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Haven’t been able to weight myself in weeks, if its not down by at least 3kg i’m going insane.

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IT GIVES YOU WINGS

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Ever notice how everyone in their “prime” is just them at their skinniest ~3~

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My 3d story.

I used to be so skinny my hip bones showed through my skin, my ribs were visible 24/7 and the bones in my elbows looked unnaturally big compared to my arms.

It was normal for me and i never felt sick/weak because thats how my body naturally was.

At around 12 everybody around me started to comment on how small my meal sizes were, and how amazing it is how i could survive off that little food.

So for some idiotic reason i felt like i had something to prove, and began eating bigger portions. I would eat myself so full to the point i would be in pain.

Then all of a sudden my sister developed an 3d, and everything centered around her body. i was ashamed of myself, wished i could have looked like her.

Thats when i became self conscious of my body for the first time in my life. I was extremely insecure but never did anything about it until now, and the process feels painfully slow.

I wanted to write this out so i could learn to let it go and to just focus on the progress instead of the reason this all started :/

I know ill get to my goal no matter what and maybe even pass it, because i will never allow myself to become that person again.

my sister has recovered and is happy and healthy now and i wish i could say the same for me <3

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I feel so out of control that I actually want to die.

I feel so stupid and worthless.

Why can't I just be one of those clean skinny bitches who starves without a care.

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Why TF is my family catching on to my 3d before i even got anywhere near my goal :((((

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Ribspo

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until my ribs show through my back.

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I just want to cut the fat off my body.

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the smaller i am, the happier i am <3

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Getting skinny will make your tattoos look better ;)