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One thing or another,

Well, my stomach is feeling better.

Now, I have a huge headache. I took some acetaminophen, but it is an off brand that my husband bought. I don't think it works as well as another acetaminophen. I've been sitting here an hour with no relief. Ugh.

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Friday

Work went well today. I got promoted a few weeks ago. I'm still in training because what I'm doing is more intense. I'm doing fairly well. So, I'm proud of that. My co-worker/trainer has confidence in me (she told me herself). I do not. She will be gone next week on vacation. My anxiety is starting to kick in. I'm dreading next week.

Came home and now I'm not doing so well. My stomach is rather upset at the moment. Probably a couple of factors. My husband's cooking (too spicy) or anxiety. I just hope I'm not coming down with something. I have to watch my stepdaughter tomorrow. I'm hoping I"ll feel better. Good thing she is mostly self sufficient.

This will probably be all for me today/tonight.

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"Stop calling me anything. I am not your Princess. I am certainly not your Queen," she growled. "Leave me alone."

Chelsea stormed away from Michael. He was left standing there with an impish grin on his lips. He had struck a nerve and it made him like her even more. He set the tray of food down on the table. After her abrupt exit, he assumed she wasn't hungry. It was a shame to let the food go to waste.

Michael pulled out a chair from the dining room table and sat down. Taking a sip of orange juice, he looked around the great room. The damask tablecloth draped over the walnut table that sat twelve people easily. The wood the chairs were made of matched that of the table. The cushions were embroidered with woodland creatures. He was currently sitting on a squirrel. The hardwood under his feet was decades old. The walls were plastered with spring green fabric with a hint of a leaf pattern to it.

He chortled at the thought of being here in a place like this. Michael never imaged someone like himself being able to stay in a mansion. Yet, here he was under unnormal circumstances.

Bringing the forkful of egg to his mouth, he heard footsteps storming into the room. Looking towards the sound, he noticed Chelsea reenter the room. She was still mad at him, he could tell. Walking straight up to him, she glared at him. Taking up the glass with the orange juice in it, she downed it in one gulp, then took the toast off the plate and stomped out of the room again.

Michael started laughing.

Prompt #279

“Stop calling me Princess!” “I apologize, my Queen.”

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Not sure what to post

I'm not sure what to post. I guess an update of life? Or is that boring? Probably do that anyway. I guess I should update about my fandoms, cosplays, fan fictions, and RPGs. I'll start there.

First, an update on Fandoms. This hurts. I haven't watched The Walking Dead since Negan arrived. I haven't watched Doctor Who since the 12th Doctor. I still into Harry Potter. I have devoured Star Wars lately.

Second, an update on cosplay, fan fictions, and rpg. I haven't cosplayed in two years. I haven't had money to go to cons. I haven't written a fan fiction since 2019. My husband (more about that later) wants me to get back into writing. As for RPGs, well, I'm not sure I have the time for them. If I did, it would be slow, no responding right away like I used to years ago.

As for life, well, since being on here, which seems like a lifetime ago, I have been divorced, dated, and now remarried. This is my third AND FINAL marriage. I finally found "the one." First guy I dated after my divorce was really good. The situation was bad for me. He was polyamorous and I am not. He was married and I wanted more time with him. This did not go over well after a couple of years being together. Now, I feel they were a waste of time. Reasons for this feeling come later. Then, I dated someone that took advantage of me. He stole money from me. Wrecked my house. Wrecked my life. I had to kick him out of my house. I really regret that relationship. More time wasted.

Then, I found the one I was meant to be with for the rest of my life. I had seen him times before, but never knew exactly who he was. Ironic things happened that feel like destiny now. He was the cop I had started to admire on the side of the road as he sat in his cruiser scanning for speeders. I had often thought of getting him a cup of coffee or speeding by him just to have him pull me over. But I never did. My mind told him he's probably happily married with kids. One day, he wasn't there anymore. I prayed nothing had happened to him. Then, later, I saw this guy with this cute little mixed girl playing with their dog in the front yard of a house on my way home. I thought, he looks like a nice guy. My mind told me his wife was probably inside the house making dinner or something and it also told me, perhaps not. I wanted to take a long walk just so I could walk by his house to see him and say hi. But I never did. Finally feeling lonely, depressed, and anxious that I would never find anyone, I met this guy online. He was friendly, polite (no dick pics), and easy to talk to. We met in person. We chatted. I found out he was the police officer that sat on the side of the road. He rented the house where I saw his adopted daughter, dog, and him playing in front.

Can I just say "wow!" He had been there the whole time, but I didn't know it. That's how I know he's the one I was meant to be with until we depart this world.

Okay, so that's what's new with me. I hope to chat with some of you soon!

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I'm back!

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Worst break up in my life

My (now ex) boyfriend wanted to “talk.” This is after I had an anxiety attack and unfortunately my anxiety said something I shouldn’t. Instead of being understanding, he lashed out and said not to talk to him. I tried to communicate but was ignored. So when he said we had to talk, I knew what was coming. I told him what time I was available to talk. He didn’t call at the time specified. He text me at 9:50pm, after I had gone to bed, to then ask if I we were going to talk. He said, “Guessing that’s a no,” when he didn’t hear from me. He also knows I go to bed at 9pm (I get up hella early). It’s like he forgot everything about me. I told him the next day that I waited for a phone call or a knock at my door at 8:30pm and stayed up until 9pm but I was exhausted. I hadn’t been sleeping well to begin with and after his lash out, I barely slept. The following day I get an email. A fucking email, to break up with me. He didn’t have the balls to talk to me directly or face to face. Coward! He threw flaws at me. He threw my anxiety at me (which he was told from day 1 that I have and at the time it wasn’t being managed but i was trying the best I could). He blamed me for our failed relationship. After reading it I felt insignificant and small. I wanted to die. I figured without me in the world my anxiety would go with me. Then he could be happy and I want him to be happy. I wrote an email in return. I lashed out in defense. I told him his time management was his problem. I said he should not be polyamorous because he can’t handle two relationships. But I didn’t blame his anxiety. I didn’t blame him for our break up. I didn’t deny anything he said because yes, some of it was true. My anxiety does get the better of me at times. But he knew that. Yes, I wanted to spend time with him and a bit more, but he said he wasn’t spending enough time with his other relationship. I had one weekend a month to spend with him. She had every night and 3 weekends out of the month. How is that not enough time? Yeah, I may have seen him a bit more during the week at times because we were in the same hobby together (community theatre). I can’t help it that his other woman was not. But it wasn’t like we spent quality time together. We had roles to do. He then said I guess I have done too much damage to remain friends. FUCK YEAH!!  I feel like I shouldn’t be in this world because of what he wrote to me. He said I know I can’t be forgiven. HELL NO! I cannot forgive the wolf that tore me to shreds. He started back pedaling more. And now he is at the point where he wants to talk to me face to face, finally. He said he will try to be an adult. I’m still contemplating.

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The Phantom of the Opera   {Sentence Starters}

“It frightens me.”

“No use resisting.”

“Have you no pity?“

“Don’t be frightened.”

“Pity comes too late.”

“Your hands are cold.”

“Please, it’s useless…”

“Help me say goodbye.”

“Really, you were perfect.”

“Show some compassion…“

“You were all that mattered.“

“You will understand in time.”

“Come to me, strange angel.”

“Quite a night, I’m impressed!”

“I only wish I knew your secret.”

“You have truly made my night!”

“Do what you like, only free her!”

“Forgive me, please forgive me!”

“Go, now, don’t let them find you!”

“Stories like this can’t come true.”

“I’m here, nothing can harm you.”

“You’re safe, no one will find you.”

“In the dark, it is easy to pretend.”

“Love me… that’s all I ask of you.”

“Only then can you belong to me.”

“Anywhere you go, let me go, too.“

“What kind of life have you known?“

“Makes you glad, makes you proud!”

“Promise me that all you say is true.”

“I love her! Does that mean nothing?”

“Your lover makes a passionate plea!”

“We’ve passed the point of no return.”

“Too late for prayers and useless pity.”

“You try my patience, make your choice!”

“My power over you grows stronger, yet.”

“I had rather hoped that you would come.”

“The world showed no compassion to me!”

“Say you’ll love me every waking moment.“

“Wishing you were, somehow, here, again.”

“It’s in your soul that the true distortion lies.”

“Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation.“

“Down that path into darkness deep as hell!“

“You’re talking in riddles, and it’s not like you.”

“In sleep he sang to me, in dreams he came.”

“Teach me to live, give me the strength to try!”

“But, why is it secret? What have we to hide?“

“Say you want me with you, here, beside you.”

“Track down this murderer! He must be found!”

“Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind.”

“Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime.“

“Hide your face so the world will never find you.”

“In your mind, you’ve already succumbed to me.”

“Night time sharpens, heightens each sensation.”

“Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before.”

“Don’t think about the way things might have been.”

“If you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me.”

“Those who have seen your face draw back in fear.”

“There will never be a day when I won’t think of you.”

“He was bound to love you when he heard you sing.”

“God give me courage to show you. You are not alone.”

“No kind word from anyone! No compassion anywhere!”

“Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams.”

“Have you gorged yourself, at last, in your lust for blood?“

“No more talk of darkness. Forget these wide-eyed fears.”

“Why should I make her pay for the sins which are yours?”

“Think of me, think of me fondly when we’ve said goodbye.”

“I’m here, with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you.”

“Remember me, once in a while… please promise me you’ll try.”

“Too many years fighting back tears. Why can’t the past just die?“

“And, now, how you’ve repaid me… denied me and betrayed me.”

“You will curse the day you did not do all that ______ asked of you!”

“Long ago, it seems so long ago, how young and innocent we were.”

“Softly, deftly, music shall caress you. Hear it, feel it, Secretly possess you.“

“Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar… and live as you never lived before!”

“The tears I might have shed for your dark fate grow cold and turn to tears of hate!”

“No more memories, no more silent tears, no more gazing across the wasted years.“

“Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in to the power of the music of the night.“

“Turn your face away from the garish light of day, turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light.”

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So what is the norm now

I remember when we used to RP on tumblr. Now it is through the messaging system of tumblr? why is that? So no one sees our story? So people can’t judge our writing? I miss posting RPs ON tumblr.  Although, I have one person willing to RP on tumblr. Thanks @girl-in-the-tardis

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#100 Dialogue Prompts to Make a Reader Swoon... (Okay maybe not all of them)

Keep reading

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And I’ll be by myself Valentine’s Day. :/ As usual. 

🎵cuz i’m my old soulmate🎵 

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I need more to follow

I need more RPers to follow. I need more people to follow. Give me ideas please!

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Ugh, yes.

Meirl

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So, I'm curious. What breed is the good meowmens cats? Well, ok, you told us the TV ones, but what about the version based on the good omen books? I've been trying to find the answer in your tags, but I can't. I just found a heck ton of cute and funny art.

Crowley is an Oriental Shorthair

And Aziraphale is a Selkirk Rex

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Yes please. I find smut to be a tad overrated to the point where it makes me not want to RP with someone. 

okay but i feel like there need to be more make-out sessions in rp? like it seems like it’s either smut smut or kissing, but come on guys. make outs. like just super slow, sensual, making out with wandering hands and fingers getting lost in hair and slowly grinding in someones lap. sleepy make outs where they’re still tired from the night before, steamy make outs in locker rooms or in dark corners. make outs that lead to smutty things or make outs that don’t. exploratory make outs or slow make outs or frantic make outs just COME ON YOU GUYS WHY IS THERE NOT MORE MAKING OUT 

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Random Text Meme Part 3

[text]: Do you have to work today?

[text]: I’m almost there

[text]: Want to see a movie later?

[text]: I love you

[text]: I’m actually a bit busy at the moment

[text]: I’m really tired

[text]: Do you need some help?

[text]: I’ve got an app for that

[text]: I need help moving some stuff

[text]: I need to get something to eat

[text]: That’s a bit kinky

[text]: Stop texting me and just call instead

[text]: Are you thinking what I’m thinking?

[text]: Want to hang out later?

[text]: Want to go shopping later?

[text]: I have whipped cream and handcuffs and I’m waiting for you ;)

[text]: I read a new book today

[text]: Could you pick up some cold medicine for me?

[text]: There’s a spider on my wall!

[text]: The weather is actually pretty great today

[text]: Do you happen to have some tools I could borrow?

[text]: Can you not do that?

[text]: You are beautiful

[text]: You make me blush sometimes

[text]: Where are you?

[text]: I found a new game to play on my cell phone. Want to play it with me?

[text]: I miss you

[text]: I just bought a new game

[text]: I need a hug right about now

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Fluffy sentence starters

“I care for you more than anything else.”

“I started a fire in the fireplace just for us.”

“Stop it! I’m ticklish!”

“You are so cuddly.”

“Yes, I am holding your hand.”

“There’s no better feeling than being in your arms.”

“You are under arrest for being too cute. But your hands where I can hold them.”

“Could we lie down and cuddle for a bit?”

“Want to make a blanket fort?“

“You are very warm.”

“I have an important question for you. Are you ticklish?”

“We need more blankets!”

“I could just fall asleep on you like this.”

“Want to get some ice cream?”