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Am I in love or am I completely trapped in this relationship

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I just want to be loved and cuddled and spoilt. I don’t ever seeing that happening.

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The first thing I did was get absolutly fucked up. Then went to the pub. Sounds good to me to be honest

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Got nothing better to do than get fucked up and sleep. My life nowadays lolll

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I can’t wait to die

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In one week I lose my family. I lost Chelsea. And I lost a baby. I’m so over my life

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Gonna get so fucked up tonight because I have NOTHING. I’m not worth the shit on my shoe. I should die just like my baby. So that’s exactly what I’m gonna do. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

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Taking my meds meds medsss

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People are telling me not to forgive and forget and not to believe her story because I have proof. I don’t know what to do or what to think

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Messaging this guy to meet him for a fuck. And he is literally worse than a woman. So fucking needy

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I’m so fucking horny and I cannot even cope with it or satisfy myselfff

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Being rushed into hospital was not on the agenda today looool

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I feel so broken. So lost. So confused. So hurt. My life has tipped upside down. I don’t have a future anymore. I don’t have anything. It’s just me living with my parents who want me gone. It’s just me living a miserable life in a ridiculous amount of debt with no life prospects. It’s just me being told I’m unloveable. That I’m always gonna be alone. I’m never gonna be happy. I’m never going to have the only thing in life that I want. And that is a family. I’m always gonna be Jaymee. Being alone and miserable. I am worth nothing. There’s no point to my life. Chelsea gave me hope. I have now lost all hope.

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Everyone has amazing plans tonight because it’s Saturday night and I’m gonna be sobbing in bed

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Was gonna tell everyone about my addiction tonight. Looks like I don’t need to anymore as she’s fucking left me.

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My whole life has turned upside down in a month. I have nothing for my future anymore. What’s the fucking point

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Getting send home from work for having a major meltdown. Mums ringing crisis team tonight because she thinks I’m a danger to myself. My girlfriend is refusing to see me. Like what a fun weekend I’m about to have 👍🏻