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"The Space I Made."

I left you once with steady hands, Convinced that silence understands, That distance was a gentler fate Than staying just to suffocate.

Your eyes, like dawn on summer seas, Still haunt my nights, still steal my ease; Your voice, once soft as falling rain, Now echoes in my soul's domain.

But now the nights are hollow things, Your name hangs heavy in the wings. I traded love for air and pride, And lost the home you were inside.

I told myself I’d find the sun, That I could breathe when we were done. But every dawn without your face Feels like a cold and foreign place.

I miss your laugh, your quiet stare, The way you never left me bare. I miss the fights, the tears we shed— The proof we lived, the things we said.

I ache for all I walked away, Each word I didn’t think to say. And now I haunt the life I chose, Regret in bloom like withered rose.

Oh had I known the cost, the ache- The silent nights, the soul’s heartbreak- I’d trade the world and time's own thread, To lay once more where you do tread.

If time could turn, I’d run to you, Undo the harm that distance grew. But I remain, and you move on— A ghost of love, forever gone. -Me.

Divider cred: @dollywons

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"The Space I Made."

I left you once with steady hands, Convinced that silence understands, That distance was a gentler fate Than staying just to suffocate.

Your eyes, like dawn on summer seas, Still haunt my nights, still steal my ease; Your voice, once soft as falling rain, Now echoes in my soul's domain.

But now the nights are hollow things, Your name hangs heavy in the wings. I traded love for air and pride, And lost the home you were inside.

I told myself I’d find the sun, That I could breathe when we were done. But every dawn without your face Feels like a cold and foreign place.

I miss your laugh, your quiet stare, The way you never left me bare. I miss the fights, the tears we shed— The proof we lived, the things we said.

I ache for all I walked away, Each word I didn’t think to say. And now I haunt the life I chose, Regret in bloom like withered rose.

Oh had I known the cost, the ache- The silent nights, the soul’s heartbreak- I’d trade the world and time's own thread, To lay once more where you do tread.

If time could turn, I’d run to you, Undo the harm that distance grew. But I remain, and you move on— A ghost of love, forever gone. -Me.

Divider cred: @dollywons

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HOLY FUCKN AIRBALL THIS NEEDS MORE ATTENTION

One’s light

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"D3ads Masterlist"

Welcome to my blog where i post my work and yap!

This is my masterlist where there are info about my posts and links to all (or most) my works!!

"Things to remember !:"

my asks are always open, you can ask questions or even send reqs!

comments are always welcome.

if you have any tips or feedback please dont be affraid to tell me, im always trying to be better

"Masterlist"

Poetry: "Upon The Tide Of Sorrow" "Full Of Brain & Life" "Orders Of Love" "The Space I Made"

Drabbels: "Never Have I Ever"

Dividers and banner creds: @dollywons and @roseschoices

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"Upon The Tide Of Sorrow" I drown in an ocean of my own tears, A tide of blue bears me low, Where salty and bitter waters flow, No stars to light the night’s decay, No help to chase this grief away.

I drift beneath skies of ocean hue, Each breath I take, a deeper pain, No gentle flow, no saving grace, But drowning in this lone embrace. The winds of joy no longer blow, The bubble drown beneath the shore, And all that once was sweet and kind, Now haunts the corners of my mind.

Oh sweet Death is diving near, To hush the cries I’ve long held dear, But as I sink, my soul shall cry Why must the living learn to die? So let me fall, no struggle stay, Into the depths where dreams decay For I have danced with joy and pain, And now in tears, I sink again. -Me

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DO YOU FW ME

HEAVILY TWIN

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"Upon The Tide Of Sorrow" I drown in an ocean of my own tears, A tide of blue bears me low, Where salty and bitter waters flow, No stars to light the night’s decay, No help to chase this grief away.

I drift beneath skies of ocean hue, Each breath I take, a deeper pain, No gentle flow, no saving grace, But drowning in this lone embrace. The winds of joy no longer blow, The bubble drown beneath the shore, And all that once was sweet and kind, Now haunts the corners of my mind.

Oh sweet Death is diving near, To hush the cries I’ve long held dear, But as I sink, my soul shall cry Why must the living learn to die? So let me fall, no struggle stay, Into the depths where dreams decay For I have danced with joy and pain, And now in tears, I sink again. -Me

Divider cred: @ianrkives Click for the post!

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NEW FANFIC THAT WAS INSPIRED BY A TIKTOK IS FINALLY FINISHED

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"How can we go back to being friends?" by sam_rosier on ao3

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/64427431

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Initially, he wasn’t willing to be left behind, yearning for just one more second of the gift that was called Sirius’ skin against his own. He wasn’t willing to watch Sirius move on and think of Remus as ‘just a hookup’. He wasn’t willing to play the role of ‘best mate’ after getting a look at heaven. He had planned to live with the weight of unrequited love on his heart forever, like he had since their first year, without Sirius finding out.

But now it was too late.

He did his mistake, he hooked up with his best friend and now he had to live with the consequences.

Or:

Remus Lupin and a beginners guide on overdramatizing your own life because you have an unrequited crush.

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Thinking about writing Sirius' POV as well? We'll see :)

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barty would giggle and twirl his hair and say,"all this for me?" when surrounded by twenty aurors

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Okay, so like, I know I've already touched on Emma Frost being fucking fantastic and also oversexualized even for the character she is, but I've seen way too many people use the excuse "Well Rivals does this to both the men and women of the game," using Namor as the example. And I have to rant about it.

1) both of their outfits do make sense for the characters they are - Namor lives underwater and Emma Frost is a femme fatale trope (I too would wear Emma's outfits if I was as powerful as she is). However, they are not treated equally and that's the problem. It would be less of a big deal if Emma had two skins, one revealing and one more conservative, instead of both being hypersexualized. For example, Namor has Sub-Mariner. But, Emma just has her Gala and Regular skins - both of which she had on launch. The devs could have launched her with both a revealing skin and her regular skin, and left the gala outfit as a battle pass or later release.

2) how the characters are treated is important: while Emma is treated with respect in the lore and is a major part of the new season, it is her animation that is the problem. Now, her chokeslam animation is not the problem and neither is her walk cycle, she actually has the least sexualized walk cycle of the woman in the game (in my opinion! and save for Peni, because that's a teenager ofc). Her chokeslam is something you could give to any character and it would still be sexualized (that's just a universal thing, if Magneto had one there would be people fawning over it, I know, one of my friends is a hardline Magneto simp). I'm talking about the jiggle physics. As a busty woman, they do in fact jiggle that much, and the fact she's got animated jiggle physics isn't all that bad - it's when its only given to the women and not the men that it makes it appear blatantly sexualized. If it were truly equal the men would also have jiggle physics - using Namor as an example again, his pecs and package would jiggle just like Emma's breasts because fundamentally, pecs are just as soft as breasts when not flexed.

3) A lot of the male sexualization in the game is more "male power fantasy" than sexualization. The sexualized male skins make the men appear more buff, toned, and like your classic "alpha" trope - the same style as comic book characters. They're designed in a way that men want to be them, rather than women want to fuck them. Unlike the women who are designed for men to want to fuck them. (As a lesbian, this is funny to me because women are hot always and I don't need a skin to make me experience lust toward a character. All of Hella's skins are fully clothed and I still find her incredibly attractive.) The majority of skins that male characters in the game have are fully clothed and/or not inherently sexualized - and when they are, they are to make the man look like "goals" rather than gooner material.

This is not to say that the men don't have "dirty" aspects: Venom's twerking emote, Black Panther's Bast Champion and Loki's Frost Giant skin all exemplify Rivals is capable of sexualizing the male body. But these are all optional skins or emotes that were jokes while the character has plenty of non-sexual, fully clothed skins or regular emotes. I just want Emma (and all other Rivals women) to have the same treatment.

All in all, I'm still playing this game, and my Vanguard main is now Emma Frost because a woman tank is iconic and I'm not good at Peni. This is not a criticism of people who find her hot (I'd be a hypocrite then); this is just a critique of why the "but the men have it equal" argument is dumb. If you want to make that argument, then lets lean hard into it and make it happen - men and women should be treated equally in Rivals.

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My lungs start closing in as I think of you. Think of the way I was selfish enough to leave you. How could a human being, full of brain, full of life, Think of a reason to leave you. A reason so dumb, so regretful, so simply incomprehensible. It's left me hollow and shallow; how could I be so insensible? Without you, my heart refuses to beat. Feeling like a lonely lover in the sheets. How could a human being, full of brain, full of life, Be allowed to live without your soul in their life. - Me

Divider cred: @ianrkives Click this for the post!

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the writers block is HORRENDOUS rn Kill Me.

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maybe it wasn’t the end of the world when Neil died but it was for me.

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My lungs start closing in as I think of you. Think of the way I was selfish enough to leave you. How could a human being, full of brain, full of life, Think of a reason to leave you. A reason so dumb, so regretful, so simply incomprehensible. It's left me hollow and shallow; how could I be so insensible? Without you, my heart refuses to beat. Feeling like a lonely lover in the sheets. How could a human being, full of brain, full of life, Be allowed to live without your soul in their life. - Me

Divider cred: @ianrkives Click this for the post!

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thank you for making me believe in love ☹️💗

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something