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Aurora Borealis if girl

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I assure you: somebody, somewhere, is on the exact same wavelength as you are.

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What if… human DNA fused with a plant cell?? And slowly evolved into a humanoid??

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me when he can buy two $50++ video games,, $200++ groceries,, weed,, 4++ subscriptions but gets me to buy $70++ of pet food every fortnight because “they’re our pets!!” I didn’t agree to that?? They all live at your house?? But like if I don’t send him the money he’ll continue stuffing his face and let the pets starve to death so🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

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little animations

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Ii’ve got to get ssober man,, ii can’t do thiiss sshiit no more.. ii am sso fuckiing embarrassssiing and dissgusstiing

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Hmm, that’s a sketchy looking herd…

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STOP CENSORING SUBTITLES/TRANSCRIPTS/CLOSED CAPTIONS

LET DEAF AND NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE READ “FUCK”

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‘’tangled up in you’’ by beth cavener, 2014

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ily systems who’s introjects don’t wanna disconnect from their source because it is so entwined with who you are.

ily psychotics who want to keep some of your delusions and hallucinations because they don’t cause you stress.

ily maladaptive daydreamers who don’t wanna quit daydreaming altogether and instead want to keep the aspects that are good and comforting.

ily people who realize that healing isn’t always casting away everything that made you divergent. that sometimes it’s about managing the parts that are bad and keeping the parts that are good.

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Ma called me and cried for like 50 minutes about how she fucked up my life and she put too much responsibility onto me when I was 16 and was selfish and how she didn’t get to raise my brother. Had to sit there with the “It’s okay, I know you’re sorry, I forgive you” but felt like I was going to cry.

The bible had forgiveness as it’s #1 rule and shit and I say I forgive her but holy fucking shit it’s the only thing I’ve cried about in years. I’m stuck in another state away from family,, I was homeless for a year++,, got in either toxic or abusive relationships,, I developed a drug and tobacco addiction in a shelter,, I’m isolated,, I’m unhappy,, the only people around me drain me and give me nothing in return.. If she had not abandoned me I would have had to deal with at least half of that shit.

And she wants me to abandon any life I have down here to move back up. I miss my family so badly but I’ve been here for five years. I’ve got a unit with furniture and posters and crafts supplies I’ve spent probably hundreds on at this point. I don’t know what to do.

I just have so much resentment for her but if I told her anything I felt about it she would fall apart. And I don’t mean maybe cry a bit and feel guilty,, I mean full blown attempting.

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7 “4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

I love my ma and should not hold anything in the past against her. She feels guilty enough and we’ve talked about it. But every time I think about it I want to fucking die. Every time I think about it I feel the exact way I did when I was 16,, scared and unloved.

I’ve been tensed up in survival mode for 5 years and she’s scared I’m not going anywhere in life. I feel like a failure of a son,, I feel like if I acted different maybe I could’ve changed the outcome of things,, I feel trapped. I don’t know what to do anymore.

Anyways,, I’m hopping on a plane in a fortnight and seeing the family. I’ll only be up there a month and can’t wait to get back to my unit where I won’t see any family for maybe another two years.