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hellooo additional new screenshot add on w/ her saying she "thinks I was too hot to be 14", a video add on as i promised with a slow scrolling of our chat, a voice message to me fully captioned for those who are HoH, etc. i don't know what more proof her friends need. (sorry for taking the link off initially her name wasn't censored) yendy/jell-o101/jellyfishwishes/starfallbluez fontc//st art as well that she shared with me because we had 'sin' / porn exchanges for her to masturbate to. censored where it needs to be w/ nudity but full piece visible.

EDIT: She goes under starfallbluez now on Tiktok. Not sure if she goes by that name everywhere else now. Short form evidence pile that has a couple of screenshots and a video of our interactions over the course of a few years while I was 12, herself 19. To put it into perspective, she's 27 years old now, I'm about to turn 22 this month. Our interactions went on for years, talking up to when I was 16, when I cut her off. Working on a document with @carriioneater a lot more evidence and a lot less scrambled together against @jelly-fish-wishes/starfallbluez (and also formally known on Tiktok under the same user -- and Youtube) in the works.

The last screenshot batch was taken on Tumblr, her username was jell-o101. We mostly talked in messenger, where she'd spent time trying (and successfully) taught me how to draw NSFW art pieces for her to consume and get off to. Her FB name was publically available, so for the interest of clarity, I censored her last name, but her name is Yendy. In that time, she had me draw Under'tail' pieces of Sans and Papyrus, which I didn't agree to her liking, but she was a huge inspiration for me and I ended up rolling with it because she shipped them. She had me fetch art works from the internet for her as well to get off to. She's currently more localized in the Super Mario Bro's fandom, (and Super Paper Mario), and Cookie Run Kingdom which is. All very concerning to me because of her history with me. Anyway - until the longer form version I'm making comes out, happy pride month!! Especially to @jelly-fish-wishes, or now, under starfallbluez -- who said she couldn't be with me not because I was a minor, but because that'd make her a lesbian :D — EDIT TO CLARIFY SHE IS NOT HOMOPHOBIC: she was more worried abt her mom finding out she’d have been dating a girl (at the time) rather than a minor (my DA post on this same topic goes into it further, the whole story, rather than short and summarized https://www.deviantart.com/stariitea/art/VENT-PA-Finally-talking-about-it-1202841161)

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Wow, I actually haven't seen your posts pop up in years, but I got pushed your posts today about what happened. I followed you over 6 years ago when I was about 14-15 because of camp camp and sally face!

I'm so sorry about what you went through, I had similar experiences with people like that person back in the day on quotev and deviantart and amino. You're very brave for putting this out there now, and it's heinous that this person's friends are going after you.

Happy that I was pushed these posts today, as I can rediscover your art :) Protect your peace, lots of love

Aww! Wait, this is so sweet ;; <33 I'm so glad in a way I could help you rediscover my blog here! Even if it's not by the sweetest means of posts haha ^^; It's incredibly reassuring to be told this, you're so incredibly kind and to bring up your own lived experience as well is so brave and I'm glad you did! It feels a lot less 'alone' in that sense. I've anticipated for years regarding this topic that I'd have people like that (or her friends,) chew me up and I didn't speak on it for a long time because of that. The support being larger is incredibly reassuring and something I needed to know ;; I'm so glad it was too, even if it wasn't a happy topic! I'll be trying to continue posting about fandom space things, I just haven't for a while because I haven't exactly been neck deep in many fandom for a while - this blog is more fandom-centric than my DeviantArt page which is more "anything goes", haha! Hope you stick around for that :3 !!

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Hi - So, to Yendy/Jell-o/Jelly/Star's friends or fans who needs a reason to understand why I didn't come out about what she did immediately after it happened, I present you my ask box here on why I didn't, and what I anticipated happening while I was very much still a minor at the time right after it happened:

@headcanonlady Sooo, gentle reminder why I don't have asks enabled for anonymous asks on. Honestly, love to see some brave faces try to do this! Again, I'm sorry that your favorite artist ever is a groomer. I've nothing to say about that but a shrug. And another reminder; I was 12 going on 13 when I first met her and didn't have any internet safety classes, etc, when I was younger. She was a huge inspiration for me back then, and I wanted to do everything in my power to stay friends with an animator I thought was amazing. Sorry you feel that way, I was a child and I didn't know what was going on. 🤷 You keep living your brave life, I'm sure if you keep pursing this dream hobby here, you'll be in the right place and right time with the right person who won't tolerate this as well as I do! :)

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Okay! Going through this. Again.

So - because I can't reblog it, because this person has oh-so-kindly blocked me so I can't directly address it; I feel the need to, since instead of just asking me, the post they made feels like a needlessly complicated theory on if I'm a liar about my experience.

Post I'll be addressing tonight, click here.

I'll be going through it thoroughly and carefully, it's upsetting to be called a liar about my trauma. CW: Grooming, Pedophilia

We'll start off from the beginning of the post.

To address this, and I wish I could to them, I unfortunately genuinely didn't know who feralwavez is, and I can say with certainty they weren't me. I've already told your other friend who DM'ed me to accuse me of the same thing, who understands I genuinely don't know and I'm sorry I can't just summon a reasoning I don't know out of thin air.

If it was a friend, roommate, or someone I'd told who made a fabricated account, I can't be sure. And, if it was, I'm genuinely sorry on their behalf, however, I have said this before, I'll say it again. I can't control people and what they do if it was one of my friends who I'd explained the situation to. I've no idea, and I know that isn't satisfying to hear, @pastelbiohazard . I one hundred percent see and understand the same pot holes of why their listed age is weird, but I've no comment, because I genuinely don't know who they were and if they were trying to be ironic about the situation or if they were a serious account.

It did kick off my posting about her though because that was the straw that broke the camel's back. Onwards,

Yep, yep! Great work on finding that already stated information out. I was, in fact, 12, friend, congratulations! I've stated this already in my long post about this, and that gives me such nice clarity that you, her -- I guess? -- roommate, friend, didn't read what I wrote. I rounded my age up to 13 because it was April, my birthday was in June, on the 19th. (Screenshot @pastelbiohazard is referring to.)

I genuinely hate that it never occurred to you that me saying "my friends taught me things" wasn't an attempt to make myself look more mature and 'cool' to appeal to an an animator and artist I looked up to. That, and to address the lemon fic. Lemon fics were a crock pot of old 2000's culture, and I wrote it because I was inspired by literal fanfics on the internet and wanted to be like other people in writing it. I didn't even know what the citrus scale was until I was an adult, I genuinely thought as a kid, that was just something you did. I've no idea if you know what teenagers are like, but they kind of just do that when puberty begins to hit. Now, the Chara Undertale post there and why I said I didn't like the fandom. I'll let you check the date there, and the description. And in case you don't want to: May 15th, 2017 -- A year into talking with Yendy, which in the first year of us talking, she sent me out on NSFW blogs/images/audio hunts. Could you guess the NSFW I stated I was exposed to was because I was sent on hunts for the NSFW material for her, or are we ignoring that conveniently? Of course I didn't tell that stranger that she was having me be exposed to them, she was someone I deemed as my best friend. There was no reason for me to drop that an adult was exposing me repeatedly. No reason for me to tell them the full and honest truth, because I trusted her.

Sooo. I've known my fiance since October 2018 - we got into a relationship Nov. 20th, 2019. I think you're right in a sense that we might've gotten our dates wrong, I just know I cut Yendy off on May 24th, 2019. It was 3 1/2 years, my bad, I guess. I don't think it makes anything any better. Ontooo the crush part of this.

Soooo, fun fact: If you'd read my post, which I'll link again, pleaase click here -- You would've known the crush I had on her and her not feeling the same way isn't true! She had showered me with love and affection I'd never received from anyone that wasn't a parent before, you can imagine how a child would want to cling onto something so new, right? You'd imagine that the kid would want it back when the love and praise and affection is taken away so suddenly? I developed a crush on her, due to the fact she took every ounce of affection away. She was hint-hinting me towards wanting to tell me something, and I eventually caved and let her tell me. She did, and she told me she liked me. I tried to reciprocate it out of panic, because I never explored my sexuality or had a real, serious, relationship. I didn't want to lose a friend.

Then, when I did, she panicked instead, which wasn't something I was anticipating, I thought reciprocating would make her feel the best. It didn't. Hence:

Then she blocked me, I went and cried to my parents as a child does when something distresses them, and then by the time I came back (minutes, maybe at most an hour,) she unblocked me, messaged me everywhere, apologizing up and down, sending me voice messages of weepy sad voice saying she was so sorry. And to point out, and I'm so sorry you're in denial, I know it's upsetting to hear especially if you live with her. But she had every intention to wanting to date me. She told me once "maybe one day" and I clung to it so hard I didn't get into any other relationships for a long while because I was saving myself for her.

I feel bad for any partners who dated her at the time, too, because she said she had no hopes they'd stay, all the while, I was still on porn fetch quests for her.

Which, I will be posting the audios of her voice messages, eventually, once I find it in my files. Since it seems like you, and a few other of her friends genuinely have it set in your head this wasn't real and are doing loops and hurdles to justify it and say that I, the victim who was a minor, is to be blamed for an adult's actions. Now to the end bit:

I'm so sorry, but I don't really care how you met her, I pity the fact you still want to call her a friend, all sincerity. I don't care what led you to being friends, because this really, genuinely, isn't about you. I'm so glad you can say she's "a changed person now!" I'm afraid I don't see the same, I went through so much in the most fundamental periods of my life that I could've spent dating guys or girls my own age. Being young and having fun, going to school events without being fearful of the events because of an adult who wanted my full attention all the time. You saying there that, "as soon as she realized how wrong what she was doing was she put a stop to it and tried to keep her distance". You're very wrong. I had to block her. Everywhere. Literally every single one of my socials that had a messaging function. She didn't want to leave. She sent me notes on DA, used the old Youtube Chat function which I also had to block her from, and even Google Chat, for crying out loud.

(unrelated screenshots to when I cut her off to prove the fact, yes, we were indeed using Google Chats as a last resort form of communication. For this case; this is a GC we had with my ex-boyfriend, see time stamps on the messages. Red messages mean she's blocked, but I was still able to click to view.)

I don't know if hearing it straight from the victim is what you want in order to believe that yes, this did happen. It is exactly as bad as I've put it. I genuinely want you to know, the accusations of being called a liar about my experience with her is upsetting. You never bothered to contact me or my fiance who could fill in gaps you might've had for you, you're just listening to the one who did the abusing. I genuinely hope this sheds light for you, and that you have the day you deserve, friend.

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@pastelbiohazard @candythrills

Ok so hiii ive known the victim, my fiance, Pepin, for 6 years now & I met him after he cut ties with “””Jelly”””.

I’m surprised you’ve known her for 10 years & didn’t know about all the nitty gritty details of this, that’s when everything started for Pepin! Very very interesting to me that many of the folks she knew from the duration of the time my fiance was being groomed by her had no idea Pepin existed, bc Pepin certainly heard a lot about her friends! And her partners! And her sex life. When he was 12-16. Yuck :P

On top of that, she REALLY seemed to be thinking about having sex with & dating this kid! A lot! Like concerningly frequently!

(Also idk why she was drawing the height gap between 5’ and 5’3 like that all the time, Pepin wasn’t even done growing but 5’ on my current 5’6 is like. Chin height. C’mon. You would not be face-first in his non-existent, mid-puberty boobs, girl.)

And meeting up with him!

I hit the image limit so this is just part 1 lol

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Hey there! Just wanted to let ya know that I find you super brave for speaking up and say the truth! You deserve all the best, really. And my respect goes out to you. 💚

I'm sorry you have went through this and I just hope people will be more alert now when it comes to her.

Anyways, you have my full support!! 🍀

Much greetings and lots of good wishes,

Lu (1-UpBoys)

Hello!! I appreciate hearing this— these sweet asks are so incredibly important to me, more than y'all know 🫂💛

It's so sweet, and a really good reminder that her circle of friends that don't want to believe her to be anything else but perfect isn't a huge group of people. I genuinely hope I could keep people safe by speaking out about her. I dread the idea of someone else getting hurt by her hands.

Something I'll attach to this reply post; I've been trying to avoid any of what her friends are posting and let @carriioneater take any screenshots I didn't add initially from here. Simply because all of this has made me feel like it's all incredbly raw, like I'd just cut her off, yesterday. It feels fresh ... not good for me to keep engaging in, in other words ^^ — at best, I'll reblog screenshots he attaches to his responses to them, because it's all the same thing i would say, plus it helps get it out there a little more. And, it's building on our public evidence against her.

Just for now, we're on a trip and I'm trying really hard to enjoy it! 💛

I couldn't thank everyone enough for showing their love, I'd been scared of what her friends or people who knew her would've said for years ... its not all bad, though, and I couldnt appreciate you guys enough for being here 🫂💛

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Hey, I just wanted to say I’m sorry people are coming to that shitstain of a groomer’s defense. Thank you so much for sharing your story and alerting the public. God only knows how many people you’ve protected by that act alone.

And congrats to you and your fiancé! I hope only the best comes y’all’s way.

Hey, friend! It's so sweet you said that 💛

Its alright. I've been sitting with it for years ever since it's happened, it's something I really, kind of expected from fans that idolize her, or close friends she could have magically spun the story to be more appealing. I would like to think my coming out about it will protect others from her, but seeing her tik tok (under starfallbluez) following at 18k, and her making no statement there about her actions makes me anxious for her following. Insanely so. I don’t have as big of a following there to assume people would see it as they did here.

I really appreciate your words of kindness, my friend! It means the world. And thank you so much! We're hoping for only the best ourselves. 😭💛

Something I'd like to add to this reply, that isn't quite related, but is about her is that, even with her public apology only posted on tumblr, on @/starfallbluez - I don't think she actually cares like she claims she does in it. It feels performative, because she went on to her other media's (all under various users of jell-o101, starfallbluez, jelly-fish-wishes, jellyfishwishes101) with the bio, "everything's okay now". I had a sliver of hope that she did care, but given that fact? It just tells me she doesn't. And she's trying to walk it off and act like nothing happened at all. It hurts to see, but I really should've expected it.

But all of that aside, huge thanks for your ask here, it's comforting to know my story is getting around and hopefully makes it's way around thoroughly enough that she will not have a chance to hurt someone else.

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Hiii. Reblog and attaching more evidence, because I found more context and damning evidence I'd compiled. First screenshot details how she gave her (then boyfriend) a jacket bondage BJ. I was 13-14. Second is when we were seriously considering meeting each other in real life, and the topic of how we'd hug each other wasn't an easy topic anymore. All of the sudden, she drew out how she couldn't fathom how to hug me without my breasts touching her face. Also 12-14 range. Third, is the explicit Sans and Papyrus RP we did, though just one screenshot, because she deleted her FB and inherently, her messages left with her. My fiance has the chat logs downloaded, so he could go into more depth if it's necessary. I was 12-13.

EDIT: She goes under starfallbluez now on Tiktok. Not sure if she goes by that name everywhere else now. Short form evidence pile that has a couple of screenshots and a video of our interactions over the course of a few years while I was 12, herself 19. To put it into perspective, she's 27 years old now, I'm about to turn 22 this month. Our interactions went on for years, talking up to when I was 16, when I cut her off. Working on a document with @carriioneater a lot more evidence and a lot less scrambled together against @jelly-fish-wishes/starfallbluez (and also formally known on Tiktok under the same user -- and Youtube) in the works.

The last screenshot batch was taken on Tumblr, her username was jell-o101. We mostly talked in messenger, where she'd spent time trying (and successfully) taught me how to draw NSFW art pieces for her to consume and get off to. Her FB name was publically available, so for the interest of clarity, I censored her last name, but her name is Yendy. In that time, she had me draw Under'tail' pieces of Sans and Papyrus, which I didn't agree to her liking, but she was a huge inspiration for me and I ended up rolling with it because she shipped them. She had me fetch art works from the internet for her as well to get off to. She's currently more localized in the Super Mario Bro's fandom, (and Super Paper Mario), and Cookie Run Kingdom which is. All very concerning to me because of her history with me. Anyway - until the longer form version I'm making comes out, happy pride month!! Especially to @jelly-fish-wishes, or now, under starfallbluez -- who said she couldn't be with me not because I was a minor, but because that'd make her a lesbian :D — EDIT TO CLARIFY SHE IS NOT HOMOPHOBIC: she was more worried abt her mom finding out she’d have been dating a girl (at the time) rather than a minor (my DA post on this same topic goes into it further, the whole story, rather than short and summarized https://www.deviantart.com/stariitea/art/VENT-PA-Finally-talking-about-it-1202841161)

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EDIT: She goes under starfallbluez now on Tiktok. Not sure if she goes by that name everywhere else now. She reverted her username on bsky back to jell-o101 Short form evidence pile that has a couple of screenshots and a video of our interactions over the course of a few years while I was 12, herself 19. To put it into perspective, she's 27 years old now, I'm about to turn 22 this month. Our interactions went on for years, talking up to when I was 16, when I cut her off. Working on a document with @carriioneater a lot more evidence and a lot less scrambled together against @jelly-fish-wishes/starfallbluez/jell-o101 (and also formally known on Tiktok under the same user -- and Youtube) in the works.

The last screenshot batch was taken on Tumblr, her username was jell-o101. We mostly talked in messenger, where she'd spent time trying (and successfully) taught me how to draw NSFW art pieces for her to consume and get off to. Her FB name was publically available, so for the interest of clarity, I censored her last name, but her name is Yendy. In that time, she had me draw Under'tail' pieces of Sans and Papyrus, which I didn't agree to her liking, but she was a huge inspiration for me and I ended up rolling with it because she shipped them. She had me fetch art works from the internet for her as well to get off to. She's currently more localized in the Super Mario Bro's fandom, (and Super Paper Mario), and Cookie Run Kingdom which is. All very concerning to me because of her history with me. Anyway - until the longer form version I'm making comes out, happy pride month!! Especially to @jelly-fish-wishes, or now, under starfallbluez -- who said she couldn't be with me not because I was a minor, but because that'd make her a lesbian :D — EDIT TO CLARIFY SHE IS NOT HOMOPHOBIC: she was more worried abt her mom finding out she’d have been dating a girl (at the time) rather than a minor (my DA post on this same topic goes into it further, the whole story, rather than short and summarized https://www.deviantart.com/stariitea/art/VENT-PA-Finally-talking-about-it-1202841161)

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Hellooo!! um so i saw your ask button on! and i wanted to ask a question :3 soooo i've followed you for a while and ive followed you on your deviantart too! i also followed someone you seemed like you were friends with?? she goes by @jelly-fish-wishes on here! i think she was jell-o101 on deviantart :3

when i asked her the same kind of question like this one though she blocked me so it might be a personal question to ask i guess.. did you two have bad blood or something like that? :< also did you know each other like as friends or were you two like acquaintances?? :P

Oh - I actually didn't expect to be talking about this here? But uh... I'd really rather not get into it on your ask, my friend ^^; All I will say here is that yes, we were friends, we're not now. I hung around her when I was around 12, she knew me when she was 19. We were friends for a couple of years but the relationship was kind of complicated. Without getting too far into it, I wouldn't recommend associating with her, or her content since you're a minor. She's not the best person to be around ^^;

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Warning Signs

UGHHH I love this game so much — I still think about it so much and I have so many opinions on how there’s a lot of metaphors that are brilliant and not an outlet to express them by :C … ANYWAYS - I LOVE this scene in the game because of the metaphors it uses, the corporate ladder, the literal Warning signs that appear and the alarm bell that rings out when you keep going. Not only that, he’s in an endless ocean, walking through water is already hard by itself, so it lends itself another metaphor for how it was hard for him to go to meet Jimmy. How all the warning signs were in his face, how he just knew what Jimmy was going to say. Until, of course, the “sun” rises (because later when he does, he’s getting closer to the cockpit where Jimmy is,) and he keeps going until it inevitably blows up in his face. Literally. Made on Animal Jam because ya :3c (full screenshot)

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"I'm taking responsibility."

Made on Animal Jam for funzies - Wasn't approved, but that's alright :3

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"Have It Out"

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"I HOPE THIS HURTS."

it's him!!! it's curly!!!!!!!!! i love the part where they all had a happy ending (except 4 jimbo!!!) <33333

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Hiii! I’m one of said friends, here’s mine! :D

(I also forgot to post it LMAO IM SORRY - Also it’s been so long since I posted anything on Tumblr,, Hiiii 😭)

I just found these in my camera roll and realized I never actually posted them, I did an art challenge with a couple friends like six months ago JEBBDNXND

[citruzybee]

Saw the reply, my bad! A prompt more solid I have is the potential for Jon and Martin both to be relaxing together and sometimes it just … Hits Jon, being someone to spoon anyways, he could probably hold Martin’s stomach in a palm with great tenderness and imagining sweet ideas with Martin and the prospect. Though, I can’t say Martin gets much explanation when he does this, but it’s not like he minds it anyways, he’s not going to turn a relaxing cuddle and tea time down. Maybe he even finds the spur of the moment really quite cute from Jon. :)

On the other hand, prompt, maybe mutual baby fever sharing — where both of them find themselves very cuddly and taking each other in, maybe briefly talking about the idea while cuddling together — it might even be a hard time to stop them from getting a little out of hand with plain old relaxation when they’re both baby fever hit, for obvious reasons. 🥺

(Hope this prompt makes sense and fits your ideas of them too! Huge thanks if you do look at these prompts too :])

hmm I like the idea of Jon quietly daydreaming about preggers!Martin while Martin is completely clueless about it

bonus angst: he's afraid to bring it up to Martin because he doesn't want him to feel pressured/he knows that Martin has some deep-seated family-related trauma and he might be uncomfortable with the idea