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THIS THIS THIS! GUYS! PLEASE! THIS!

In episode six of The Amazing Digital Circus — Jax gets too real!

In all seriousness, this was completely fantastic to watch. It was such a good depiction of self destructive behaviors and Michael Kovach was PHENOMENAL.

His instant reaction to pomni hugging him was super telling. He wants to get closer to her, his behaviors show that clearly, but he fears it as well.

His regret after the outburst is also extremely telling.

This did not go as planned. He did not expect to get so close to her and have to push her so suddenly away. He didn’t want to push her away, but felt in this moment that he needed to, at all costs.

As much as he wants everyone to believe his actions were planned, they were IMPULSIVE.

As insistent as he was on telling Pomni that he didn’t care, that it was stupid to think that he might, Pomni was right when she pointed out that Jax wasn’t fighting back. He DID care.

He never hurt Pomni for his own fun at any point in this episode. His actions directly contradict what he’s trying to make Pomni believe. He hurts the others, so she might believe him. But he didn’t want to hurt her. Not anymore. The only time he hurt her on purpose was when he felt like he needed to push her away. But otherwise? He has shown that he doesn’t see her as something to torment. Jax sees Pomni as an equal, a friend.

His words are hollow.

Even his reaction to Ragathas “accusing” him of making friends with Pomni was extreme. Initially his uncaring expression threw Ragatha off, but once she was eliminated you can see that this is the moment Jax realized he was going too far — far past even his own personal boundaries — in forming a bond with Pomni.

Jax was lying the whole time he tried to make Pomni believe he didn’t care. He used all his tricks. Deflected with jokes, brushed off the intensity of the situation, made fun of Pomnis attempts to befriend him, he even tried to make her push him away first with the traitor bit.

Actually, he seems to be obsessed with the whole bit thing, don’t you think? The archetypes.

He thinks that fitting into the role of the circus will help him survive.

As if trying to maintain humanity whilst being deprived of it causes abstraction.

So he picks the perfect role to extract himself of any sort of sincerity or responsibility.

The comedian.

He uses it as a shield even if it damages his relationship with Pomni. And he tries to use Pomni’s humorously chosen role to his advantage, to get her to leave.

Pomni’s prying would humanize him. He would be too open, too vulnerable, too human. He won’t be able to play his role anymore. Or use it to protect his sanity.

If he had nothing beneath his cruel exterior, he wouldn’t have to beg Pomni to stop looking.

Jax knows that if she keeps looking, if she helps him open up, if she pursues his friendship despite his protests, he WILL break, and he WILL show her who he really is. He can’t resist getting close with someone because he — like everybody else — needs a friend.

So he had to make her stop.

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WUAAAAAAH WHAT!? THIS IS SO GOOD!

i like sebastian solace

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LOOK AT ALL OF THEM! THEY'RE SO CUTE! AUGH!

how dare you unleash the chicken on the ninja. they dont trust you anymore.

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HELP! THAT EPISODE WAS SO GOOD! I also destroyed my wrist yesterday so I've been trying to rest today. BUT I COULDN'T NOT DRAW AFTER THAT!

Yeah it's messy on purpose haha

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Younger Lloyd this time! Finally figured out his freaking hair! Also trying to work on drawing them more like teens than young adults in the older seasons :) I think this one worked out well!

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Yooooooo . . . this is freaking sick . . . I'm too sleep deprived to show my proper appreciation but I am lying on the floor and and my love is steadily flowing out and surrounding the art work in its masterful glory.

"The prophesied"

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Crying.

Wrote out a whole character study inspired by this art piece and THE FREAKING APP BROKE! It was so long so I'm not gonna retype it bc the art got lost in all the mess, I'll make it a separate post. Please just love on this art it's incredible.

Edit (may end up just reblogging the reblog later because the deep dive into Leon's character really was connected to what I felt was shown in the art above)

its not that deep but it is . But it isnt😶‍🌫️

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5000 likes!

Getting called out man 💀

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Love my homeboy Zed. Obscure little zombie boy.

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Should not be as excited about this one as I was about the Sebastian one BUT I MADE A HUMAN P.A.I.NTER! I had a vision. My little man. My short angry little dude.

Headcannons for him already

- Nerf fanatic (don't fight him he will win)

- Middle child syndrome but he's an only child

- Easily flustered

- Not used to being around girls

- Has a total of one friend (Sebastian, who's a couple years older than him)

- Short (5'2)

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Yeah. You guys remember that awesome Pressure sketch? NOTHING compared to the final piece. Busted my butt on some lighting similar to the scene it's inspired by. Still new at lighting and it's nowhere near as intense as I wanted it to be? But I still think it's AWESOME! Again spoilered bc it's technically a spoiler for an ending haha.

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 250 likes!

Wheeee! Thank you guys!

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Yeah guys I've fallen down the Pressure hole too . . . 😔

Censored just bc it's inspired by one of the endings so if you haven't seen it then . . . well yeah :)

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HOURS! HOURS! TO DRAW A MEME! Anyway wouldn't change a thing it turned out *chefs kiss* beautiful. Ignore the time (kicks over clock that says 12:52 am). BEHOLD IT'S BEAUTY!

YOU GUYS DESERVE THE SKETCH BEFORE I INK! I worked so hard on this I'm scared to Ink 😭

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YOU GUYS DESERVE THE SKETCH BEFORE I INK! I worked so hard on this I'm scared to Ink 😭

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Drawing the og Jay Walker today guys! Because I like playing around with their original designs vs their new designs and play around with them to see how they got there from where they were 😁. Of course we all know this Jay was a gangly teen and I have yet to learn how to draw teen but- I'm still pretty happy with how it turned out. I grew up with the show? So they'll always be my age to me haha, considering it's still going and all.

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Found a video on YouTube that really inspired me by Tom's Lawyer! Yes there are spoilers for the seasons in the video and technically my art.

Close up of the face