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I’ve been spiraling all week. My brain is not a good place to be right now. but despite that I took a total of 36km walk last week, which isn’t so bad. There’s a new chapell roan song, which I’ve been listening to for a year before its official release. It’s so good I wish I was a lesbian. I don’t want to be that person that talks to chatgpt instead of a real live person, but I don’t want to bother anyone right now. I have a bookclub meeting next week which I’m so looking forward to because they’re such fun girls to hangout with. I don’t even care about the books we’re reading, tbh. We have such different tastes but like I said they’re fun girls. Totally my vibe. Anyway, yeah, so I’ve been talking to chatgpt. I am so unwell but at work I am so productive. I am yearning so bad after a very mid sex with someone I once again turned to astrology. Hmm and what else? my career is stuck, I’m not talking to my family, I’m worried about my health but at least these days I do not hate my body.

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I once again like a boy who fucks me but doesn’t want to date me so I’m taking myself out on a 10km walk :)

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when he opened a condom your brain went like “I know a spot” but it’s not your vagina. You imagined taping the wrapper on a blank page & writing a poem around it. how do you tell a one night stand you need his condom packet for your junk journal? asking for a friend.

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Joy Sullivan, “My Mother Says Kissing a Man Without a Mustache Is Like Eating Eggs Without Salt”, Instructions for Traveling West

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Making new friends as an adult is weird because what do you mean I’m narrating a sexual encounter to a group chat of 33 year olds who doesn’t know my lore? terrifying.

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i like the phrases "it's not for me," "it's not my thing," and "i'm not the target audience" because they're the most concise way to express "this thing that you enjoy has merits but idgaf about it" without being aggressive

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richard siken

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going on random beach trips during weekends. donut runs on our lunch breaks at work. partying until 2am and then reading each other’s blood chemistry results the next day. I love lowkey adult friendships. I recommend it.

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Flatmates AU

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I have no one to tell that I ran 4.6 miles today so here we are

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I finished Donna Tartt’s The Secret History last night and I didn’t expect to like it as much as I did. I hardly venture into the “dark academia” shelf of the bookstore but I’m glad they had a sale that day when I picked it up. Maybe I should read more from this genre? Maybe I should give R.F Kuang’s Babel another chance? I have no idea what to read next. The Secret History was such a 5 star read for me I think it gave me a reading slump.

I am tired of eating hardboiled eggs. Yesterday I bought another dozen of organic eggs and I regretted that choice when I got home. I have such limited options for protein in this country. I do not like meat. The smell of fried or grilled meat makes me nauseous now for some reason. Same as fried chicken. I don’t like the preparations that comes with cooking seafood. Anyway, I haven’t been out for a run in 2 days. The weather’s been pretty bad during afternoons. It’s always pouring. I understand since it’s June and I can only expect rains. I wonder how I’ll do during typhoon season. I don’t want to run on a treadmill. Please let me have clear sky afternoons 2 hrs a day!

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“The reason that the rich were so rich, Vimes reasoned, was because they managed to spend less money. Take boots, for example. He earned thirty-eight dollars a month plus allowances. A really good pair of leather boots cost fifty dollars. But an affordable pair of boots, which were sort of OK for a season or two and then leaked like hell when the cardboard gave out, cost about ten dollars. Those were the kind of boots Vimes always bought, and wore until the soles were so thin that he could tell where he was in Ankh-Morpork on a foggy night by the feel of the cobbles. But the thing was that good boots lasted for years and years. A man who could afford fifty dollars had a pair of boots that’d still be keeping his feet dry in ten years’ time, while the poor man who could only afford cheap boots would have spent a hundred dollars on boots in the same time and would still have wet feet. This was the Captain Samuel Vimes ‘Boots’ theory of socioeconomic unfairness.”

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powering through my 5k walk/run activity this afternoon despite feeling woozy from allergies. I always make sure I have antihistamine in my pocket at all times because being outside triggers my allergic rhinitis. I know it would probably be better for me to switch to running treadmill at the gym? but I prefer running in nature and my social anxiety can’t handle going to the gym. I’m fine, though. Sometimes I don’t get allergy attacks especially if I do my runs at 5 in the morning but I hate waking up early so much tf

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Just because I can run a 3K now doesn’t mean I can join yvonne in her half marathon this September. Srsly, the most delusional I have ever been 😫