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June 12, 2025. Commission for @sam-witch621. Easily one of the quickest and most fun comms I've ever done. Fun fact! This is my first time drawing Gerson!!!

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partners

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Perfect depiction of what krusie is

Top 4 krusielle all time past & future

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you promised

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The way they draw susie is just *mwah*

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Oh Krusie, you’ll always be canon in my heart.

Me when Krusie: 😍😍😍😍😘😘😍😘🥰❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰😘😍😍😍💗💗💗

tbh i still think krusie’s got a chance. even if they aren’t explicitly romantic they’re defo going to have some sort of deep soulmate connection to borderline homoerotic undertones no matter which way their dynamic goes (especially when susie finds out everything going on with kris and the soul and has an inevitable crash out).

or i’ll just effing end myself if they stop being friends by the end of chapter 7.

either way, their relationship is so peak that i’m happy with them being either platonic or romantic.

Also heres the speedpaint

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The hand that feeds

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fuck the rant I took an hour writing has been summed up in a single meme post

if it's good enough for you, then it deserves to be made. don't let anyone else decide if your story is worth it or not.

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Deleting my fic on ao3 has fr been the most freeing thing I’ve ever done.

It’s not like I completely abandoned it, even now that it is off the internet, but ever since posting it I got continuously burnt out with writing and keeping up with it to the point that I didn’t update it for almost an entire year.

This would have been completely fine (it’s completely normal to lose interest in things you used to love) if it weren’t for the fact that I genuinely did still love this story. I loved the world and I loved the ideas that I was putting into it and I loved the process of writing it up until I stated posting it.

I think the problem was that when I initially started writing my fic, I just planned for it to be this completely self indulgent thing only for my eyes. I never intended to post it. Whenever it came to a writers block, I would just tell myself “It doesn’t matter how stupid the solution to this is, just write it out” because the only person that could judge it was me. Even if it did turn out trash, it didn’t really matter to me and I would move on to the next chapter.

However, when I did decide to put it out in the world, I became hyperaware of every aspect and flaw of my writing. I couldn’t just say la vie because there were real people reading this shit! Everything I wrote suddenly mattered. Every sentence I had to ask “What will readers think of this?”, “Does this make sense?”, “Is this good enough?”, etc, etc.

All of that is what made writing miserable.

And it wasn’t until recently I realized that I was obsessing over how palatable a completely self indulgent piece of work, something that I started as something for only myself, was for a wider audience.

So I deleted my fanfic.

At first I felt a little sad, as I felt all that work I had poured into this piece of writing was now down the garbage chute. But after a while, I finally felt free enough to start working on the fic again without stressing so hard over it. It was like I was stuck in quicksand, and by removing my fic from the public eye I was finally able to start moving forward.

I don’t want anyone to think that you shouldn’t try to make good stories, or that it’s easier to just make brain slop instead of nuanced narratives, that’s the exact opposite of what I’m trying to get at. My point is that for stories that are special to you, stories, or anything for that matter, which you have bled and cried into, should never be held back because you don’t think people will like them, or because you have doubts in your ability to convey your ideas. Sometimes you just need to sit in a solitary room with your story for a while and write it out. If your story turns out stupid and cringe then that’s okay, you’ll survive. It’s hard to allow yourself the freedom to be stupid when you feel everyone is judging you, but being stupid is just a divot you either jump or trip over before you do something beautiful. Without that freedom, you’ll just end up standing in the same place for seven months without updating your fanfic.

I don’t really know if this is problem for other writers, but if it is then please, stop stressing about what you think everyone will think. Just write what you want to write and people will either like it or not like it. It doesn’t really matter what they think, because you’ve already made something worth creating, and that in itself is beautiful.

(Guys this was kinda cringe wtf was I on)

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I have no excuses and no regrets

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me fr

my favorite stories right now

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He's REALLY mad this time, guys

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*Cronch*

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Dragon deez

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Im in deep passionate love with this

The demon stares back.

MY OC GABRIELLA :D She's not actually a demon, it's just that she's the only human in the realm and the inhabitants thinks she look a little menacing. Totally not because she's capable of massacaring the giant monsters that eat their kind for breakfast :)

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This might explains why I get so deepy sleepy eepy after a cup

don’t bully me for how i spelled delicious

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Greasy wip.

Ignore the quality, I took a pic of my computer w my phone cuz im tired.