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I just want to make it through my best friend’s wedding.

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Seriously I think everyone has at least felt this a time or two.

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Day after day the feeling never goes away. After a 8 year marriage 9 years together. The trauma of being yelled at and having things thrown at my face for even stating I was tired after a 16 hour shift. It’s hard to openly talk about all the things In the picture. Happily divorced and found my person.

Things I wish I could say without ridicule:

This was not in my job description.

I think it’s unfair that we have assigned parking and I’m the furthest parking spot away from the door based off I’m the youngest when I am indeed permanently disabled and have the paperwork to prove it and a handicap parking permit.

My body is relapsing and I need to have the day off or work from home.

My legs lost feeling. I CANT WALK A-HOLE!

I need help.

Why am I always the responsible adult.

I know there are many medications for this issue. We don’t share a body. In return you don’t know my pain tolerance or my thrush-hold. Trust me. If I wanted medication I’ll go to a doctor’s office.

I sleep 15 hours. Yes. I am still tired. Let me fall back to sleep and you do what you wanted me to do.

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Is it just me or is EVERY community falling a part internally?

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Fair

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Its been a hot sec!

Well, I am back. Back here to do what I do best. What have you missed...well, Since you asked. I have moved to Washington state to start a whole new life. I am working my ass off as always. I am working multiple jobs. My favorite job is my side hustle. I am a sex educator with pure romance. I am the dildo lady hahah. Fun time fun times. I love all the wild ones. 

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How I feel about my heart. So sick of heart break.

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My Heart

My heart slowly fades into the nigh Numb from the pain Pain in which I wish I could feel Who thought I'd want to feel after all this Nights of crying wishing it wasn't silent Deep into a pillow Almost suffocating myself Just to be sure no one can hear. Wishing that the verbal knife would be pulled from my chest Some days I wish it was physical only to view my chest cavity to be reassure that my heart is still there.

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When your guy says good morning and you've got a hangover from meds and don't want to function.

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My New journey

So like most of you know life always throws you a curve ball.well,my curveball had just been released out of someone's hand and now it's all about me standing there at Homeplate bat in hand ready to take a swing at this thing called life once again. Finding my purpose all over again. Determined not to strike out. I will overcome all my battles again.

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Beyond stressed! I try and yet everyone around me makes me feel like shit. Some days you just want a simple I see what you are doing and thank you. No no no. A big fuck you. Your a dumb bitch is so easy for people to say. No respect.

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Rocking my flowers. Sunshine. It's a good day for a spoonie like me.

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So true.