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never. you deserve a shoulder to lean on, an ear to talk to, a dinner to share. love is a mutual thing and if people don’t make an effort to love you then you shouldn’t make an effort to love them. its hard, and its scary - but you will survive. you will find the love you give. it will cycle back to you. rain spends a lot of time in the clouds before it becomes a part of the ocean.

when defiance, ohio said “you know it scares the hell out of me when my friends think they have no one to lean on.” and when bears in trees said “and my good friend, its okay to be upset.” and when modern baseball said “‘you wanna join me for dinner?’ man i got so much to do! but never once did i expect it not to tear me in two.” and when kimya dawson said “call me up before you’re dead, we can make some plans instead. send me an IM, i’ll be your friend.” and when the mountain goats said “come on in, we havent slept for weeks. drink some of this, it’ll put color in your cheeks.”

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yes the horrors are unimaginable and the world is cruel but you have to keep living. the fact that you are breathing and thinking and existing is such a powerful act of defiance and you cannot let something so, so simple as death take the complexity of life from you. the fact that you are, despite it all, still you, means you have faith in yourself. that you love yourself. that you want to be alive. you have to keep living because your life is similar to a dandelion growing through the sidewalk - you are the most resilient, beautiful thing and you have roots stronger and longer than you can comprehend. you just have to keep living, okay? death is not a choice.

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when defiance, ohio said “you know it scares the hell out of me when my friends think they have no one to lean on.” and when bears in trees said “and my good friend, its okay to be upset.” and when modern baseball said “‘you wanna join me for dinner?’ man i got so much to do! but never once did i expect it not to tear me in two.” and when kimya dawson said “call me up before you’re dead, we can make some plans instead. send me an IM, i’ll be your friend.” and when the mountain goats said “come on in, we havent slept for weeks. drink some of this, it’ll put color in your cheeks.”

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please select your religion affiliation below. / corv. / 12.11

happy new year. heres a poem. hope u like it.

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seeing a post that reminds you of someone who isn’t your friend anymore is so strange. i don’t know you anymore. you don’t know i finally bleached my hair. i don’t know if you ever moved out of your hometown. you don’t know my favorite song (only that it changes every week). i don’t know if that petty drama you ranted on and on about was ever resolved. we aren’t friends anymore and i don’t remember your smile and you don’t remember the sound of my voice but i keep finding strands of your hair tangled around my heart and god damn, its getting hard to live like this.

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GIRL! you’re not getting prophetic visions you’re just having another health complication .

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[guy who made characters] wowee these characters are so cool…. i wish there was more content of them :(

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rereading 4 am tumblr drafts is crazy because what does this even mean

“i love when iain bears in trees goes buuum bum bump. buuuuum buump buuump like yes queen do that thing you do.”

YOU MEAN PLAY THE BASS? HEY 4 AM CORV. YOU MEAN YOU LIKE WHEN THE BASS PLAYER PLAYS BASS?

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oh hey this is lowkey blowing up !

may i present :

hes an official bears in trees member now :)

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hes an official bears in trees member now :)

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thinking about alone in the basement and mossy cobblestone and the unintentional (or intentional) correlations

like “i am content in the mess i have molded / wishing this skateboard would catch me when i fall” with “and ill take you home / as soon as i have wheels more stable than a skateboard. / (you alright?)”

BUT ALSO! “i will keep the concrete company / i will let it tend and nurse my wounds.” AND THEN “pieces of me line the pavement / my blood soaks the cracks in the road.” IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS I SWEAR………

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you think youve seen it all and then someone tells you you’re being transphobic for having “neopronouns” (el/ella) in your bio. god forbid a girl is spanish i guess ?

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“but what if there are no raspberries? what if this is simply a brush of thistles?” but thistle flowers are beautiful and we have found ways to make use of the gifts the earth gives us. every little thing in life has a purpose and if you take a moment to look around you i’m certain you will find a bit of joy from mother nature. yes your traumas and sorrows are awful and you did not deserve that. i simply ask that you consider what and who you would’ve missed out on. that you become grateful for where you are, despite the past. you have pricked your finger on the brambles, and instead of cutting them all down them you learn to avoid them. that is the beauty of being alive. feeling everything one moment at a time. listening to the lessons the world hands you. learning the dangers of the world and learning how to take your depression out to dinner. life becomes easier when you realize the bonds between natural phenomena and your own life. and what if there are raspberries?

yes the world is cruel and sharp but so are raspberry bushes and bouquets of roses and thunderstorms and sidewalks and broken necklaces yet we find beauty in all of those, despite the large warning signs. we see threatening and dangerous things and we find the pleasure and fun in it. there is a reason roller coasters and skydiving and horror movies exist and what im saying is that you have to keep going because you havent found the raspberries yet, you haven’t seen the roses, you haven’t felt the boom of thunder in your bones and you haven’t walked on the pavement barefoot.

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yes the world is cruel and sharp but so are raspberry bushes and bouquets of roses and thunderstorms and sidewalks and broken necklaces yet we find beauty in all of those, despite the large warning signs. we see threatening and dangerous things and we find the pleasure and fun in it. there is a reason roller coasters and skydiving and horror movies exist and what im saying is that you have to keep going because you havent found the raspberries yet, you haven’t seen the roses, you haven’t felt the boom of thunder in your bones and you haven’t walked on the pavement barefoot.

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my gender is the way tools in minecraft shake when you use them for the first time

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i have so many BiT centered alt accounts that i straight up forget the password for so while my other account is going viral im like . haiiiii thats actually me again 😭😭

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when bears in trees said “cope without ropes around your sounding throat. my weekends used to consist of loosing nooses, but the truth is you’re stronger than you think.” they wrote it for me and me only