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diaphragmjellyfish · 27 days ago
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Rules Are Rules
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Embry x Reader
Smut! 18+
Me? Back out of nowhere with an Embry fic? Idk I missed yall so here you go 💝
Reader finds herself increasingly horny after discovering smut and enlists Embry to help.
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You had made fast friends with Embry, Quil, and Jacob after moving here, but it wasn’t until a couple months in that you learned (or found out– thanks Quil) about their shapeshifting tendencies. And it wasn’t until two months ago that Embry pulled you aside at a bonfire one night to express his undying love in the form of an imprint bond. You were terrified– you’d never even had a boyfriend! And now one of your closest friends was basically telling you that you guys were tethered for life. Embry had told you that this could look however you wanted… he would love to be with you, but would be more than happy to stay friends as long as you wanted. Forever, if that was what you wanted. In your panic at the whole situation, you told Embry you wanted to stay friends. He masked his disappointment well, but was a devoted friend, never overstepping or asking for more in fear of making you uncomfortable or pushing you away.
Sure, Embry was totally cute, and you had found yourself admiring him in more ways than one, but you had to stay friends. Not because you liked someone else or weren’t interested in commitment. It was because of your vaginismus. What guy would ever want to date a girl that had so many issues with sex? You could never do that to Embry. He had to be free to explore this part of life that was so important to young guys. You would just be a burden, always stopping due to pain or clamming up from the nerves. And so friends you stayed.
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Fan fiction was an incredible outlet for romantic hopes you couldn’t act on. Recently, you found yourself diving into the Tumblr rabbit hole that is smut. The possibilities explored through writing were insane– you’d seen porn, sure, but this always seemed to focus on the man in the situation. It never caught your interest, let alone turned you on. But this– this writing by random strangers online stirred feelings you didn’t know you had.
You were horny.
It was tough to act on anything because of your inexperience. You tried touching yourself, but didn’t find much sensation. You thought about toys, but shied away at the thought of having to hide something so blatantly sexual in your bedroom. What if your parents found it?
Thoughts like this raced through your mind as you sat with Emily on her couch watching a rerun of Grey’s Anatomy. Suddenly, a cacophony of footsteps charging through the front door pulled you away. The boys were back from patrol! Emily got up to start serving lunch while you lingered in the doorway of the kitchen, ready to help her if need be but able to join the boys’ conversation from the table. You must have caught them mid-chat.
“No way you did it right, dude,” said Paul. “If she wasn’t shaking, it wasn’t real.”
“C’mon, man! The ladies can’t get enough of this,” countered Jared. “I’m like a sex master.”
This was met with a round of teasing and punching from the rest of the guys. Apparently, Jared was getting restless waiting for his imprint bond to kick in, so he’d taken to Tinder to satiate his needs. The guys seemed to think he hadn’t satisfied his partner.
He continued, “Right when they start to clench up, you throw in a twist and start pounding. That’s what does it.” This seemed to align more with the male-centered videos you’d watched, and less with your favorite fics, but what did you know? You were a virgin with a vagina that refused to be penetrated who’d never even had an orgasm.
“You got it all wrong,” said Quil, “if the bed ain’t rattling from the start, she’s probably bored.”
You cringed internally at the thought of Quil ramming it into some poor, unsuspecting girl with no warm-up.
“You guys are such show-offs,” Embry chimed in, shaking his head as he picked at his muffin.
“Oh yeah? How about you enlighten us to the Embry technique, then,” challenged Jared, eager for the conversation to pull away from his own practices in bed.
“Girls like it gentle, and you can’t be changing shit up when they’re close. You have to just pick something that works and stick to it. And foreplay is key. Don’t be jamming it in as soon as the pants come off, Quil.” Embry spoke. The guys let out impressed huffs as you felt your face warming.
Now that sounded a lot more like the writing you had read. Maybe Embry really knew what he was talking about. Maybe he could give you the feelings you’d read about… and he was pretty cute. You probably wouldn’t have to persuade him much, either, with the whole imprint thing. As the conversation between the guys changed to car repairs, you were stuck fantasizing about Embry’s skills, and whether they were as good as he let on.
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Another week passed, but this was full of knowing glances from Emily as you found yourself drooling over Embry. How could you not? His bronzed lean body was never wearing a shirt, and he was basically in love with you. Of course, his words to the guys about pleasuring women had never left your head. You’d even attempted taking care of yourself multiple more times to the thought of him, but time and time again, you were reminded how inexperienced you were with your own body as you were left unsatisfied.
You and Embry sat on his bedroom floor playing Mario Kart while waiting for Quil to arrive for your geology study session. When you drove your kart off the track and into the water for the 3rd time in 40 seconds, Embry laughed over at you, “Everything okay?”
His voice was laced with the smallest hint of genuine concern.
“Just have a lot on my mind is all,” you responded, dropping your controller as the race ended.
“You’re gonna pass this test, I know it,” he turned to you. “You have like the best grade in class, don’t stress.”
“It’s not about the test,” you laughed, flattered by his praise.
“Oh… Anything you wanna talk about?” he prodded.
There he sat, shirtless and adorable, and all you could think about was how his warm skin would feel against your own.
“Have you ever… nevermind,” you started but then chickened out.
“What is it?” he chirped. “I’m an open book, Y/N.”
You bit your lip as you thought. Of all the people on this Earth, Embry was the one you trusted the most. You shut away the anxiety that told you he only wanted to be friends. He imprinted on you. You had him wrapped around your finger, and there was nothing to be scared of.
“Have you ever had sex?” you finally questioned, burying your face in the excess fabric of the hoodie you were wearing. Embry’s hoodie.
Unable to see his face, you detected a hint of teasing laced in excitement in his tone.
“Yes, I have.”
“What… what is it like?” you stammered.
Seeing your extreme nerves, Embry made a point to speak calmly and confidently in attempt to allow you to open up more.
“It feels good,” he commented. “As long as you are with someone you like. Why do you ask?”
“Because-” you stopped yourself, questioning if you should press for more information. “I just- I heard you guys talking about it the other day and I’ve always wondered what stuff like that feels like, but I can’t do it by myself.” You rambled the last part and felt a hot blush rise up your neck and face. Had you said too much?
Embry smiled. You were just curious, he realized. No, he could tell by your blush and fidgeting fingers that it was more than that. You were horny.
“Well, what have you tried?” he questioned.
“Embry! I’m not gonna say it out loud!” Humiliation started to rise at the thought of detailing your previous attempts out loud.
“Why not? It’s something we all do…”
Your mind wandered to an image of Embry touching himself, causing a hot stone to settle in your stomach.
“Maybe I can give you some tips,” he added.
You decided in that moment to be brave and share. “I haven’t even tried that much, to be honest. I just use my hand but it never feels like anything. I have to be doing it wrong but I can’t find anything online about how you’re supposed to.”
“There’s no perfect way. You just have to try doing different things and see what you like. Here– what turns you on?”
“I don’t know…” you started, pondering. “I guess kissing?”
“Okay,” he started, trying to suppress the need to aww at your innocence. “What else?”
“Maybe like, muscles? Tan skin? I don’t know,” you started rambling out your thoughts,” I like watching you wash your car,” you spoke before you could catch yourself. Silence overtook the room as you slapped a hand over your mouth, eyes wide in horror at what you just said.
A few seconds later, Embry smirked, “I turn you on?”
Well, too late to back track now.
“I just mean, whenever you guys were talking in the kitchen about sex, and like, you seemed to know what you were talking about… I don’t know.” You sighed in defeat.
“It’s okay, Y/N, you turn me on too,” he added.
Your eyes snapped to his in shock.
“I do?”
“Of course! You’re my imprint. Everything you do turns me on,” he admits, now blushing slightly himself.
“I never knew,” you add.
“Well, duh. I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable since you want to stay friends.”
Wow, Embry really was a good guy. He repressed his own feelings for the sake of yours. Maybe it was time to revisit the whole just friends thing.
“So what does this mean?” you start.
“Nothing, we can just keep being normal. We can just stay friends, like you want.”
“But, what if I don’t want that anymore?” you suggest sheepishly.
He looks at you stunned, too afraid to press in case you retreat. You will need to take the lead here.
He is breathless as he replies, “Then you need to tell me what you do want.”
“I think– I want to try having sex. With you.”
Now it was his turn to be stunned.
“Seriously?”
You just nodded, waiting in anticipation for his next move. There was none. He was shocked into silence, so you did something you never thought you would be doing. You kissed a werewolf.
At first it was just a peck, but when Embry snapped out of his haze, he took a gentle lead. He grasped your chin between his fingers, guiding your lips back onto his. His skin was soft and smelled like cocoa. His other hand reached up to caress your waist, an act that sent tingles down to your toes. He pulled away.
“Are you sure? I need you to be 100% sure,” he whispered.
You spoke one word that gave him all the confidence he needed.
“Yes.”
With this, he leaned back in, mouth dancing over yours before poking his tongue out and licking a stripe across your bottom lip. You sighed in contentment. You’d kissed a couple of boys before, but none of them felt like this. This was gentle, this was loving– this was hot.
Embry felt you squirm closer, so he took the chance to lay you back on his bed, leaning over you to deepen the kiss. Your body writhed against his, but he didn’t rip your clothes off like you thought he would. Instead, he just kept kissing you. Anticipation grew in your stomach as you grew needier for more. In a strike of boldness, you reached a hand down to grasp him over his shorts. You missed, grazing the side of him and landing on his inner thigh, but he got the hint.
Pulling away, he asked “What’s the farthest you’ve gone before?”
You thought it may be best to lie, but chose honesty.
“This,” you spoke.
“Hey,” he started, sensing your nerves. “No need to be embarrassed, I just need to know where to go slow.”
“Maybe I don’t want to go slow,” you argued.
“It’s your first time, sweetheart,” he deadpans. You blush at his nickname. “I am going extremely slow.” He said this in a manner that told you you had no choice in the matter. He did know more about this stuff, maybe you should trust him.
“Where should we start?” you settle.
“Do you want to take your shirt off?”
Pushing away the nerves, you nod and sit up so he can peel your (his) hoodie off of your body. You lie back down, nipples hardening in the cold air. Embry’s eyes rake you, mesmerized. He brings a hand up every so lightly, finger circling your nipple to test your reaction. Seeing you arch your back into his touch, Embry brings his lips down to your neck, sucking and biting a trail down until his mouth had encircled your nipple. You sighed in relief, eyes closing at the sensation. You felt his hardness pressing into your leg, trying to shake the nerves of knowing that that would soon be inside you. The sucking and licking motion had drawn your thoughts out, leaving you with a mind blank of anything but Embry. He switched to the other nipple, ensuring you were more than satisfied with the feeling before bringing a hand over your clothed crotch. You froze, awaiting the new feeling, but Embry noticed.
“You okay?” he stopped, waiting for your confirmation.
“Yeah, just nervous,” you breathed.
“Say the word and I stop, no hard feelings. Okay?” You nodded, but he persisted, “Say it.”
“Okay.” As gentle as he was being with you, he had an air of control that had your stomach growing hotter by the second.
Bringing his hand back down, he caressed between your legs. It certainly felt better than what you had done yourself, but it was hard to make out much feeling with your denim jeans in the way.
“Can I take these off?” he breathed into your neck, turned on himself at the sight of your topless figure. You nodded, and he began to unbutton your jeans with one hand. When the zipper was pulled down, he sat up to peel them off you.
“Wait,” you interject, and Embry froze completely, afraid of overstepping. “Can you go first?” you spoke, gesturing to his own bottoms. Being the only one naked racked you with anxiety. Embry smiled knowing you still wanted to continue, and stood up from the bed, pulling shorts and underwear down his tanned legs and stepping out. You took in the sight. Obviously, you’d seen penises before, and read about them, but seeing one in real life was something else. He was clean, well-groomed, and long. You weren’t sure what to do, so you stood up to pull your own pants off. Once you had stepped out of your last garment, Embry strode towards you, lying you back down on the bed with a kiss to each cheek. You lie back expecting him to hover over you once more, only his mouth didn’t land on your chest. It started on your belly and travelled lower.. And lower… and lower. He spread your legs gently, hot breath fanning over your exposed center, before fluttering sweet kisses along your inner thighs.
The anticipation of his mouth had you going crazy. This was always the part in the stories that the girls liked the most. What if you didn’t like it? What if you smelled bad? What if you tasted bad?
Thoughts were silenced as he placed a gentle kiss on the hood of your clit. He looked like a starving man sitting before a feast, mouth all but drooling at the site of you laid out beneath him. Upon connecting with your eyes for one more confirmation, he dove in. His tongue was hot and wet, eliciting a slippery sensation as it grazed your clit. Your back arched into space as his mouth began a frenzy on you, licking, sucking, and kissing over and over until you were seeing stars.
“Oh, wow,” you got out, head tilted back and eyes shut.
He hummed in agreement, never ceasing his moves. Lick, suck, kiss. Lick, suck, kiss. You felt something in your stomach begin to clench, panic settling at the new feeling.
“I feel weird,” you admit.
Embry lifts his face, mouth glistening. “It’s okay, baby, that’s a good thing. Just focus on that feeling.”
You sat up on your elbows, brows furrowed, and Embry sensed your anxiety.
“That feeling in your belly means you’re close to finishing. You don’t have to if you’re scared, but it’s gonna feel so good,” he soothed. His warm eyes held yours in a stare that said you could trust him completely. You laid back and nodded for him to continue, determined to explore every feeling you could with him.
He started his actions slowly once more, building up speed but remaining consistent in his motions. You began to feel the clenching in your stomach again, chanting his name to keep your mind whole. His hands rubbed soothing circles over your stomach and thighs.
As your stomach began to feel more and more tense, your head began to swim with a dizzying storm. All at once, tingles erupted from your core across your entire body, stomach giving way to the rolls of your first orgasm. It lasted who knows how long, but when you regained control, you lifted your head, a signal for Embry to peel away as to not overstimulate you.
“How did that feel?” he questioned, a smirk of pride on his face.
“Holy…” you couldn’t finish, body limp with satisfaction. “That was crazy.”
“Do you want to stop there?” he asked, the tone in his voice indicating that he was more than happy with what you did, and would not be disappointed in the least if you were done for now.
“I want to keep going,” you stated, orgasm washing away any sense of embarrassment or shame.
Embry beamed at you, standing to pull a small foil packet out of his drawer.
“What about you?” you gestured to his stiff length. “I can–”
He cut you off. “Nuh uh, this is all about you. Don’t worry about me, I’m more than okay.”
With this you resigned. However, a new wave of anxiety began to wash over you at the thought of penetration. He would need to be slow. Very, very slow. Something told you he knew this, however, and you laid back, giving your body to him in complete trust.
Embry ripped the foil open with his teeth and slid out the slippery condom, placing it over his length and rolling down. You’d never actually seen a condom before, and were grateful that at least one of you knew how they worked.
“How do you want to do this?” he asked.
“I– I’m not sure,” you admit, waiting for him to give you some indication.
With this, he flipped you onto your stomach, legs slightly spread, and pulled your hips a couple inches into the air. You were basically laying down flat, your hips tilted up to allow him access.
“This is my favorite, but if it feels painful or uncomfortable at all, just tell me and we can try something else.”
You were blushing and extremely turned on at Embry throwing you around like this. Add one more thing to the list of what turned you on!
“I’m gonna go really slow, but you need to talk to me. If it feels good, tell me. If it hurts, tell me.”
“Okay,” you reassure him.
He kneeled behind you, lining himself up at your entrance. He rubbed his head amongst your folds, allowing you to get used to the sensation, before his tip caught in your center. Pushing slightly forward, you awaited the pain you knew would come. He got about an inch in before feeling you tense up, so he stopped to allow you to adjust. Embry ran his hands up and down your back, petting your hair to soothe you. When you were ready for more, you would push your hips up slightly, and Embry would take the hint, slowly pushing in another inch before stopping. When he was almost seated inside you, he paused.
“Are you okay? Am I hurting you?”
“It feels weird, but it doesn’t hurt. I think I’m okay.”
You looked around the room and found that you could see Embry’s face in the mirror on his opposite wall. He looked to be in pure ecstasy, brows furrowed and mouth open. He must have been holding back a lot for your sake. The slickness of your previous orgasm combined with Embry’s face unclenched your muscles, allowing him to slide home.
“Fuck,” he grunted as you gasped. You had never felt full like this in your life. The stretch on your inner walls was crazy, and instead of the tingling sensation Embry’s mouth brought you, this was a deep pressure in your stomach. It felt insane.
Embry stayed put, allowing you as much time as you needed to fully adjust. You were more than ready, though, so you tilted your hips to signal him to move. He pulled out an inch or so, and then slowly pressed back in.
“Oh my god,” you breathed into the mattress, overcome by the feeling. He did this again, and again, and again, each time pulling out slightly further. He was fully fucking you.
He stayed slow, not wanting to overwhelm you, but you raised your knees in order to feel him deeper.
“Fuck, Y/N, baby,” he whispered, beginning to speed up. Your moans and the sound of your wetness sent him to the edge. The tightening in your stomach grew once more, Embry’s tip pressing the exact spot inside you to get you seeing stars.
“Embry, fuck,” you moan loudly, unabashedly, hips rocking back to meet his.
Just as you were starting to feel slightly raw and sensitive, he gripped your hips, stilling behind you, and you felt a warmth between your legs. He didn’t start moving again, so you figured he came. He pulled out and flopped on the bed next to you, searching your face for any hint of regret.
“Are you okay?” he asked, always taking care of your needs first.
“That was amazing, Embry,” you beamed, breathless. He pulled you into his arms, kissing your forehead and running a hand through your hair.
“So…” Embry began after catching his breath. “Where am I gonna take you this weekend?” he thought out loud. You were confused.
“Take me?” you clarified.
“Sex rule number one:” he started, his voice laced with humor. “If I make you cum, I get to take you on a date. Didn’t you know?” he feigned ignorance.
“Well,” you joked back, “I guess rules are rules.”
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diaphragmjellyfish · 5 months ago
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Wolf Pack Vibes
Paul - brown leather jackets, bruised knuckles, eating a pb&j over the kitchen sink, the smell of pine, motorcycles, cheeky smirks, being shirtless in the rain, boxing to release stress, shots of fireball, barbecues and bonfires
Seth - asking to pet every dog on the street, board game nights, surfing and skateboarding, stopping at the gas station for a slushee, summer days at the zoo, yoga outdoors, a dash of sass, silent footsteps, ice cream sundays
Jared - wholesome pranks, unrestrained laughter, muscle tees, loud music, the comic book shop, driving a jeep with the top down, escape rooms, cherry chapstick, Halloween mischief, trading Poke’mon cards, aftershave
Embry - classic books, doodles in the margins, slow dancing in the rain, hand written love notes, picnic on the beach, soft neutral clothes, spearmint, pine cones, gazing out a foggy window, Greek mythology, sushi
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diaphragmjellyfish · 5 months ago
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Bella Swan Coded
Frayed book pages, being grateful to have a car and not caring what it looks like, introvert, comfort over fashion, being quiet but not shy, loving photography but never wanting to be in the picture, lavender body spray, comfort hoodie worn every day, hot coffee with a splash of cream, soft spoken poetry, messy handwriting, not having social media, homemade quilts, blushing cheeks, bare nails, headphones in at all times, worn out sneakers
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diaphragmjellyfish · 5 months ago
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Requests now open for twilight wolf pack PREFERENCES! Yes we are going old school wattpad/quotev style. SFW or NSFW let me know what you want to see ❤️ I promise to write this time
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diaphragmjellyfish · 7 months ago
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heyy are you still writing?
I want to but have been sooooo low on inspiration lately. Maybe I just don’t have *it* anymore :(
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diaphragmjellyfish · 9 months ago
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Heyyy how was your Thanksgiving? Just wanted to check in bc we haven't heard from you in a while 🥰
Helooooo it was good! Made some bangin green beans and spent time with my family. Tysm for asking ur so sweet ❤️❤️❤️
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diaphragmjellyfish · 10 months ago
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Americans really would set this whole place on fire before seeing a woman in charge.
The disappointment in my country is unreal.
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diaphragmjellyfish · 11 months ago
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so happy to see you back!!!!
Thank you!! It’s been a while but I’m hoping to get back into the swing of things. The support has been so heartwarming ❤️❤️
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diaphragmjellyfish · 11 months ago
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"it's unhealthy to read fanfiction"
well i'm doing my 20 minutes of daily reading so...
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diaphragmjellyfish · 11 months ago
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Gentleman
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Rafe Cameron x reader
College AU
Smut, 18+ only
Tw: hazing, prostitution if you squint, me being back from the dead after years
Whoever invented nylon underwear was on your personal hit list after today. You understood it was more for show than for go, but seriously, you’ve never been so uncomfortable in your life. Surrounded by the other pledges, you got yourselves dolled up like strippers to be auctioned off to the campus’ leading fraternity. What the fuck, right? It was “for charity,” but you knew that was just an extreme to cover up this ridiculous hazing process. The idea was that all the pledges had to prance around a basement in lingerie in front of a bunch of douchey frat boys and let them bid on a night with you. If you chickened out or didn’t get high enough bids, you’d be dropped. So here you were, applying a final coat of clear lip gloss before being lined up like horses at auction getting ready for slaughter.
“Alright ladies, look alive!” the sorority president yelled as she jaunted through the makeshift dressing room. “These boys have full pockets and hard cocks, let’s not keep them waiting.” Real classy. And the fact that some of these girls actually seemed excited was beyond you. If your whole future wasn’t relying on getting into this sorority, you’d have been gone a long time ago. But here you were, about to whore yourself out for a chance at your dream.
“Layci, you’re first,” you heard as you and the other livestock – I mean, ladies – lined up by the door in the order that you’d drawn earlier in the day. You were third from last. You assumed the boys would all throw their money on the first bunch of girls, meaning the end of the line would be left to fight over the scraps of what was left. And you knew this fraternity too– had heard their name mentioned on campus a lot. Known for using Daddy’s money to throw expensive parties with VIP lists and endless cocaine, their elite functions were held only at country clubs and private beaches, mansions and yachts. Hopefully that at least meant that whatever pig won your bid would be a two-pump-chump and you could be over and done with this whole thing before midnight.
“Push up those titties and pout those lips,” the president shouted with an evil enthusiasm, “the show is about to begin.” She took one last look at the desperate lineup of girls, adorned in the sluttiest garments they could muster. You shouldn’t think too little of them. After all, you were standing among them. You had your own reasons for being here, so you would give the others the benefit of the doubt too. The president skipped out of the room and to the basement, where the bidding would take place. This was all happening in the fraternity house, or mansion you should say. They had set up lights, speakers, and a runway for the annual event. You heard the president through the microphone from where you stood.
“Welcome, gentlemen, welcome! To the annual Kappa Delta Theta bid night for charity!” You heard a hoard of whooping and clinking of glasses. “Let me just say that tonight’s lineup of young ladies is sure to exceed all expectations. Please use your paddles to place your bids as the ladies walk out. Feel free to use those later tonight, too,” she suggested cheekily, and was met with comments dripping in testosterone and entitlement. “All proceeds will go to Kappa Delta Theta’s charity of choice, the Charlotte Food Pantry, which feeds over one thousand families per week.” Well, at least you could get behind that.
“We ask that you please let us know if your chosen lady does not meet your needs. After all, these girls are still proving themselves as honorary members of the Kappa house.” She went on to say, a subtle warning to the waiting girls. “Once you have won your bid, please make your way to the back room where you will meet your lady and be sent to one of the private rooms in the house. After that, the rest is up to you!” Cheers and hollering followed as the president brought out her list of girls.
“Let me introduce you to lady number one, Layci,” she announced as the lighting dimmed and a spotlight was shown on the curtained entryway. Layci breathed deep and plastered a smile on her face before exiting into the room– a gazelle marching into a hoard of lions. “Layci majors in marketing, and enjoys Sunday football and Bud Light Limes. Let’s start the bid at $100.” You struggled to hear the remainder of the bidding amongst the shouting and music until you heard a “Sold! To Trey Parker for $375.” Trey Parker, Jesus. You were glad he hadn’t bid on you, but felt extremely bad for Layci. He was an obnoxious drunk, known for snorting coke and punching walls when his football team lost. This was going to be a long night.
You attempted to dissociate and drown out the rest of the bidding as the girls filed out one by one, but before you knew it, you were face to face with that daunting curtain. The bidding had seemed to slow down a lot, and the room grew quieter as the boys won their bids and moved on to claim their prizes elsewhere in the house.
“Gentlemen, we only have a few ladies left, so let’s see those wallets! Next up, we have a Pre-Law major who enjoys pina coladas and getting caught in the rain, gentlemen give it up for Y/N!” you mustered up all the courage you had, pushed your bra strap up one final time, and walked into the blinding spotlight. You saw the glares of eyes watching your every step, analyzing your body, your face. Never in your life had you felt so vulnerable. Law school. Law school. You reminded yourself of your goal, and that gave you the courage to plaster on a smile and strut down the walkway. Whistles could be heard, but you ignored them and gave a spin before walking back up.
“Let’s start at $100,” she stated as you waited for the inevitable sting of a low bid. After all, you hadn’t put nearly as much thought into this as some of the girls had. Waxing, laser, facials, nails… all you had done was shaved and shown up. A paddle raised in your line of sight. Shit, was that Tanner Marshall? A cocky boy with a beer gut and entitled attitude, you’d heard rumors of his temper. Multiple women on campus had horror stories about him. Please, God, anyone else. Please not him.
Another paddle raised in the corner of your eye from a boy you hadn’t seen before. “$200,” he said quietly as his eyes raked your frame. He was cute, you wouldn’t lie, but you had no reason to believe he was any better than Tanner Marshall. His blue eyes met yours as he adjusted his backwards baseball hat and leaned forward.
“$350,” said Tanner with a smirk.
“$500,” the mystery boy countered without missing a beat.
“Woah, woah, let’s slow down, boys. There’s still a couple other girls after this,” the sorority president countered.
“$600,” Tanner Marshall forced, growing frustrated at the thought of taking a loss.
“$750,” Mystery Boy added, showing no signs of giving up. The highest bid you heard so far was $800. Did you stand a chance at topping that? If you did, they’d have to let you join for sure. To sweeten the pot, you threw a wink towards Tanner Marshall, as much as it sickened you.
“$900,” he said in a pained voice after seeing your flirtatious act.
A silence followed. Shit, you shouldn’t have done that. Mentally prepping for the most traumatic night of your life, you heard a solid “$1,000” from Mystery Boy. All heads turned to him at this extreme bid.
The sorority president seemed shocked at that, but gathered herself and announced, “One thousand dollars, going once,” please, please God please, “Going twice,” let him win and let him be an ounce kinder than Tanner Marshall, “Sold! To Rafe Cameron.”
Rafe Cameron, you’d heard his name mentioned before on campus but had few details to go off. You locked eyes with him once more before making your way back through the curtain and releasing a large sigh. It was over, but it wasn’t. Now came the tough part. Yes, you’d won the highest bid of the night, but now you had to fulfill it. Would he be aggressive? Would he listen to your pleas to be gentle? Would he fuck you and throw you into the hallway like trash after?
Your thoughts were interrupted as you were herded back to the entryway of the house by one of the sorority sisters. She handed you a strip of condoms and said “Good luck,” before leaving you to wait for Rafe Cameron to show up. The seconds felt like days as you paced in your stripper heels, attempting not to roll an ankle. Footsteps sounded in the distance and got closer. You held your breath as Rafe turned the corner and locked eyes with you once more. He let his gaze fall openly down your body once more and then gestured towards the stairs with a smirk. “Shall we?”
The trek to your private room didn’t last nearly as long as you had hoped. As you both entered, he turned to close and lock the door behind you. You stood in the center of the floor awkwardly, waiting for him to give you some cue as to what to do. Should you try to talk to him? Should you kiss? Should you drop your underwear and bend over and let him do what he pleased? This was an entirely new scenario to you, and you had absolutely no idea what to do. He waited as well, hands in his pockets, though not out of nerves. It was a test. He was trying to see if you were forward enough to take action, or if the awkwardness would be too much for you to stand. You held eye contact firm. He seemed pleased with this and broke the tension.
“Y/N, right?”
You nodded in response.
“Face down on the bed, hands behind your back.” Your breathing stopped, and you couldn’t move. So this was the type of night this would turn out to be. You’d be meat. He watched your shocked expression and waited for movement, before cracking a smile and saying “I’m kidding.”
“Oh,” you breathed, relieved and feeling slightly looser.
He kicked off his expensive shoes and hopped on the bed, hands behind his head as he leaned back against the pillows. He patted the seat next to him in a silent order to sit. You perched on the edge of the bed and leaned down to finally take off your excruciating shoes. You sighed in relief once they were off, and spun to sit next to him, still feeling unsure.
“I’m not sure what to do,” you finally admitted, hands picking at each other. His piercing blue eyes made contact with your own. He was extremely confident, and it was a little intimidating.
“Well, we’re supposed to have sex,” he stated plainly, hands still behind his head.
“Right,” you said nervously, “so should we just… start?”
“Why you doing this?” He questioned, the sudden change of topic giving you whiplash. “You don’t seem like you want to be here, so why are you?”
“Uhh,” you thought. Should you lie and act into it? Should you be honest only for him to treat you like a chew toy anyways? “Well, I uh, I just need to get into this sorority.”
“Other ones weren’t fancy enough for you?” he questioned, a joke laced in truth.
“Not exactly,” you started. “There’s a grad school I want to go to. Need to go to. And of girls in this sorority who apply, 90% get accepted. The Dean was a Kappa.”
He nodded in understanding. “That’s a better reason than most,” he finally responded, giving you some comfort. “I was right, though.”
At this, you gave him a questioning look. “Right about what?”
“You’re not Kappa material. That house is for sluts and party girls.” You were caught off guard by his bold language, and somewhat offended at his accusation, though you know deep down that he was right.
“Well then why did you pay $1,000 for me if I’m not a slut?” you countered, trying to throw something, anything, back at him.
“Because you’re smoking. And I know what Tanner Marshall does to girls, and you’re too innocent for that.”
“I am not innocent,” you huffed, glaring at him through a blush. He doesn’t know you. Who does he think he is labeling you like that?
“Oh yeah? How many guys have you slept with?” he argued. You paused. Should you lie? You didn’t want him to think you couldn’t handle yourself in the bedroom. Then, he might tell Kappa that you weren’t satisfactory and you’d never get in. Something about his stare, though, demanded honesty. You could see him being a very cut-throat boss or CEO someday.
“...one.”
“One guy, or one time?” Damn him. Was he a mind reader or something?
“.... one time. There, happy now?”
“What did you think?”
“What did I think of what?” you countered.
“The sex. Did you like it?”
You paused. This conversation was taking a turn, but what did you expect from a night like tonight?
“It was… fine,” you admitted.
“Just fine?” he prodded, “did you finish?”
“Wha– that’s none of your business,” you argued. He must have some real ego, asking you a question like that.
“So, no,” he stated. Your intense blush only confirmed his remark.
He smirked to himself, contemplating his next words.
“So, Y/n, here’s my offer.” He was definitely a business bro in the making. “We can stay in here for 20 minutes, make some crazy noises, and you can tell everyone we had sex so you can get into your precious sorority. No hard feelings. Or, you can actually let me fuck you. You’ll learn what good sex is supposed to feel like, and walk out of here an honest woman.”
What an insane offer. He was giving you a free pass to get out of this after dropping $1k for a night with you. He would let you walk away and tell everyone you had gone through with it. What was the catch?
“What makes you think I’ll like it any better with you?” you countered, feeling defensive.
“Oh, trust me, you will,” he smirked again. You wanted to wipe that smirk off his stupid cute face. Damn him. Why were you even considering this? You should take the free pass and run, you thought. But for some reason, you stopped. He was super hot, and you were in college. There was nothing wrong with wanting to get a little more experience, especially if you were going to spend your entire school career in the library doing test prep. You know what? Maybe you should do it. After all, he spent big money to save you from a worse fate, and was giving you options right now. You wondered how many of the other pledges were wishing they had that offer tonight.
“Okay,” you breathed, feeling emboldened by your choice.
“Okay, what?” he quipped.
“Okay, we can… do it,” you responded, again feeling shy but trying to power through it. His face lit up with a laugh at your phrasing.
“Well then, come here, sweetheart,” he muttered, pulling you closer to him by the hips as you gasped. You were fully lying down next to him now, and he was leaning over you with a hand on your inner thigh, your leg pushed up against his stomach. He leaned down and confidently took your lips with his own. You squeaked in surprise at his boldness before sinking further into the mattress and shutting your eyes. He kissed you slowly, yet dominantly, tongue peaking out to brush your lips before retreating so as not to scare you with too much, too fast. His one elbow remained propped by your head as his other hand rubbed soft patterns on your thigh. That felt nice, you thought, as your body grew hotter. If the rest of the night was going to be anything like this, you were in for it.
Breathing heavily, you pulled away for air as he brought his mouth to your neck. He licked a firm stripe up the side, pulling another gasp out of you, before sucking down on a patch of skin. He soothed with his tongue before lightly biting, being sure to leave a mark. You began to writhe underneath him at the sensation, which he definitely noticed.
“Feelin’ good?” he muttered, face still buried in your neck. You felt the urge to tease him as he had been teasing you all night.
“It’s… fine,” you giggled, attempting to knock his confidence. But he only sucked harder at this, drawing a yelp from you. He sat up on his knees before you and tore his t-shirt off in a fervor. He paused for a moment, giving you time to pump the brakes. However, you took that time to admire his defined torso, lined with lean muscle and veins trailing down below his waistband. You wanted to find out where they lead. He adjusted his backwards hat and lowered himself onto the bed between your legs, hooking your thighs over his shoulders. He began to kiss your inner thighs before you stopped him.
“We can skip this part,” you said breathlessly. He looked at you, confused.
“Why?”
“I just… I don’t really like it, is all,” you admitted. He looked at you like you just spoke Chinese.
“You’ve had one guy who had no idea what he was doing eat you out. I’m doing it, and you’re gonna like it. Besides, I’m not fucking you without getting you warmed up first.” He said it almost as an order, and you had no choice but to let him continue. Maybe it would be different this time. You doubted it, but it was possible. He used a hand to push you back down on the bed and began kissing your thighs once more. You were only in a bra and underwear, so he had easy access to you, but he didn’t go straight for it just yet. He kissed and sucked around your thighs and hips, careful not to touch your center. He was being a tease.
You lost yourself in the feeling and began to writhe once more. Noticing this, Rafe brought a hand down to pull your underwear to the side, and met your center with a soft kiss. Your nerves were all lit up at this point, so even the small motion felt great. Your hips bucked up for more friction, but he pulled away.
“What do you say?” he teased.
“Please,” you pleaded without any thought to it. He mumbled a ‘fuck’ at this, and commented, “What a good girl you are.” He brought his mouth back down and began to lick stripes up your center before suckling on your clit. This action caused a small moan to leave your mouth, which only encouraged him more. He continued these motions for God knows how long, licking, suckling, kissing, until you were a squirming mess underneath him. Then, he brought a single finger to your center, swirling it around your hole to collect your juices, before pushing it inside you to the second knuckle. He paused here so as not to hurt you, and waited for a reaction. When he found none, he pushed his digit all the way in, and studied your face as he brushed your inner wall in a “come here” motion. You gasped as your eyes shut closed and your head dropped back. Shit, that felt good.
“That’s it,” he mumbled as he kept up this motion, adding his mouth back into the mix once he was satisfied with your facial expressions. The combination of his mouth and finger was insane. You’d never felt anything like this before, even by yourself. This must have been what girls were talking about when they raved about oral.
“Oh my God, Rafe,” you sighed. He moaned in response, grinding his hips into the mattress. After several more minutes of this, he sat up and looked for the strip of condoms that had been forgotten on the floor. Standing from the bed and tearing one off, he dropped his pants and tore the packet open with his teeth. You admired him. He was straight out of a Greek myth, all corded rope muscles and a jawline that could cut a man. His tall frame overtook the room, and his dick… it was… big. Big enough to have you concerned. The last guy you had been with was half the size, and the pain was excruciating. Rafe saw your concerned face.
“Y’okay?”
“Yeah, it’s just, um… “ he waited patiently for a response. “Would you mind, maybe, like… starting kind of… slow?” you finally managed to drag out.
He looked at you again with a hint of laughter on his face.
“Honey… I’m not just gonna jam it in you,” he laughed. “We’ll take it easy. I’m not a monster.”
You giggled with him at this and relaxed into the bed once more. He kneeled before you on the bed looking like a Calvin Klein ad. Hands beside your head, he lowered himself on top of you and gave you a sweet kiss. He lined himself up and asked, “Ready?”
You nodded and felt him push his tip through your folds. He pressed carefully into you as you stiffened at the stretch. His face was buried in your neck once more, kissing up and down softly. Feeling your tense muscles, he whispered an order. “Breathe,” he soothed, the hand that wasn’t holding himself up petting your hair. You did as told and attempted to relax your body. He slid further in and paused to let you adjust.
You peeked down at your joined bodies and saw that the fullness you felt inside of you was only half of his length.
“Jesus,” you sighed.
“You’re okay,” he whispered, holding you steady. His words were the only thing keeping you grounded in that moment as you tried to manage the stretch of him. When he was most of the way seated, he pulled out a couple of inches and carefully pushed back in. You felt the drag of him on your walls, and let out a sigh. The sensation was bordering on painful, but the pressure of his tip inside you was a needed and pleasurable distraction. He did this once more, pushing deeper in this time, and continued this motion until he was fully seated inside of you.
“How’s it feel?” he questioned.
“It’s a lot,” you breathed, unsure how to describe it.
“I know baby, I know,” he comforted, hand still petting your head. “Let’s get you goin’, yeah?”
You nodded, though you would have agreed with anything he said in that moment. He dragged himself out halfway and pushed back in. He was still being gentle, but was definitely picking up the pace and made sure to watch you for any signs of discomfort. He sat up to a kneeling position between your legs and brought his hands to your waist, holding you steady for him. He worked into a quicker pace and brought a thumb to your clit, drawing small circles. This had you bucking your hips to meet his, soft moans beginning to leave your mouth. You closed your eyes and dropped your head back, falling into the moment.
Seeing you relax, he cooed, “There you go.”
“Oh my God,” you sighed, brows scrunching at his relentless rhythm. This was nothing like your last time, and you were so grateful for that. His thumb quickened on your clit, drawing higher and louder moans from you. “Fuck, Rafe,” you moaned loudly, only spurring him on further. His own moans joined yours, and you felt your stomach tighten. You tensed, and he noticed, not changing a thing about his actions until you were seeing stars. Your whole body tightened as you came, thighs trembling and mouth hanging open in a silent scream, and he watched every second of it, keeping pace until you peeled his hand off your center, the feeling becoming too much to handle. He dropped his hand, but remained constant with his hips until you saw his own face begin to scrunch. He moaned a “Fuck, Y/N” as he spilled into the condom, and paused for his own high to blow over before pulling out of you gently. You felt an emptiness in you then, wanting him back inside of you but knowing you both needed a break. After throwing away the condom, he came back to lay beside you on the bed, heavy breathing matching your own.
Your eyes remained closed, but you became conscious of how long you were lingering. Wasn’t that rule number one of hook-ups? You were supposed to leave right after?
“Sorry, just give me a second and I’ll go,” you huffed, still catching your breath.
He looked over at you and, after realizing what you said, spoke, “you’re not going anywhere.” You looked at him in slight confusion.
“We’re gonna snuggle and then go get some food. I’m fucking starving after that.”
“Okay,” you conceded. Again, you would have agreed to anything that man had said in that moment. You didn’t have the energy or will power to put up a fight. He pulled you onto his chest and wrapped his arms around you, kissing your forehead and soothing your skin with his fingers. You sighed and shut your eyes, soaking in the moment.
“So?” he prodded, that same cocky tone as before lacing his voice.
“So, what?” you teased.
“I’m guessing by your volume that you liked it,” he retorted. You felt yourself blush at this, not realizing that you had been particularly loud. He felt your embarrassment and comforted with a laugh, “It’s okay, I like loud. It was hot.” All you could do was giggle and bury your face in his chest.
“Hungry?” he changed the subject. You nodded, and he sat up and said, “Get dressed, gorgeous.” You looked down at the wrinkled lingerie that still adorned your figure, realizing that you didn’t have anything else to wear. You certainly couldn’t wear this in public. This wasn’t Vegas. He saw where your gaze landed and seemed to understand. After putting on his joggers, he walked over to you with his shirt and put it over your head, pulling the sleeves over your arms. “Doordash it is, then.”
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diaphragmjellyfish · 11 months ago
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come back please 😭😭😭 your writing gives me life ❤️
I’ve been debating this lately tbh……
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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Acne is traumatizing
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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You don't have to answer but just wondering how are you? How have you been? :) 💕
I’ve been good lately! Still on winter break and I’m about to go into my last semester before graduation which is honestly terrifying but I guess we’ve all gotta do it. I’ve gotten super into house plants lately so I’m enjoying that at the moment! How are you?
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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Hey, so after your announcement I read a bunch of articles about herpes and I'm truly shocked about how less I know about that. Just wanted to let you know that I learned something from you! Thank you for spreading awareness. I wish you a good recovery and lots of strength. <3
Thank you! Knowledge is power so glad to hear you got a little more powerful ❤️
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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I don't have herpes myself but my first ever time learning about it was from my mom who told me the story of how her friend got it the very first time she had sex. She went on to get married and have kids even with something so challenged happing to her at a young age. She lived a full life and no one was judging her or looking down on her. So that has always been my outlook on herpes or any STI. It doesn't make you gross or make you a bad person or irresponsible in any way. You could have gotten Lyme disease from a tick and no one would be telling you you shouldn't have ever gone outside in the first place. It's a hazzard of life. It doesn't change you as a person. I also want to thank you for being so open about vaginismis because you were the one who helped me realize I had it and your stories helped me feel ok about it. I think of you in very high regards because of this and I always will. I'm behind you cheering you on! You're brave and strong and will help so many people just by being open about this change in your life.❤❤
Stop making me cry at work 😭😭😭 this is the sweetest message I’ve ever gotten and makes me feel so much better about the whole thing. It’s easy to be transparent when you’re anonymous but I really do try my best to make other people feel not so alone. It’s nice to know it’s paid off and at least one person has been impacted by my blog. Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
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diaphragmjellyfish · 3 years ago
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This has always been a very sex positive, open, honest blog. And it’s a place where I feel like I can actually speak and be heard. I have something to say, and it’s something I’m still uncomfortable with myself, but I want this to be a transparent place where people with vaginas aren’t ashamed of the things we go through.
Yesterday, I was diagnosed with herpes. At the moment, I feel gross, like I’ll never be fully clean again, and like I don’t know who I am. It’s thrown me into a full on identity crisis.
Thankfully, I have supportive people around me and an amazing doctor who see it for what it is… an extremely common virus that has a stigma because of old fashioned conservative values. Maybe this will be a larger part of my blog now or maybe I’ll try to forget about it, but I want to open up the floor to you guys.
If you have it and are comfortable sharing, how does it make you feel?
What are some common misconceptions about it?
And any other tidbits or thoughts you’d like to share. It would really make me feel a lot better.
Much love ❤️
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