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I   HAVE   MOVED   AIDEN   HERE.

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I   HAVE   MOVED   AIDEN   HERE.

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I   HAVE   MOVED   AIDEN   HERE.

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friendly   reminder   that   aiden   is   problematic.   he   is   arrogant,   reckless   &   can   be   unbelievably   rude.

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How?“ he asked, his voice a cracked whisper. She swallowed, her eyes trained at his feet. “Much the way it started; slowly, then all at once. And then one day I didn’t love you.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write (via kiramartinauthor)

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hurt meme.

“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”

“i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”

“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”

“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”

“don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”

“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”

“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”

“you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”

“you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”

“i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”

“i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”

“i fucked up, why do you not care?”

“i can’t walk, just go on without me.”

“you have broken ribs, take it easy.”

“i have no idea how to do cpr.”

“whose blood is that?”

“apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”

“don’t you dare fucking let go!” 

“what the hell happened to you?” 

“are they dead? did you kill them?” 

“do you know what you’ve done?” 

“you’re either with me or against me.” 

“who the hell did this to you?” 

“are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 

“i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 

“when was the last time you ate?” 

“what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 

 “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 

“for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 

“there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 

“are you… throwing up in there?” 

“why aren’t you eating?” 

“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 

“i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 

“i woke up, & you were gone.” 

“just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 

“it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

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not to start drama but like   , ,, did you guys know that i……………………… uhhhhhhhhhhh lov @makesfilms ,   @dolorst ,   @hartsprung ,   @tanriisal ,   @songslight ,   @hazedsea  and @ownheroes more than anything ????

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SUNSKISSED                    //                    KALI     *          001.

       any   outsider   observers   of   the   pair   would  not  be  blamed  for  fearing  that  the  taller  half  had  just  told  her  that  he  personally  eradicated  the  earth’s  supply  of  vegan  ice  on  the  day  of  her  parent’s  joint  funeral  from  the  look  of  pure   SHOCK    AND   OFFENCE   as  she  stumbles  to  a  halt  in  her  stride  at  the  simple notion .        ❝  b-but …    why  not ?    i  love  sharks  and  i  love  milkshakes !    why  wouldn’t  i  combine  the  two ?   ❞

      IN  THAT  WEARY  SORT  OF  WAY,   aiden    sighed    lightly   in   response,     wondering   how   exactly   to   proceed   without   accidentally    causing    tears.     ❛   if   the   world   were   a   simpler   place     i’d   give   you   a   SHARK-INSPIRED   milkshake,     but   alas,   the   world   is   not   a    simple   place   &   there’s   only   so   many   shark   facts    i   can   bear.     so    please,    for   the   love   of   god,   just   tone   it   down  ??     put   a   little   VARIETY   into   what   you   talk   about,   yeah   ??     like,    erm,      tell   me   about   your   favourite   fruit   or   something.      you’re   the   kind   of   person   to   have   a   favourite   everything.    ❜

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bold what your muse can do repost !! do not reblog !!

bake a cake from scratch | ride a horse | drive a submarine | speak a second language | dance | catch a fish | play an instrument | throw a punch | build a deck | ice skate | unclog a drain | program a computer | change a flat tire | fire a gun | sew | juggle | play poker | paint | fly a kite | sculpt | write poetry | change a diaper | sing | shoot a bow and arrow | ride a bike | swim | sail a boat | do a back flip | play chess | give cpr| pitch a tent | flirt | stitch a wound | read palms | use chopsticks | write in cursive calligraphy | use an electric drill | braid hair | make a campfire | make a mixed drink | do sudoku puzzles | wrap a gift | give a good massage | jump-start a car | roll their tongue | do magic tricks | do yoga | tie a tie | skip a rock | shuffle a deck of cards | read morse code | pick a lock | fly a plane | train a dog/cat | fix a car | apologize | write a business letter | write in a second language | say the alphabet backwards | read music | cook complex meals | change oil | paint nails | draw | socialize | march | take apart a gun | drive a rig | operate a tank | climb a tree | rock climb | tie a cherry stem | basic first-aid | draw blood | put out a fire

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healthy relationships with fathers? sounds fake

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me:   * is  suddenly  feeling  focused * 

me:  i  should  take  advantage  of  this  rare  moment  &  write  the  rest  of  one  of  my  essays

inner  me:   no,    continue  writing  the  meta   about  aiden’s  cats

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Take   this   QUIZ   and   find   out!   It’ll   have   you   check   off   all   traits   that   you   think   apply   to   your   muse,   then   calculate   a   color.

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you are saddlebrown  #8B4513

Your   dominant   hues   are   red   and   yellow   ...   most   of   what   you   do   is   motivated   by   your   need   to   change   things   and   have   a   good   time,   but   you've   been   known   to   settle   down   and   think   out   a   situation,   too.   You   tend   to   surprise   people   just   when   they're   starting   to   feel   like   they've   got   you   down. Your   saturation   level   is   high   -   you   get   into   life   and   have   a   strong   personality.   Everyone   you   meet   will   either   love   you   or   hate   you   -   either   way,   your   goal   is   to   get   them   to   change   the   world   with   you.   You   are   very   hard   working   and   don't   have   much   patience   for   people   without   your   initiative. Your   outlook   on   life   can   be   bright   or   dark,   depending   on   the   situation.   You   are   flexible   and   see   things   objectively.

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