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gonna start posting on tumblr,,!! here are some natsuyuu drawings from the start of the year

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はふはふ

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Me: *successfully avoids social event* nice

Me: *is really lonely* shit

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Im sad again

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Can someone tell me something positive in their life right now?

Could really use it yknow

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Priority Check-Up

I really need to be finishing up some work but I need to get things I want in order guys gomen:

1.) Finish this semester and not suck so much dick at learning, I’m almost there

2.) Find a better job while keep my side hustles.

3.) Spend more time with people who actually mean something to me

4.) Figure out who actually does mean something to me besides le obvious. 

5.) Keep on working out because it does feel good after

6.) Keep consistent and try not to waste too much time on people/things that won’t spend time on you

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Why do people who don’t matter hurt the most

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im sad help

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is it okay to cry

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11.12.18

Hi Guys,

I’ve had a bit of an up and down of a emotional time lately and I find myself in these spouts of feeling like “I’m not good enough” vs. “I’m gonna make the world a better place”. It’s that feeling of being your own worst enemy in a sense. I love all of those close to me but I really need to put time aside for me sometimes but I can’t quite manage it because I end up being non-productive and it feels as though I’m taking 3 steps back every time I want to go forward. I think it’s the feeling of wanting to be better but putting in the genuine effort drains me, even after a couple of days. 

And After that I feel like I kind of go back into my former self. It’s not healthy and I want to make progress. 

I want to code. I want to learn. I want to dance. I want to lift those weights. I want to run that track. I want to play that instrument. But those things shouldn’t determine the self worth that I have for myself, but it should be an extension of the person I am. 

I want to be a person that a younger me would want in their life and an older me that would have no regrets with. But I have to be there for myself and not take the easy way out of things when times get hard.

I started making sacrifices to do those things. I promised myself a good deal of work in order leave no possibility unturned. I can’t even live the same college life that I did just a year ago. I want to move and live a more fulfilling life. 

I guess this kind of sums up the mood right now..

till next time//

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Im tired of new people

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you don’t order food, you order moods

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honestly im tired of people 

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I miss my gf a lot

She lives right down the street tho