darkxadolescence

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Better late than never

11:16pm 

Thank you, thank you for everything.

I love you so much, you do not even know. I love and miss you. 

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Promises, or at least words

00:20

You promised me we will. Well it was not really a promise, but you told me we will. And here I am, waiting for that moment for a long time now. They say actions speak louder than words, but aren't words important if they give you hope? I was waiting for something that never came, well maybe it will but waiting kills, and i'm slowly losing hope. And I know time won't heal, it will just leave me asking why you didn't show up. 

Please, hurry up. I'm starting to give up. 

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this sums up what i feel right now

I. Am. Angry.

I am angry for things I shouldn’t be. For things that are outdated. For things that were already settled. I am angry about things that are out of my control, or anyone’s control. I am angry for things that haven’t happened yet- but inevitably will. I am angry, and I don’t know what to do about it. 

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down down down

like he said

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Self hate

I hate myself. I know I shouldn’t but this is so eff-ed up. Anyway, I need time and space. 

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Give yourself time to grow and experience the world and put things in perspective.

Emile Hirsch (via thetalks)

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Monday, sad day

10:13pm

I want to cry. I need someone to talk to. I need someone to listen to me. 

I’m trying to be happy, I swear. Even though I may face a lot of problems, I always try to smile. 

Why are you so rude to me? Do you even know what’s happening to me? I’m under pressure because of you. Yeah, you. How do you expect me to be a good daughter when you don’t even know what’s happening in my life?

I’m sure you didn’t even know I had my mocks today, do you? Not even a “good luck”. I’m not asking for much. A simple smile is enough. 

You’re always expecting too much from me while I only expect a smile from you.

I want you to be proud of me. But I guess, it’ll never be enough for you, right? 

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Excitement

11:14pm

I'm so excited to see him again. I'm starting to hate week ends, specially Friday, because that's the only day I don't see him. I sound like a kid but who cares? I've never met a person who makes me feel this way, who makes me smile.

Even though I know him for ages, it feels like i'm only starting to know him. We dated once, but it obviously doesn't count because that was 5 years ago, and we were more like bestfriends than a real couple, anyway. 

What I like about him?

The way he talks, the way he looks at me whenever I rant or say stupid things. He's the quiet type of guy that listens to you. 

Seeing him makes me happy. 

Two more days, and I see him again yay! 

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I’m glad you’re happy. I can’t say that I’m completely happy for you but I guess that’s just a part of life, I’ll always have feelings for you but the rest of the world is forcing me to move on.

-Unknown (via times-been-wasted)

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Oblivion

All i want to do is to go home and sleep. I want to forget the negativity, all the BS. I want to forget everything.

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Don't cry. Don't effing cry.

Wipe your tears, head up and smile.

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Why am i going on tumblr only when im sad? Lol???

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I want to punch someone.

BANG BANG!

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I haven’t seen the darkest part of you yet, but I promise I’m not running. I will walk the darkest hallways of your mind with a flashlight in one hand and a bat in another ad I will fight any demons that come my way.

someone that actually loves you. (via sheekeepsmewarm)

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My head was in the clouds

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Dreams & Nightmares

Today I had a dream, well a nightmare.

It was a special one, because I remember every single detail. My dad died, I cried a lot. Everyone tried to cheer me up. But no one could help me and make me feel better. Then I woke up.

But that’s not what I want to say.

I've just realized how dreams and nightmares are important for us. They put us in different situations, and make us feel things that we may not face in our lives. Example, I’ve never lost my mom and my dad. They never really died. But this nightmare showed me that it’ll happen one day, and it can be tomorrow. Who knows? I need to enjoy the present with my loved ones.

Let’s get to the point: Nightmares scare us, but they also help us in our lives.

It’s quite weird, but I’m thankful for having nightmares.

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this was strangely inspirational.