other side. But I had forgotten in the 'cross my heart job' they were doing crazy crazy things. They were on the emerald isle, Sophie was pretending to be french on a topless beach, Eliot was in a shipwreck fighting three ex-brazilian combat divers with harpoons underwater, and hardison apparently faked a volcano eruption??
no notes. a perfect show truly
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“Ma,” Harry’s baby self gurgles, reaching out pudgy hands towards Lily. “Ma!”
Snape freezes and stands up, finally peering into the crib. His baby self smiles when he sees Snape and holds up his hands. “Up! Ma!”
He slumps, holding onto the sides of the crib so tightly the whole thing creaks. His shoulder shake, and Harry comes to the uncomfortable realization that he’s seeing his horrible potions professor cry.
There’s no safe place to look, either Snape’s tears or his mother’s body, and he hates this, he can’t do this anymore.
— from Chapter 15, Survival is a Talent, by @shanastoryteller
#siat#shanastoryteller#this is from Phoenixes Don’t Take Orders#and i’ve been dying to draw it ever since i read it#its an absolutely phenomenal sequence#and i’ve been obsessed with it for ages#see earlier drawing of ss#when i hyper fixate on works over several hours#my color palette goes insane#did the whole thing and mapped it because it looked ridiculous#mine#fanart#siat fanart
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THE UNTAMED episode five | episode thirty-three
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someone fired a bullet through our bathroom wall the other day when we were gone, which is scary (but probably accidental), but the weirdest part is that we can’t actually find the place where it entered from outside... the wall inside is fucked up and you can see the hole where it came through, but there is no corresponding entrance hole on the exterior of the house. somehow the outer paneling was undamaged.
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DAVID LYNCH Weather Report 7/6/21
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Meg is the first choice, of course, but she’s not suited to this type of long term mission and they all know it. The problem is, almost none of them are. The nature of the beast, she supposes.
That’s why it ends up being her, in the end. Well, it’s almost Ruby, but there’s one thing she has that Ruby doesn’t.
How she ended up here in the first place.
She thought Clyde loved her. She thought he’d take her away, from her father and her terrible life, and so when he died too young, before he could fulfill any of his promises, she’d sold her soul to bring him back.
But he hadn’t kept a single promise. She’d died in her father’s house.
“You remember being in love, don’t you?” he asks, cruel in his callousness, which is different than his other types of cruelty. It’s all he has, shining out in a thousand different ways. “You’ll be better at faking it.”
All she does is fake it.
“Yes,” she says.
This mission gets her topside. It’s worth it for that alone.
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She slips into a pretty blonde named Rebecca first but by the end of the day, the girl’s screaming has given her a headache, and she slips right back out. She’ll probably just think she had a bad trip.
He’d offered to arrange something for her, but she wanted to pick herself, and she’s not interested in having someone crying and moaning in the back of her mind. But it’s not like there are a lot of options.
She could kill one, of course. But she’s never – she hasn’t been topside, before. Everything she’s killed before had already been dead. So she hovers for the next week, looking for some sort of opportunity, for something she can use that’s not going to scream at her.
The day before she’s going to have to either pick someone or risk being sent back, there’s a car accident.
The girl’s heart is still and her body’s warm, blood pooling down her head, but that’s nothing she can’t fix. She settles into the body, jumpstarting the heart and can feel the skin on her head knitting back together. It’s also blessedly, thankfully silent, with her the only one inside this body. The driver who hit her is dead and people are crowding in, a crying girl pulling her free. “Anne! Anne, are you okay, oh my god, I can’t believe that happened-”
She wrinkles her nose before smoothing out her expression.
The name will have to go. She’ll say she’s reinventing herself after tragedy, or something, but she’s not going to walk around responding to Anne. That’s not her name.
Anne’s a sophomore, which isn’t ideal, but she’s beautiful and doesn’t have that many friends and barely talks to her family, so she’s actually perfect.
She’s also blonde.
She’d been blonde before too.
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All the demons who had run these sort of missions before give her advice, tell her things that will help her. Some of their assignments had lasted months, but no one’s tried to do it for as long as she’s supposed to.
He likes smart girls.
Be confident. Be flirty. He’s shyer than he looks.
He never had a mother. He likes it when girls take care of him.
He likes to take care of girls too. He wants to feel useful.
She’d had dreams, before, of all the ways she’d could escape her father. It wasn’t common for girls to get more than a basic education, but she’d been smart. She could read and do complicated sums and enjoyed the quiet evenings when she balanced her father’s books. She’d thought she might like an advanced education, thought it could get her out of her life, but hadn’t known how to manage it.
Clyde had seemed easier. More attainable. More realistic.
She’d sold her soul for nothing in the end. She hadn’t even got the full ten years of her bargain.
She doesn’t know how much of their advice she can take.
She can be smart, but considering the school they’re at, all the girls will be smart. She hadn’t been confident or flirty, which is maybe why she’d latched onto the first boy who smiled at her. She never had a mother herself and doesn’t know to act like one.
She’s never been taken care of and doesn’t know how to do that either.
There’s no way for her to do this. She’s going to be replaced and sent back below and he’ll be angry at her and she hates hates hates when he’s angry at her, what he does to her.
“Are you okay?”
She looks up, something cold on her tongue, but falters.
He’s standing there, warm hazel eyes and long dark hair, hunching to try and make himself smaller, and a smile on his face that does nothing to hide his concern.
“Do you ever feel like,” she starts, her dead stolen heart beating too quickly, “everything is falling apart around you and you have no idea what you’re doing and like maybe your whole life is one huge mistake?”
Well, fuck. She’s definitely being replaced now.
Except Azazel’s favorite throws back his head and laughs, smile stretching into a grin. “Every day of my life, more or less.”
“How do you deal with it?” she asks, scrubbing a hand over her face.
He shrugs. “Well, my brother would say women and liquor.” He seems to realize how that sounds a moment later and he pales, “Um, not that I’m – I’m not saying, I wasn’t trying to. He’s just sort of a cad, and – I wasn’t trying to, with you, uh.”
She feels herself softening in spite of herself. “So you’re not one to apply that method yourself?”
“No,” he says firmly, eyes wide. “God, I’m just – I’m sorry. I – I’m Sam.”
“Hi Sam,” she returns, with a smile she doesn’t have to fake. “I’m Jess.”
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She’s not supposed to fall in love with him.
She’s to worm his way to his side. She’s to keep him from running back to his family, to keep him from rebuilding the bridges he’s burned. She’s to keep him distracted and focused on her until his powers activate and then she’s to guide him into using them, to be supportive and loving and to push him straight into Azazel’s arms.
Sam loves his family so much.
He talks of his brother all the time. His father less, the emotions there more tangled, but love no less fierce.
She nudges him away from it, talks to him about how it’s normal for families to grow apart, to say that they’ll understand when he graduates, that he’ll show them they type of man that he is.
By the time he graduates, his powers will start manifesting, and he’ll avoid his family without her prodding. He knows what they’ll think of him, then, and Jess tells herself that she’s helping him. That this is for Sam’s own good.
If he’s with her, then he’s safe. His father won’t kill him while he’s safe at school. He can’t kill Sam for powers that he’ll never know about.
It’s easy to dig into the anger for his father, to use his last words to Sam as a way to hold him at her side. His brother is more difficult. Jess doesn’t do much with that, in the end, tells herself that it would be too complicated, too suspicious, and as long Dean is sticking with their father it amounts to same thing anyway.
The truth is more complicated.
His father will kill Sam if he has to.
She doesn’t think that his brother will. She thinks that maybe he’d choose to protect Sam, over their father’s wishes, over everything he’d been taught, no matter the consequences.
She fears that she and Dean have a lot in common.
She invites Sam over for holidays, makes summer plans with him, holds as much of his attention as she can manage.
She studies and makes friends and laughs and spends so much time with him, but not all of it. It has to be believable after all, has to be constant, in a way that it didn’t have to be with all the other demons sent to take care of him.
Jess lives a life that had been denied to her and tries to do what she was sent to do and does the one thing she was definitely not supposed to do, which is fall in love with Sam Winchester.
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His brother shows up in their apartment and she knows that she’s going to lose him.
Sam tries to act angry, but she knows him too well. He’s moving around his brother like a flower following the sun and she asks him not to go, tries to find the words to keep him here, but they all get caught in her throat. If she begged, if she threw a fit, if she demanded it of him, he would stay. He’d tell his brother he’s sorry but he’d stay with her and not help him and burn their relationship for good. He loves her enough to do that for her. She knows it.
She loves him enough not to make him.
He kisses her and she knows it’ll be the last time. He doesn’t.
“What did that take, five minutes?” Azazel is right there, breath on the back of her neck, and his anger fury rage pressing down on her even closer. “Over three years at his side and you lost him in five minutes. What a waste.”
“I kept him for over three years,” she says, tries to keep her voice steady, but knows she fails.
She had him for over three years.
“Not good enough,” he whispers, lips on the shell of her ear. “Guess I’ll have to send Meg in after all.”
Pain erupts hot across her stomach and her screams mix with his laughter.
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Love always burns her in the end.
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I was kind of a lonely kid, Dean.
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One of my absolute favorite tropes is “We have taken the one you love most!” “Oh, have you? Good fukken luck lmao” *distant screams of kidnappers as loved one escapes* or the flipside: “We’ve kidnapped you!” “You are in so much trouble. You are in so much fucking trouble. You are in the most trouble ever, oh my god.” *DOOR EXPLODES INWARDS AS LOVED ONE ARRIVES* and the alternate: *vehicle pulls up, door opens, person is shoved out, door slams, vehicle screeches away* “Did you get kidnapped??” “For a minute yeah”
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100% yes.
and aside from his ultimate refusal to follow through on that togetherness promise, he actually does try to walk beside her, and to make it possible for her to walk alongside of him.
he makes such an example of the fathers with petty daughters. he allows her to walk beside him into danger. he uses her perspective when it comes to solving crimes, and he even follows the leads she provides him with.
ayao, shanjian, either probably would have been a decent match for shaoshang. but both had a lot of growing up to do to meet her at her level.
buyi was the only one who was asking her to be more than she already was, and she loved him for that.
look at the empresses banquet— beyond the grandest hopes and made possible by both of them together.
of course, despite all of that (and despite the loving support of both the emperor and the empress) they still manage to fuck it up.
but then again, they’re imperfect and blind to certain flaws— that’s why the show is so good.
something I like about Ling Buyi is that even before he goes through his post-engagement character development, he is pretty astute in matching (most of) the qualities that Shaoshang wants in a partner.
In his proposal, Ling Buyi outlines two key points. One: Shaoshang's the best woman ever. Two: Shaoshang's someone that can stand/walk together with him (in my very loose translation). No.1 directly addresses Shaoshang's biggest insecurity: she hasn't ever been seen as decent/satisfactory, let alone the 'best'. No.2 is a word-for-word repeat of Shaoshang's ideal partnership as she expressed to A yao a few eps back, which Ling Buyi had spontaneously parroted without ever hearing it from her directly. When Shaoshang asks him whether he'll accept her since she isn't exactly the docile, obedient wife type, he's like 'yes. fuck yes. are you kidding?' Of course, he hasn't yet figured out how to act in such a relationship at that point, but it's very cute that he is someone who already idealises the exact same kind of relationship as Shaoshang.
another thing is that he seems to generally know the kind of guy that shaoshang would like. He never even considered yuan shanjian a threat, and he also could buy that shaoshang genuinely liked a yao (unlike yuan shanjian, who time and again tells shaoshang that she was just looking to escape her parents.)
it's been a while since i saw a drama that goes into why the female lead will like the guy. Most dramas would provide you hints aplenty that the male lead is really really into women who can speak their mind/is competent/doesn't like to scheme or whatever, but when it comes to male leads it's just (1) he's rich, important and capable. you've been bullied your whole life. here's a good ending (2) he treats you well and isn't a misogynist douche (3) he saved you plenty of times and it's just treated as kinda default that the female lead would be pretty happy in the relationship. so i think it's a nice touch that they bothered to show how these two people actually suit each other
#ps also love that all of the characters are characters#the closest one to a trope is papa cheng#but he’s a welcome one so#love like the galaxy#damn i miss this show#i still have 120000 words of fanfic written#the beginnings done#the endings done#i supposed i could post the first chapter and the epilogue and see what happens#oh god what if my epilogue is as bad as jk*s#i do really hate time skips#19 years or 5 still so annoying#show me the pining damnit#show me the doubts and the banality of grief#show me the growth ffs#long time skips only really work if time and effort are put into the aftermath rather than squeezed onto a foggy platform#oof sorry for hijaking your post with my nonsense tags#i’m gonna go write ten thousand word of wang li / princess yuchang
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for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal
before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"
and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"
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