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Dream

I had a weird dream. I was in the city and was asked by my boss to go to this store to get the owner to sign papers because my boss was buying the store from them. Why I was asked to do it and not a lawyer I have no idea.

Anyways I had trouble finding the store, on the forms there were multiple store name on it and I didn’t know which was the main one that needed to sign. While I was wandering around looking for the store, a group of guys were nearby and 1 was giving me attention. This guy looked younger than me, and had a latino background? He looked like Flawless Real Talk... from Rhythm and Flow on Netflix.

He ended up separating from his 2 friends and wandered around with me. There was flirting happening. Ended up not finding the place or making it there in time...and some how took me all day to find it and where I stopped dreaming it was late at night.

That’s about it, nothing juicy just flirting. I think though, in my next life...I’m gonna be with a latino guy lol.

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Obsessed with this song. This needs to be in Spotify already.

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Late

I stopped taking b/c for 2 months now, and I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it. Yes, the number of headaches have lowered. Yes, my skin is breaking out more. Yes, my monthly thing is not on schedule.

With me being late, it just prolongs the mood swings which I can’t take.

I spent the night awake in bed. At one point I got up to just sit in a different environment to cry.

I really don’t want to be the kind of person who is sensitive and gets emotional over small things.

The debate on whether to go back on b/c or not is coming to mind.

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Whats up with this business owner.

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When you’re talking to a friend and they say:

- No, I can’t tell you, you’ll laugh. - I won’t laugh, I promise.

So they tell you and you’re like:

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When students interrupt a lesson to tell a personal story that has no connection to anything

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I need cuddles.

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Tried seaweed seasoning on fries...not bad 😞 #asiangirl #foodpic #food #foodporn #fries #frenchfries #kookoochicken #seaweed #seasoning #ketchup #mississauga #taiwan #taiwanese

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Banh Mi sandwiches are simple yet SO GOOD! Discovered a place that makes them 👌👌👌 #asiangirl #mississauga #vietnamese #food #yummy #banhmi #sandwich #baguette #cat #stickers #foodpic #sogood #pitu #gimme

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First paint night experience at @cocktailsncanvas "Lavender Fields". The restaurant was dark...so coming home I notice the empty patches 😧 #asiangirl #toronto #cocktailsncanvas #millstreet #millstbrewpub #paintlounge #paint #canvas #amateur #fields #lavender

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Drink Life

Anytime I’m near alcohol, it makes me nervous a bit. People have told me it’s mind over matter and that I’m psyching myself out. I’ve tried and it doesn’t work. Now I haven’t puked in a while (maybe a year or two, hah) last night broke my streak. Within 30 minutes of drinking (a 5% cooler I might add) my mouth started to fill with saliva. That’s the major hint I know that I’m going to puke very soon. With one visit to the washroom, I puked maybe 5 times. There goes my dinner.

After puking I’m in no mood to drink again and have it come back out within minutes. No thanks. The night in general was just hectic and I was moody as f*** from puking all of my dinner prior and just sober and hungry. I was not feeling it. Verbal fights happening here and there and groping. Even going with my boyfriend, I still get groped by other guys and I just feel uncomfortable. I just end up staring at people grinding and the different types of people you see at clubs and bars.

I’ll be honest, I use to like the attention of guys when I was 16-18 years old. Now that I’m older, I feel like a prude. I don’t want to be groped by a stranger, I don’t want a guy to be staring at me for so long. Last night I was watching a guy watching a friend dance with her boyfriend and it was disgusting how he was looking at her.

If I ever become single, a club is definitely not the place I would want to meet anyone. I’m not shaming clubs in general, my college pub/club night is where I met my current boyfriend.

Last night is just another reminder that I’m getting old and not feeling this club life anymore, with or without a boyfriend.

Been listening to this song lately, it’s a throwback for sure but it’s a nice chill music.

Mace - Tell Me What You Want

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If only I had enough patience in the mornings to do this every day. #asiangirl #makeup #lipstick #nyx #nyxcosmetics #stonefox #leopard #cosmetic #lashes #goth #notreally #anastasiabeverlyhills #maybelline #lumi #loreal

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So my first year is done, yay! I passed all my courses within the percentage grade that I wanted, some I’m even surprised I received (thanks professors). Now that school is done for the summer, it feels weird knowing I don’t have any assignments to do or constantly check my school’s website to see if my marks or any changes/updates have been posted.

Since school has been out, I’ve been taking it easy. Been a bit down since the last week of classes. Has nothing to do with school itself, it’s more my family/personal life. There’s no subject to this post, I just feel like writing something to help me feel somewhat better.

I’m in the mood for feel-good movies...pretty much anything with a happy ending. So far I’ve watched 13 going 30, Last Holiday, and Shall We Dance.I know Shall We Dance isn’t the greatest movie, but I enjoy some dance movies here and there regardless of the bad acting. I’ll post my favourite parts of each movie (It’s mostly all the endings)

This is a bad quality video, but it’s the only video I could find of this scene

I need cuddling </3

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Failed

I’m ready to be done with school, I feel like I had put in more effort into my work and now that I’m in second term I’m itching to be done. I want to be done yet I’m considering taking summer courses to lighten my work load for the September term. It’s not set in stone, but I just need to figure out the financial aspects of it and how much it’ll be for a few courses plus courses in the September term.

I’m sick, it just happened today from this morning. I’ve been studying for tests this week and working on assignments/projects. I’m exhausted. I’m hoping I did decent in my two tests I completed today. Anyone else get the feeling that if you feel decent or optimistic about how you did on a test that it almost always backfires? It’s my cynical side coming out.

Been loving Ariana Grande’s new song, Dangerous Woman. Damn...it’s too catchy. I just can’t help but have it on loop. That a capella video she posted on her Vevo account on YouTube is just, ugh.

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brazilian

Had my 3rd ever brazilian wax done, I did it when I went away on a trip to Mexico and then just because I liked the longevity of the hair growth process, and now shaving is painful. When I first started shaving, it lasted a while before the hairs would start to grow back. Now it starts growing within 1 hour after shaving and it hurts and it ITCHES like a b***h. Tried this new place near my house and it was slower than the ones I had done before but the esthetician was nice and made me at ease. I only had to bite my hand 3-4 times haha. I’m glad I did it, I no longer have to feel the dreaded pokey coarse hairs poking through my underwear like a chia pet. So smooth.

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Making this a regular thing

I’m really going to try to make this a regular thing here, posting at least 1 post a week. Before I would constantly be on this account and post anything...but now I hardly go on. I must try.