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they're renaming detroit, michigan to horse, michigan

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Cooknees

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I've seen what happens when people Get Worse. I've orbited a lot of people who Got Worse (especially online). If you listen to people who Got Worse it's all the same: they don't have consistent, meaningful social support, they've been hurt too many times and they can't open up out of fear that the next betrayal is going to drive the knife right through the artery, they end up spending too much time alone and develop secret languages, meanings, thought cycles completely inscrutable to anyone who has never had to rely on such rituals to survive, they get caught in a cycle of reopening and licking their wounds because the progression of time is so unrewarding and stagnant that the past is basically always the present, and the present is already the future, they become mean, they become strange.

some people might offer to help them but it's rare they ever know where to start, let alone exhibit compassion without grimace. admittedly, even for genuinely compassionate people, it isn't the easiest thing. if the person is someone who is stuck in their ways or doesn't know you, they don't really have a reason to be receptive to your help. "why should I waste my time on someone who is just going to become another memory of heartache? someone who will carelessly hurt and abandon me?" and such. an earnest attempt to help can feel like an attempted assault to them. at the same time, the meaningful interpersonal relationships that these people need will not survive if built on pity or fleeting self-gratifying feelings of "building" someone into your idea of a desirable person.

I don't know where I was going with this, but I always found it hard not to see myself as only a few degrees removed from these people. one or two safety nets separated from being completely trapped. unable to feel safe in not just the world but also my own body. a cosmological dead end. I stay away from habitually engaging in the obvious things can that make trying to change when you're at this point difficult (alcohol, drugs, etc), but if temperance is how you maintain stability in the face of rock bottom, you're basically already there, right? you're there and your body just hasn't caught up. maybe I'm just being dramatic because it's late. hows everypony finding the new deltarune chapters.

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I hate this website because I heard “Thinking Out Loud” by Edward Sheeran and all I could think about was that one fucking video you know the one

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"oh, you're a trans woman? omg you're gonna love this then, it has like, sooooo many drag queens in it!"

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i don't know why humanity is not unanimously trying to get to the moon again

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New proposed nation called The Lake where summer has a daily government mandated 4 hour paid "swim break" and a winter 16 hour work week @ $40/hr

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How can i monetize my Suicidal ideation

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basically my position is that landlords should die until my siblings aren't forced into soliciting donations online for basic necessities like food and shelter and medicine. i do not consider this any more extreme than the popular position that poor people should suffer and die en masse so landlords can keep getting paid for doing fucking nothing.

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u could literally have a PHD in something but a random man will still think he knows more about it than you because he’s male and you’re female and he read a post about it on reddit

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sometimes i feel like yuo dont even want to try playing with my toys. Whatsamatter dillweed....scared of a little playtime.?

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romance languages are actual hell on earth man. every sentence that comes out of your mouth demands that you gender yourself. no room for ambiguity or plausible deniability. no room for freedom. you must announce if you're a man or a woman. what an absolute shitshow