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My five year plan is to just see what happens

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Today I turn 44.

Which means I am officially an adult.

So from here on out, I will only be doing very serious adult things. And taking very serious and dramatic adult photos of myself.

Err... I mean... not *adult* photos.

No more silly photos.

Yes, much too silly.

As you may know, 44 is the year the prefrontal cortex finishes developing. And then suddenly you are a grown-up and you know exactly what to do in stressful situations and how to fill out your taxes and you say things like, "Those darn kids and their music!"

I watched KPop Demon Hunters all ready to practice and shake my fist at this newfangled noise, but I forgot and found myself bobbing my head and singing along. And maybe crying a bit at the end there.

My brain just wasn't cooked enough yet, I suppose.

Okay... umm... This is embarrassing. I've just checked and apparently the brain finishes developing at 24, not 44.

That's my bad.

According to ChatGPT I have been an adult for quite some time and I am just... "like this."

Eh, growing up is overrated.

I wish I could say this will be a happy birthday, but I am still in the midst of a pretty intense medical recovery. And it just doesn't feel great to heal sometimes. The good news is I am nearing the finish line. There's a chance in a month or two I could feel a lot better than I have in a while.

But due to a family betrayal that I am not going to speak of on my birthday, my financial circumstances are not wonderful right now. And I am not going to have the health to sort them until I finish my recovery. And certain parts of my house have decided now is the time to be in disrepair.

I just recently needed an emergency A/C repair during the least ideal day for the A/C to conk out. The house got up to 90° and I was feeling pretty sick. But it was fixed in short order and I am okay now.

(Outside, garage, kitchen, living room)

But apparently a groundhog dug a hole under my front porch and may have knocked a pipe. So I have to figure out how to get a small leak fixed now too.

I thought that little jerk was cute.

I still think he is cute, but he is going on my "cute but annoying" list right after all the squirrels that set off my security camera motion alerts at 3am.

I am so close to restoring a bit of my health and it has been a miserable 8 month process and I guess the universe decided I needed a few more obstacles before I completed my recovery.

So... if anyone would like to lend a little help along with their birthday wishes, I would appreciate it.

PayPal

Venmo

In any case, I got to see Katrina this morning. She Facetime'd me all the way from Greece. She is my favorite person so that was the best birthday gift I could ask for. I am always grateful for the time I get to spend with my friends. And I'm hoping if I get my health sorted, and save my house, then I can actually visit my friends in person instead of seeing them on a screen.

That will be my goal for when I turn 45.

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there used to be this giant book that was shipped to everybodies home whiched doxxed everybody in the city

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so I started playing Cult of the lamb with my brother

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(person who learned from childhood to make themself as small and unimportant as possible to avoid being a burden) yeah its okay we dont have to do my thing if you dont want i dont mind

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🐟🐟🌕🐟🐟🐟🐟 // swallowtail shiners // gouache on hot press paper

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Pigeon 3D model, personal project

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you literally have shitty hide armor and a dull ass shortsword. let me guess. your loot is 6 gold coins too? 🙄

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I wanna see them interact so bad. So curious as to how their dynamic would be...

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Chunken

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Someone wrote, "Labubourgeoisie?"

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Sometimes, there's too much fork in the way and you forget how to soup.

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in a moment, everything can change