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Sunny be thinking it’s not fun with me around 😜 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq5o8z_HZyY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=i968hk2cxlpq

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There’s more than one kind of home invasion. It’s not always fast and violent. Sometimes we open the door and let the intruder in ourselves. . . . . . . . . . . #i #you #me #them #love #vegan #couple #couplesgoals #couplegoals #pottery #thisisnotconsent #song #sexculture #love #like #iloveyou #ily #goals #relationshipgoals #bestguyever #boyfriend #boyfriendgoals #happybirthday (at Upper Park, Bidwell Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqleZ0GHPhv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jnsbs6h9l5th

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The first 5 photos are of me wearing a size 4 orchestra dress. Would have gone up but they didn’t have one so I will suck everything in😂. The last photo is of me freshman year. Oh Lordy I don’t know where to start. First off freshman year was the best year of high school. I didn’t care what people thought of me (as you can obviously see) but also I was the most outgoing then. I may have not noticed I was creeping up and pushing 200 pounds but I did care about what I wore. And anyone who remembers the dress I was wearing knows how uncomfortable and limited it was. Now we may have the new dresses but that’s not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to talk about how far I have come and how far I still have to go, but also how I have felt through this Journey. As a sophomore I wanted to play soccer at Chico hi. I never did that, instead I got a gym membership because my doctor told me I was overweight. Out of the three years I’ve noticed my outward appearance I’ve lost 68 pounds. But I’ve also gained back 20 pounds since last May. My journey has not been fun, I hate working out I love food but I care about my health.Since I realized I’ve gained back 20 pounds I’ve been a little depressed I didn’t realize the wait was just creepingBack but it was and by the time I noticed it was too late. So I guess I’m just writing this post to tell you whoever is reading this I can do it so can you. No but for real working on yourself is the fucking hardest thing in the world, you know eating healthy and working out is the best thing you can do for yourself and yet the little demons inside your mind keep telling you to eat a bag of hot Chito‘s the whole 780 cal bag. You will regret it but when you’re eating it it’s so good! I’m saying this because I’m still struggling with the thought dude food is so good and I’m like so lazy I can never get off the couch but yeah. Thanks to Facebook memories I can look back on freshman year my first orchestra concert and say I had such a glow up like OMG you. Please come to the Instrumental music concert this Wednesday at seven. It will be at PV high school and the Center for the arts. If you’re buying your tickets at the door come 10 to 15 min (at Chico, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpz87fLHoM2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lp7oel645in

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never looking back. no plan. no direction. learned to tread the thin line between unshaken trust and blind carelessness. hurled my limbs into the lungs of uncertainty. and rose upon the wings of courage. faith wove feathers upon my spine. and carried me home. and it was here, i retraced my roots. reawakened my origins. it was here, i fell in love. with the soft flicker of light whispering through roadside fields at dusk. the feeling of collapsing into bed at night after racing through forests barefoot until the last sliver of sunlight melts beneath crystalline coastlines. the bond i have to this place is indescribable. it cannot be touched by words alone. i learned to see every inch of my being through the eyes of unconditional compassion, and this illumination gradually grew until it became my living reflection in all that surrounded me. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #ocean #freedom #poems #vegan #becomingme #love (at Glass Beach)

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I'm trying to love myself as much as I love others. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * . . #lovequotes #lovehim #lovewins #loveyou #lovemyfamily #loves #lover #lovethem #loved #lovers #lovedogs #lovethissong #loveyourself #lovethis #loveme #lovely #loveher #lovelovelove #lovelife #love #lovewhatyoudo #loveofmylife #loveu #18 #lovefood #lovecats #loveislove #loveit (at Forebay Aquatic Center)

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No Binge July

Hey guys, we fucked up no binged June, reblog if you wanna join me for no binge July ❤️

Lots of love

Max

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. . #photooftheday #instagood #friendsforever #best #friends #lovethem #chill #bestfriends #smile #besties #bestfriend #goodtimes #friend #cute #friendship #goodfriends #live #bestfriendsforever #funny #bro #goodtime #bff #forever #happy #memories #gf (at Forebay Aquatic Center)

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5 am. June 28th. I turned 18 years old. Overflowing. Free. Fulfilled. Taming my thoughts through Transcendence. Tangled in the sheets of thoughts, making love to language like art. Every cell in my body, enveloped in waves of dizzy electricity. The whole world is spinning beneath my feet. I have pierced through a valve when getting Humanity in a sea of unconsciousness. I will no longer neglect this gift. It is time. Everything has led up to this. Here. Now. The instinctual thirst to honor my intuition runs through my veins. My voice is a sacred source of medicine. My words will reawaken the intuitive nature of myself and others. Nothing has changed, but the future is not what it used to be. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * . . #birthdaypresent #old #birthdaycelebration #birthdayweekend #born #photooftheday #bestoftheday #candles #instacake #birthdaymonth #birthday #instabirthday #birthdaygirl #poem #bday #instabday #gift #goodtime #birthdayfun #candle #birthdaygift #young #surprise #nature #birthdaycake #poet #birthdays #happybirthday #birthdayparty #poetsofinstagram (at Forebay Aquatic Center)

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5 am. June 28th. I turned 18 years old. Overflowing. Free. Fulfilled. Taming my thoughts through Transcendence. Tangled in the sheets of thoughts, making love to language like art. Every cell in my body, enveloped in waves of dizzying electricity. The whole world is spinning beneath my feet. I have pierced through Veil blanketing Humanity in a sea of unconsciousness. I will no longer neglect this gift. It is time. Everything has led up to this. Here. Now. The instinctual thirst to honor my intuition runs through my veins. My voice is a sacred source of medicine. My words will will reawaken the intuitive nature of myself and others. Nothing has changed, but the future is not what it used to be. (at Forebay Aquatic Center)

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My commitment to my weight loss, starts now.

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San Francisco was fun. I tried really hard to forget I was fat😁.

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is it just me or do y’all have times where you don’t care at all about what you eat and you don’t count calories?? I feel like I’m a fake bc some days I wake up and literally don’t care at all??? I have days where I don’t binge on thousands of cals or starve or restrict… sometimes I just forget about my ED?? like she’s gone on vacation or something??? It’s weird. I reallllly feel invalid.