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“& I’m still wishing to live outside of this body, / wishing to disappear & reappear, only when i want to.”

— Kailah Figueroa, from “june 4th, new york city,” published in Homology Lit

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Dunya Mikhail, “Non-Military Statements”, The War Works Hard (trans. Elizabeth Winslow)

[Text ID: “ I thank everyone I don’t love. They don’t cause me heartache; they don’t make me write long letters; they don’t disturb my dreams. I don’t wait for them anxiously; I don’t read their horoscopes in magazines; I don’t dial their numbers; I don’t think of them. I thank them a lot. They don’t turn my life upside down.”]

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goodreads my beloved

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Reblog to hug the person you reblogged this from and tell them that everything's going to be okay

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dust

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glitter

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sparkle

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Take my tears, hold them, drop them, let them slip away

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Anna Akhmatova, tr. by Lenore Mayhew and William Mcnaughton, from Poem Without A Hero and Selected Poems; “In a dream”

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lingering

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could i drown

could weight crush me

it does not crush me

it stays with me

i stay with it

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i do not want to be

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sometimes

i hate existing

i hate being here

here

i am grateful

for all that i have

but

there is weariness

i am tired

i do not want to be

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so often i feel like im

not anybody

i could just be invisible

i could just go away

i could just disappear

i could turn into nothingness

nothingness is something too

is it not