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I’m proud of myself~ yay I did something -MTS

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Genderfluid - at least try to understand

So..since it is pride month, i want to talk about something. I live in Germany so please excuse my bad English! Where i come from Genderfluid is a thing not really known by a lot of people.. Basically only one of my friends knows what it means and i don’t think she really understands it.  A few days ago i told them about a friend who uses they/them, he/him pronouns and my friends said: “That’s stupid, SHE knows that SHE was born a girl.” “SHE is a GIRL.”

I didn’t respond, probably because i was really hurt. Of course he was born a girl, but that doesn’t mean he can’t feel like a boy. I can only tell out of my perspective, i don’t know how others feel, but there are days when i’m so unhappy and so frustrated about my body and about being called a girl. I start wearing “boyish” clothes and try to hide it, but in the end its just my clothing and it doesn’t make me feel much better, a little bit but not enough so i don’t feel so unhappy. Then my mom comes around the corner and says “Why don’t you wear makeup or your cute dresses-” I can’t blame her, at times I wear them because i don’t hate being a girl... It is so hard to explain to people and so exhausting...

I just feel so alone.. and then i watch all these videos of awesome people on Youtube who are in the lgbtq community. People who use different pronouns and actually get called by they’re pronouns. When théy start telling stories about they’re experience and how they feel inside, I just feel like I belong there. I think “OMG. I know this feeling!” It finally feels like as if people understand me... and it makes me really happy.

But then i go back to my normal life and everything feels wrong again.. I wish people in Germany would be more open about these things..It is already so hard figuring out who I am and i can’t deal with having to explain it to everyone. And I’m so scared people won’t understand. Or don’t want to understand.

Sometimes I think why genders even have to be a thing. Can’t we just be who we are and love who we want. I just want to feel like I belong.

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Request from this expression Meme thingy; Chara and Max :3

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Spyro and Sparx. 

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A friend of Mine just started her first youtube chanel❤ She is really talented!

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Somebody asked me to draw stitch and omg i still love this little alien so much <3

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Too cute for a gender identity~

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things that took me years to learn even though i draw all the time:

it doesn’t have to be detailed

it doesn’t have to be anatomically correct

you just gotta draw what you want to draw and if you can’t draw it then practice and try again

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Ahhh i hope im not too late x.x time zones are confusing xD Happy Birthday, Zac!!! ❤ @princeofmints You are amazing!!! And im not just talking about you're art, you seem like a really funny, cool and just amazing person and you inspire me in so many ways.. (Can't wait until i will be 18 too in april)

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most people: ah, february! a time for love, friendship, flowers and chocolate!

me: let the comic sans valentine's card memes begin

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