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I've been heartbroken before... more times than I can remember, but this one was different. This one I was sure about. This one I fully surrendered my fear and moved in love, in faith, and as vulnerable as I could. God's love flowed abundantly, so overwhelmingly, that all I ever wanted was to give it away. That was my biggest mistake, I needed to fall deeper in love with God first, it wasn't mine to share yet- at least not with a boy. It's been almost two years post break up and I'm finally letting go, for good. I'm so thankful that the pain turned into a testimony. I'm so grateful with God because He allowed me to grieve and was with me every step of the way. Every tear. Every doubt. Every surrender. He never left my side. He kept my heart soft through it all. He sustained me and carried me through each phase. So much, that even through the heartbreak - He used me to minister to the very person that caused me pain. I pray He's at peace. I pray He's going after your heart. I thank you for allowing him to leave. So this is where I say goodbye.. This is where you hurt me the last time Stay gone. xo. And I trust you Lord, at the right time, I know you will send me a man who you have already won over- who will see and love the YOU in me. 'till then- it's just you & I- as it should've been. Your grace is sufficient.

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God's unconditional love

Romans 8:28-39. As I was reading my bible today, completing my daily devotionals, these verses grieved my heart. It reminded me of how great God is and how good He has been to me- regardless of how terrible I've been to him. Galatians 1:15 says God chose us from our mother's womb. Romans 8:30 reiterates that stating He predestined some of us. He chose me from the very beginning, and once I had the liberty to choose a life for myself, I ran from him and flew straight into darkness, forsaking my Lord. And He chose me anyway.... Knowing I'd betray Him Knowing I'd reject Him He still CHOSE to love me It breaks my heart knowing I rejected him for so long. And there He was, heart broken over my departure and patiently waiting for my return. I wish I had welcomed His love into my heart much sooner. His overwhelming love that gracefully breaks me and draws me closer to Him. Knowing I'd return, waiting patiently, He's turned it all around for good according to His purpose. That's a good God. Overseeing our mistakes and redirecting us-with purpose. There's purpose in Christ. His purpose was YOU. Run back to your Father Israel, He's patiently waiting.

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Mama

Barren & hopeless Longing for the day God will bless her with 10 tiny fingers & 10 tiny toes She didn't quite know just how faithful he'd be When every attempt left her spirit weak Will the day be today Lord? Will I be able to conceive? I'm desperate and hopeless CAN'T YOU SEE?! The cries of this mama touched our Father's heart Not only did He send a little daughter, He multiplied it by 3! That was only the start. God is so faithful. His promises will come true. Wipe your tears mama, God hears you.

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Restoration

Once broken & afraid Your cleansing blood paved the way

Not once did You find me unworthy You sent Your Son to die for me, You showed me mercy

In darkness I lived, separated from You In victory I stand, thanks to the Good News.

You've always loved me, through all of my days I now long for the day I can see Your gaze

Your word is thy lamp, I stand on the rock Your spirit dwells in me, persevering in this walk I'll never go back, I owe You my life The old me has died, My identity is now in Christ!

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REDEMPTION

DANCING WITH WOLVES DRINKING MY FEELS SMOKE IN THE AIR THE DEVIL CAME TO STEAL LOST IN THE WORLD LIVING SELFISHLY KILLING MY SANITY UNAPOLOGETICALLY DEEP DEPRESSION ANXIOUS THOUGHTS SEX WOULD FIX IT SO I THOUGHT HOPE WAS GONE I WAS BROKEN SENSELESS LIFE SPIRITUALLY UNWOKEN ON MY KNEES HEAR MY HEARTS CRY THAT ONE SHOWER CHANGED MY LIFE

I SAW GOD HE COMFORTED ME HE RESTORED MY HOPE AND SET ME FREE THERE SHE LAID ALL IN BLACK I WAS DEAD BUT I CAME BACK A NEW HEART HOPE WAS GIVEN BY HIS GRACE I WAS FORGIVEN HEAVEN AWAITS JESUS IS KING THE DEVIL IS A LIAR GOD TOOK ME UNDER HIS WINGS HE CALLED ME BY NAME HE SET ME APART ALL THE GLORY TO HIM AS I GO AFTER HIS HEART