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ethereacals · 3 months ago

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She

synopsis: Sirius locks eyes with a mysterious woman across the ballroom, and simply has to know more.

pairing: sirius black x fem!reader

cw: reader is described to be wearing a dress, slight regency(?)

a/n: apologies for my absence! i have been so incredibly busy lately, but enjoy this one shot. chapter one of Stargirl Interlude will be out soon <3

YOUR SHAKY HANDS SMOOTHED over the fabric of your dress, the feeling of people wall to wall in the ballroom suffocating.

You only hoped that nobody would be looking at you, as you huddled in the corner with your expensive champagne.

You stood by the window, the cool October breeze brushing against your face.

Why were you here?

Good question.

Your family was of new money rather than old.

And as the eldest daughter of your families court, to allow your family to begin to rise in the Sacred 28’s ranks…

It was vital that you get married eventually.

Your mother could only hope that "eventually" meant sooner rather than later.

You on the other-hand; could definitely disagree.

Though seeing as men were vying for your courtship, it didn't seem you were getting your way.

You simply weren’t interested in settling down yet.

Unbeknownst to you— across the ballroom there was a boy completely and unashamedly staring you down.

One Sirius Black.

The first time Sirius laid his eyes on you, he knew he needed to know who you were.

“Who is she?” Sirius questioned, turning to his brother.

“She?” Regulus repeated, following Sirius’ eye-line towards this ‘She’ his brother was so curious about.

“I— don’t know.” Regulus’ brow furrowed, even though he was reserved— he still knew nearly everyone who attended the infamous Black Family galas.

He didn’t recognize her.

So, Sirius ended up asking all sorts of guests about your origins and where you came from.

None of them had a clue.

“She”

THE NEXT SACRED 28 EVENT occurred during the winter time.

That meant 64 days of Sirius dreaming about this someone he didn’t know.

Sirius was stood by his baby brother as he spotted you once more, and his heartbeat certainly sped up.

Sirius shook Regulus’ shoulders lightly, much to his chagrin.

“What is your problem?” Regulus berated quietly, as Sirius pointed.

“She.”

“She?” He asked.

“She lives in daydreams with me.” Sirius explained.

“…She?” Regulus questioned once more.

“She’s the first one that I see.” Sirius stated.

“And you don’t know why?” Regulus guessed.

“I don’t know who she is.” Sirius exclaimed, his hands meeting his temples.

“Go find out, then.” Regulus mused, giving his brother a soft nudge in the right direction.

And he was on his way.

YOU OBSERVED THE CROWD OF GUESTS, until you noticed that a raven-haired boy was making his way towards you.

Towards you? or just in your general vicinity.

You were unsure.

“Excuse me, Ma’am?” A voice asked, as you looked up to see that same boy.

“Y— Yes?” You choked, never had you ever been spoken too by such a high-profile heir.

“Care to join me for a walk in the courtyard? It’s beautiful at night.” He suggested, taking your arm once you carefully nodded.

He was right, the dim light from the lamps made the gardens look nearly ethereal at night.

You strolled together quietly, as he seemed to be building up the courage to speak.

“May I ask your name, M’lady?”

“Y/N, Y/N L/N.” You introduced yourself politely.

“Beautiful name.” Sirius kissed your hand gently, his eyes locked onto yours.

“Thank you, and yours?" Though it didn't take a genius to know who he was.

He was Sirius Black, everyone knew that.

Perhaps it was his raven-black hair, or his electric personality and mischievous smile.

All you could think about was the fact that he was speaking to you, the nobody.

"Don't take this the wrong way, my dear. But I have noticed you at these galas and events." He started, as you nearly tripped from his words.

"You were such a mystery to me, and I don't like mysteries." He added.

"Your immense beauty drew me in, though now, I seem to be drawn in by your sweet personality and disposition." His lithe hand caressed your shoulder faintly, anxiously awaiting your response.

“You don’t know me?” You stuttered out, face flushed pink.

“I like to get to know you.” He took your hands, the look in his ocean eyes nearly hypnotizing.

“If you would allow me too.” Say what you will about Sirius Black, but he was immensely cordial.

“Are you sure people would accept this? I’m not of high-respect like your family.” You countered, completely trying to sabotage yourself.

“Frankly, I don’t care what they think.” He shrugged, his hand coming up to cup your cheek.”

“And even if I did, I would still be absolutely captivated by you.” He noted, and your gaze felt impossible to tear away from his.

“I would like to get to know you too, Sirius.” You answered, his words utterly kind and flustering.

“I promise to treat you with immense care and appreciation, darling.”

And just like that,

Sirius had her.

She was his.

#marauders era #fem!reader #marauders #sirius black #fanfiction #sirius black x reader #regency #regency era #she harry styles #harry styles #oneshot #sirius black one shot #regulus black #the most noble and ancient house of black

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ethereacals · 3 months ago

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iris by goo goo dolls really is insane though. I'd give up forever to touch you? you're the closest to heaven I'll ever be? all I can breathe is your life? and I don't want the world to see me cause I don't think they'd understand? when everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am? does anyone hear me.

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ethereacals · 4 months ago

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introducing... fairy!reader

fairy!reader who is always tinkering with some little object.

fairy!reader who is extremely in-touch with nature.

fairy!reader who most perceive as odd.

fairy!reader who is very endearing, hence why they have a plentiful amount of admirers.

fairy!reader who can only be described in one way; whimsical.

add fairy!reader to your submissions today <3

#marauders era #fairy!reader #calli's readers ~*

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ethereacals · 4 months ago

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introducing... angel!reader

angel!reader who is too soft-spoken and shy for their own good, it took years for them to gain the confidence to speak to our main characters.

angel!reader who adores the concept of soulmates and love.

angel!reader who admires people from afar.

angel!reader who is incredibly illusive and mysterious.

angel!reader who once you notice them, they never leave your thoughts

request angel!reader now in my submissions <3

#marauders era #x reader #angel!reader ~*#calli's readers ~*

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ethereacals · 4 months ago

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Your header is so cute

thank you!! yours tops mine completely though 🫶

#calli returns #calli’s asks

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ethereacals · 4 months ago

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can't fight the moonlight

synopsis: Remus is electrified by your werewolf inspired costume

trope: costume party (it’s fun)

pairings: remus lupin x reader

cw: maybe a bit suggestive if you read into it

divider creds: @enchanthings

“DEEP IN THE DARK YOU’LL SURRENDER YOUR HEART.” Were the lyrics blasting out of the speakers in the Gryffindor common room.

Remus watched closely as your hips swayed side to side with the rhythm of the music, unbeknownst to him— his hand clutched his glass of fire whiskey.

“Nice pirate costume, mate!” Sirius barked over the crowd, the former adorned in black drapes and skulls.

“Thanks, and— what exactly are you meant to be?” Remus cocked his head, puzzled.

“Hades, clearly.” Sirius scoffed, and he leaned on James for support.

“He insisted.” James said from beside him, the boy dressed as Persephone.

“Hm.” Remus nodded, maybe you two could have done a matching costume— if you didn’t get in a small disagreement earlier.

The full moon was approaching, and Remus had reprimanded you earlier that day.

You were just trying to check on him— but he knew how he got during that time.

Uncontrollable.

And the moon was clearly fucking with him tonight, since you were here.

You were dressed as a werewolf, of course.

Fluffy ears on your head, a grey babydoll dress— Merlin, you were really messing with him.

You caught him staring at you, and you knew your master plan had worked.

To make him jealous.

Remus could barely take it anymore.

He pushed past clusters of students and reached for your arm, his fingers grasped tightly at your wrist as he tugged you away from the crowd.

“R—Remus—“ You tried.

“Where’s the confidence now, hm?” He asked, his arms crossing over his chest as he cornered you.

“Look, I—“

“You don’t understand what you’re doing to me.” He whispered, his breath fanning your ear.

“I do, actually.” You mused, your eyes drooping down to… somewhere.

Remus groaned, as he tried to lean in and kiss you.

“Nope.” You pressed your index finger over his lips.

“Not till you say sorry.” The poor thing looked like a rejected puppy.

“I’m very, very, very, sorry.” He apologized between soft kisses on your neck.

“And?” You crossed your arms.

“And you can share my chocolate with me…” He answered, smiling sweetly.

“Oh, alright.” You murmured, your lips crashing against his.

#marauders era #fem!reader #remus lupin #marauders #sirius black #fanfiction #james potter #remus lupin x reader

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ethereacals · 4 months ago

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me when i promise to write something and i dont

oops

#calli speaks

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ethereacals · 5 months ago

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so american <3

CHAPTER 8: ALL I WANT

synopsis: Remus grows attached to an American exchange student from Ilvermorny

pairings: remus lupin x reader

cw: profanity

a/n: sorry for the waittttt

a/n at the end!

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN drugging Remus Lupin?" Lily spat, her smile (which usually was infectious) was filled to the brim with poison.

Emilia's face went pale, as if she had seen some sort of ghost.

"I- What?''

"Are you that dense? Or do I need to repeat the question?" Lily riposted.

"H-How could you say that to me? You- You are awful! Just Awf-" Before Emilia's hand could 'clutch her pearls', Gilderoy cut her off.

"They know! They know! It's over-" Gilderoy shook like a frightened animal.

"How- How could you turn on me? Accept their lies? They are lying!" Emilia attempted to hoodwink the audience but- it was quite obvious that most weren't very convince by her attempts.

"Oh, drop it." Marlene flung back, her muscular arms crossed over her chest.

"Well, there you have it, folks! Emilia Sallow, self-proclaimed love potion enthusiast!" Mary raised her glass.

This was sure to be interesting.

But on the flipside...

James snuck away as you saw yourself out- seeing as the next phase of the plan was crucial, and it was about to begin.

"REMUS, YOU'VE GOT TO understand it's not your fault." Sirius tried, as Remus paced around the room.

"I- I can't! She... They- I feel so stupid!" Remus kicked his books about their dorm room as Peter clung to his bedframe.

"You were drugged, Moony. There was no way of you having any suspicion..." James leaned against the doorway.

"I've done harder things." He insisted, trying so desperately to place the blame on himself.

"Remus! You were practically brainwashed!" Sirius was one strike away from going ballistic.

''You don't get it! I could've broken out, I- I should have!"

"Remus, you need air." Peter mused compassionately, yet he still clung to the bedside.

"I- Peter is right, I'm getting air." Remus stated simply, and pushed his way out of the common room.

Remus was used to prying eyes, but they felt different this time.

"REMUS?" You called out softly, as you found him curled up in the corner of the moonlit courtyard.

Remus didn't respond, he didn't even look up.

You sat down next to him, keeping a simple distance as you reached for him.

His form trembled, like he might shatter into pieces.

"Remus..." You mused, your hand retracting from his body.

"Do you need water?- or... air to breathe?" You tried, until his head perked up from it's position on his knees.

His honey-brown eyes- usually filled with warmth and sweetness- were cold, dull, haunted.

"Please talk to me, Moons..."

"I don't know what's real anymore." You hated how broken he sounded.

"I know."

"It was all fake..." He reinstated.

"Not everything."

"How do I even know that?" His voice was hoarse, desperate.

"Because I was real?" You tried.

He sucked in a sharp breath- like your words struck deep inside of a painful place inside of him.

"I saw you slipping away. So I fought for you, Remus, even when you didn’t know you needed fighting for."

Remus exhales shakily, leaning back against the wall. He looks at you, his eyes glassy—full of guilt and regret.

"I hurt you." He whimpered.

"Yeah, you did." His face crumbles. He looks away, jaw clenching. You can see it—the way he’s beating himself up for something that wasn’t even his fault.

"It was still my hands. My words. My choices." He exhaled roughly, eyes shut tight.

"I let her touch me. I let myself believe I loved her."

"But it wasn't you." You cupped his cheek gently, wiping a stray tear away from his eye.

"How do I fix it?"

"You don’t have to fix it, and you can always come back to me." You smiled gently.

Then, slowly, hesitantly—Remus reaches for your hand. His fingers tremble against yours. You let him.

It’s small, but it’s real. And that’s enough.

IT'S BEEN DAYS SINCE THE INFAMOUS PARTY. Since Emilia was exposed. Since Remus started looking at you the way he used to—like you’re the only thing keeping him grounded.

Emilia- since she is still underage and can't face insane reproductions- was fined 200 Galleons and her head girl position was revoked.

She was also given detention with Slughorn for two months to scrub cauldrons after school, and a strike was placed on her personal record of illegal potion use.

Gilderoy was fined 50 Galleons since he was technically an accomplice and was required to work in the library every weekday after school until the year was over.

As for you and Remus... well...

you’re avoiding him.

It’s not that you don’t want to be around him—it’s that you don’t trust yourself not to break. Because you want him. You always have. But you need him to want you, not just as some desperate attempt to fix what was broken.

No feelings, you swore.

But you felt you both needed space.

So, naturally, Remus corners you.

He’s standing right in front of you, breathing hard like he chased you down. His hair is a mess, his tie loosened, his dress shirt slightly wrinkled—he looks unhinged in the best possible way.

Dare you say- It was your favorite side of Remus.

"Are you going to keep running away from me?" Remus panted, his hand next to your head on the wall behind you.

"I’m not running." You scoffed, sounding quite defensive.

"You turned the other way when you saw me just now." He deadpanned.

Damn, you were totally caught.

"Maybe I didn’t feel like talking." You crossed your arms. "That's bullshit, dove." Your stomach flips. Because this isn’t calm, collected Remus. This is determined, restless, I’m-done-holding-back Remus

"What do you want from me, Remus?" You asked softly.

"Everything." He admitted, still close to you.

"Don't say that unless you really mean it." Your fists clenched your sides.

"I mean it. I’ve always meant it. I was just too much of a coward to say it before." He pressed desperately.

"Then why now?"

"Because I lost you. And I never want to feel that again."

Your chest ached. He stepped even closer—so close you could count his freckles if you weren’t so busy trying to keep your heart from shattering open.

"I was gone, but you—you fought for me. Even when I didn’t know I needed you to. And the entire time I was with her, I still—I still looked for you." His voice was soft and raw.

"I'm not saying this because I feel guilty, I'm saying this because I have loved you since the second you stepped through the doors the first day." He insisted, and your breath stopped.

"You..."

"I love you, always have, always fucking will."

Your sturdy walls crumble the second he gazes into your eyes.

"I... I love you, too."

It's him, it's always been him.

One second you’re standing there, frozen, and the next your hands are in his hair, his arms are around your waist, and you’re kissing him.

A long awaited kiss- if you do say so yourself.

And it’s not slow. It’s not careful. It’s everything you’ve been holding back, months of tension and pining shattering all at once.

He groaned against your lips, his hands fisting in your sweater like he’s afraid you’ll disappear. But you won’t. Not now. Not ever.

Not on his watch.

Once the kiss broke, you stared up at him.

Did that really just happen?

"...Was that snogging?" You asked jokingly.

Remus laughed sweetly.

"Oh, Dove- you are so american."

THE END!!!

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Thank you all endlessly for all of the support on this series! It really means a lot to me and I am so glad you all enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it!

xoxo! -Calli

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ethereacals · 5 months ago

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hey doves SO here is how everything is going to work

chapter 8 will be out in the afternoon/evening of tomorrow (friday in my time)

chapter 9 (the epilogue and last chapter) will be published sunday!

sorry for the wait, i had a crazy week and im glad to be back 🫶

hugs and kisses!! xx

#calli’s so american

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ethereacals · 5 months ago

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I literally can't believe you followed me. Waking up to that notification was so nice

you are so sweet i love you endlessly 😭

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ethereacals · 5 months ago

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SO AMERICAN <3

CHAPTER 7: BAD IDEA, RIGHT?

synopsis: Remus grows attached to an american exchange student from Ilvermorny

pairings: remus lupin x american!reader

cw;, foul language

series masterlist

a/n: do you guys like the new banner???

"EMILIA DRUGGED REMUS WITH AMORTENTIA." James concluded, his hands landed firmly on your shoulders as you processed the information.

"W-What?"

"It's clear! He's been all over her instead of you!"

"Doesn't mean he's drugged." You sniffed.

"You don't have to believe me, but you will soon." James announced, leaping out of the broom closet and marching his way over to where ever he was going.

"James- James!" You chased after him, frantically clearing your tears.

"James, what if it’s too late? What if he actually—"

"No. No way. This isn’t Remus. This is some twisted potion-induced fantasy that Emilia cooked up. He would never—"

"But he thinks it’s real. That’s the problem." "Then we make him see reality." James insisted, as you ran down the hallways.

"We have to do something, but we can’t just barge in and scream ‘you’ve been drugged’ at him." You reasoned, already out of breath.

"Why not? Sounds efficient to me." James turned his gaze towards you. "Because that’s how people get hexed, James." You deadpanned. "Fine, fine. Who do we tell? Sirius?" "He’ll want to murder someone." "Yeah, I’m counting on it."

"James! You cannot murder someone! Last time I checked it was illegal." You scolded, and right before James was about to respond, you heard the most sickeningly familiar laugh.

Gilderoy Lockhart.

Exactly who you needed.

"There's our guy."

"James? James!" You were getting increasingly more confused.

"Oi! Lockhart." James yelled, catching the boys attention before slamming him up against the wall.

His posse scattered in a fearful blitz.

"What the-"

"What's your damage, Lockhart?" You spat, replacing James as you pinned him to the wall.

"I-I don't know what you're talking about-" Gilderoy writhed under you.

"You had sixth year potions last year, didn't you? You know how to brew Amortentia, don't you?" You accused, unbeknownst to you- James was incredibly impressed.

"I- Maybe-"

"A fucking maybe doesn't cut it! Yes or no?"

"Y-Yes! Yes I- I did! I do! W-What's this about?"

"Don't play dumb, dipshit. You helped Emilia Sallow drug Remus!" You nudged him farther into the wall, pressing your wand against his throat as he quivered.

"M-Yes! Yes- I did! S-She said that-that she would make one for me to-to drug y-you when sh-e finished this course!" He admitted.

"I knew it!" James cheered, and you released Gilderoy.

"Fuck off, Lockhart, and if you're smart- you'll never speak to me again." You threatened, as he scrambled to his feet and dashed away.

James clapped, as your adrenaline skyrocketed.

"That felt good."

"Good? That was bloody brilliant!" James smiled widely, grabbing your hand and tugging you away from the scene.

A plan was underway, a big one.

"WE NEED TO GET HIM ALONE, BUT Emilia is glued to his side." You eyed Remus and Emilia, as you and James sat together in the Great Hall. "He's even sitting with her." Sirius mentioned.

"I couldn't tell." You deadpanned, fists clenched.

"What's the plan?" Peter asked meekly.

"Just- waiting until Emilia cracks, we need to find an antidote though." James answered, though he sounded a bit uncertain of himself.

"You could ask someone who's knows a great deal about potions?" Lily suggested, and Sirius had an idea.

"You could talk to Reggie! He knows tons." Sirius urged, and James' head went into auto-pilot.

"R-Regulus? I'll go talk to him!" James got up- quicker than he should have according to the confused looks on his friends faces.

"I-I mean... I guess I'll go talk to him.." James sank back down in his seats.

"I'll go talk to Slughorn, but don't worry, I'm great at being discreet."

"PROFESSOR, DO YOU KNOW OF ANY antidotes for someone who is-hypothetically-under the influence of a love potion?" Slughorn turned to you, his brow furrowed.

"Hypothetically? What is this for, Ms. L/N?" He questioned.

"Well- We have that whole project on the subject. I felt it would be a good addition to my presentation." You smiled, and he nodded.

"Ah, of course. I do enjoy seeing my students so passionate about something I teach." He prided himself, as he led you to his desk.

"You would need Wiggentree bark, crushed bezoar and essence of dittany. Cures it like a charm, every time it's been tested." He smiled, turning back to you as you mentally noted what ingredients you were to be using.

"Perfect, thank you very much, Professor." You turned to leave, the second stage of your plan complete.

"REMUS... CAN WE talk?" You stuttered, you hadn't spoken to him since potions.

"You don’t have to check in on me, I’m fine. You should be worrying about James, not me."

Oh, for god's sake—enough with this ‘I’m fine’ shit! You’re about as fine as Peter is at lying!"

"I don’t have time for this."

"You always used to have time for me."

"Things change." Remus spat.

"No, they don’t. You change under a full moon. This? This isn’t you. And you know it." You urged him.

"I… I love Emilia."

"I never said anything about Emilia."

"I love her." He pushed.

"Do you? Or do you just think you do?"

"I—I don’t know! It’s like—I think about her, and it feels right, but then—then I see you and it—" He stopped himself abruptly.

"Then what?"

"Then it feels wrong."

"Then fight it! Before it’s too late."

Remus looked at you, his eyes full of something deep and pained—something real. But just as quickly as it appears, he shoved it down, his body tense.

"I need to go." His voice barely above a whisper.

Without another word, he turns and walks away, his posture rigid, leaving you standing there, fists clenched at your sides.

"We don’t have much time." You thought.

GRYFFINDOR WAS hosting a large party after their quidditch win against Hufflepuff, and most students 5th year and above were in attendance.

"Do you think their gonna show up?" James leaned over towards you, Sirius mirroring him on your other side.

"We can only hope?"

"Oh, speak of the devil." Lily muttered, as Emilia came strutting in with Remus as if he was on a leash.

The snake sauntered over to Gilderoy as they held a pleasant conversation, before James sauntered over to a large table in the center of the common room.

Sirius also took action, pulling Remus aside and into their dorm room as "shit was about to hit the fan" according to Marlene.

"Attention everyone!" James shouted, actively gaining attention from his peers.

"I just wanted to congratulate my mind-blowing team, on another win!" The Gryffindors erupted into applause and cheers, just as James shushed them once more.

"I just have one question-" He added, his loyal crowd waiting in suspence.

"Emilia, you look great tonight." He started, and her face lit with shock.

"O-oh? Really?" She batted her eyelashes.

"How long have you been drugging Remus Lupin?"

tune in next time on; so american

#marauders era #remus lupin #fem!reader #marauders #sirius black #fanfiction #james potter #remus lupin x reader #calli's so american

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so american

CHAPTER 6; PRETTY ISN'T PRETTY

synopsis: Remus grows attached to an American exchange student from Ilvermorny.

pairing: reader x remus lupin

cw: fake dating trope, reader finds herself slipping into the clutches of unhealthy beauty standards, r is mentioned to be a gryffindor

a/n: thank you all so much for the feedback!!

wc; 2.0k

so american masterlist

WALKING HAND IN HAND WITH JAMES felt odd.

You were so used to doing it with Remus, clutching his ice cold hands as you explored the castle together.

James’ hands were warm, not sweaty— but warm.

The hand pressing against the small of your back belonged to James, who was talking to his friends, while you caught the eye of Pandora, who was sitting across from you, sharing a look of discomfort.

Not that you didn’t trust James, you did.

It was just… different, having him in Remus’ place.

It felt like the Grand Canyon separated the both of you, even though you both swore on no feelings.

"You alright, love?" James squeezed your shoulder consolingly.

"Mhm, fine." You hummed, your attention completely focused on the un-touched meal in front of you.

"Are you going to eat anything?" He asked gingerly, tucking a stray hair behind your ear as you pretended he was someone else.

"I'm not very hungry." You responded, your eyes meeting his concerned ones.

James didn't want to push on this. He knew better than to nag you. He got most of his "boyfriend training" from Lily in their 4th year.

You hoped Remus was doing well, because all you could do was hope seeing as he wasn't anywhere to be found at the moment.

The full moon was coming up, the first one since you found out about Remus.

And you could just sense that he was going through it.

"Y/n? We need to get going to potions". James shook you out of your trance, as you gaze up at him, dazed.

"Oh, yeah." It seemed like a cruel joke, that after all you had gone through with Remus, you had to resort to doing whatever James asked of you. But you were tired, and you felt as if you couldn't continue. And you had no choice but to continue. After all, there was still a potions class to attend. So you let James help you up, and you made your way there, no complaints from your lips or your mind. You just went.

"Do you know if Remus will be in class, today?" You asked curiously.

"I don't know, hon." He cooed, taking your books from your arms as Regulus passed by.

"What was that for?" You questioned, before seeing Regulus pass. "Oh, I get it now."

"Do you think he saw?" James swooned.

"Hard to tell, but we can only hope?" You offered reassurance, and he smiled back at you.

"Oh- James, I had a question about something you wrote on the contract?"

Oh, yes. The contract.

James insisted you made one so that way it would look real from the outside.

For example; you had to sit together in classes, at meals, and walk to classes together if necessary.

Dates/Dinners were always on him and he would never plan anything or do anything to/with you without your approval.

Holding hands was a perk, kissing could only be initiated by you and it probably was never going to be anyway.

"What on earth does "No Shagging" mean?"

"Shagging is a slang word for sex." He explained casually.

You didn't respond to him quite yet, you needed to process.

"Did you... want to-"

"You call sex shagging?" You bit back your laughter. "Yes?"

"Jesus, and I thought American slang sounded unintelligent." You scoffed, leaving James terribly confused.

"Its- It's not unintelligent sounding!"

"Do you fancy a snog or a shag in my sleeping quarters?" You mocked, sporting your (incredibly fake) heavy British accent, giggling as you spoke.

"You are such a minx, you know that right?" James teased, as he laughed with you.

"I know." You smiled, James did have a way of cheering people up, even if he wasn't meaning too.

As you approached the door to the potions classroom, James squeezed your hand.

"Ready?

"Ready."

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN?" Remus held Peter's shirt collar tightly, as he pinned the smaller boy against the wall.

"N-Not long! I haven't known for more than a day!" Peter pleaded, but Remus wasn't having it.

"You expect me to believe that? He asked through clenched teeth.

"Remus I swear on merlin!" Peter begged once more, as Remus released him.

"Why the fuck is she dating him?" He questioned, pushing a tower of books over in his rage.

"I- I don't know." Peter whimpered.

"She had never shown any interest in him before.. so why now?" Remus let his head fall into his hands, as he sat on the edge of his bed.

"M-Maybe she had a change of heart?" Peter tried.

"I'm not asking you, you wanker!" Remus barked.

"S-Sorry-"

"No- I'm sorry that I'm yelling but I just- I don't understand where this came from!" He sighed dejectedly.

Remus needed to get to the bottom of this, and now.

"No time to dwell on it now, I'm meeting someone at the library to do a project for Defense Against The Dark Arts." Remus stood, and all but stormed out of the dormroom.

Remus refused to lose you, his lifeline, the only person he didn't despise.

Absolutely not.

“AMORTENIA IS THE MOST potent love potion known in the world.” Professor Slughorn explained, pacing back and forth in front of the board.

"It has a distinctive mother-of-pearl sheen, and steam that rises from it in intricate spirals. Amortentia is considered an incredibly dangerous potion, as giving it to a person will cause them to develop an obsessive infatuation with the person who made the potion."

"Can anyone tell me what it's main ingredients consist of?" He eyed the students who seemed to be paying attention, as your hand shot up.

"Y/N?"

"Ashwinder eggs, Rose thorns, Peppermint, Powdered moonstone, Pearl dust, and Rose petals." You answered proudly, as Remus stared at you and James from across the room- practically fuming.

You knew he wasn't actually angry, it was just the full-moon hormones that were making him this way.

And probably the fact that you both hadn't spoken in a couple of days.

Remus felt like he was drowning.

"Very good, Y/N! Twenty points to Gryffindor!" Slughorn beamed, before explaining the upcoming assignment to you all.

"So, everyone divide into pairs of two. You will be crafting your very own Amortentia and telling each other what it smells like to you."

"Remember, Amortentia smells different to anyone- as its scent takes form of what ever you find the most appealing and infatuating." Slughorn concluded, before dismissing you all to find your partners and to get started.

James paired with Sirius, so that left you to Remus.

Who you could tell was on the verge of boiling over.

"Good afternoon... Remus." You greeted awkwardly, as you collected the ingredients.

"Hi, Y/N." He muttered.

Remus was so clearly in pain, and you couldn't help but feel awful for him.

"Are you alright? You can go to Madame Pomfrey if you aren't feeling well-"

"I'm fine, Y/N." Remus spat harshly.

"I- okay... I'm sorry.." You jolted lightly, before collecting yourself and continuing on with the potion-making.

The first few minutes went well, yet it was nearly dead silent between you two.

"Seriously, are you alright? I know you said your fine but I know that things are happening soon and-"

"Godric, Y/N. I'm fucking fine, okay? Listen for once and stop asking, I'm not in the mood." He snapped, his hand clutching the table like a lifeline as he clutched his shoulder.

You felt incredibly useless as you stood there, tears bubbling up in your eyes as you watched yourself in a mirror hanging on the wall.

'God, Y/N. Stop being such a baby.'

'Remus is right, you need to listen.'

'You're always coddling him, you need to stop.'

'Is that really what I look like from the side?'

'No wonder he didn't want to kiss you.'

'No feelings? Like he would catch any-'

"Y/N!" You shot out of your trance and glanced over to the person beside you- who was not Remus.

Emilia Sallow, a slytherin prefect who's hand rested uncomfortably on your shoulder.

"Remus told me he had to go, so Slughorn asked me to fill in for him." She smiled sickly, although- It was actually a very kind smile, but it make you want to throw up.

"Oh, is he alright?" You asked melancholily.

"I think so, he told me that he's got a bad migraine and his shoulder is acting up." She shrugged, and you started to fully take in the girl beside you.

Long brown hair flowed briefly past her shoulders, her skin was an ethereal shade of olive that you swore belonged to a goddess.

She was beautiful.

Until you realized that she was wearing Remus' sweater.

"You're... wearing his sweater?" You furrowed your eyebrows, you had never heard of Remus talk about being friends with Emilia.

"Hm? Oh, yeah! So sweet of him, right?"

"Right."

You continued to work on your potion, but your mind kept drifting back to her.

Who the fuck was this girl?

As you finished the potion, Emilia turned back over to you.

"Who do you hope you smell?" She asked excitedly.

"Oh.. I don't know." You lied, obviously you wanted to smell Remus.

"I hope I smell Remus, but- of course I will." She waved her hand as if to say 'no big deal'.

"Why do you assume you'll smell him?"

"Cause he's my boyfriend." She stated simply, still smiling, yet her smile made you feel even more sick than before.

You could feel your heart shatter into a million little pieces.

"B-Boyfriend?" You double-checked.

"I know! I was shocked, but- he's just the best boyfriend, and I know we are soulmates!" She sighed dreamily, her tone proud.

"Good for you." You mustered, pressing your nails into your palm to refrain from sobbing right there.

"Thank you! He's just so sweet-" Her praises faded off into the distance as you mourned the loss of your heart.

Remus was your soul, your everything.

But clearly you weren't his.

As Slughorn inspected the potions and asked you what you could smell, you replied with nothing.

You couldn't smell anything in your potion.

You couldn't do this anymore.

When Slughorn dismissed the class, you were the first one out of there.

Unbeknownst to you, James trailed behind you.

"H-Hey! Y/N! Wait up-" His words got cut of by you pulling him into a broom closet.

"I-It's off, James. The deal is off." You sobbed out, wiping your tears with your sleeves.

"Why?" He asked, extremely concerned.

"Remus has a girlfriend." You explained sadly.

"He what?"

"He's got a-"

"No, I heard you- but- that's not possible."

"What do you mean?"

"Well- He was literally talking about you last night as if he was married to you!" James stressed, pacing back in forth.

"Who cares, James. He doesn't like me."

"Who is he with?" "Emilia Sallow." "Emilia? That's the Slytherin prefect." "She was wearing his sweater." "Remus doesn't give out his sweaters to anyone." "Well she had one." "The only girl he has ever talked about has been you." "What are you saying?" "Emilia was dating Gilderoy before they split up mutually." "And?"

"Gilderoy has a selfish crush on you." James explained.

"I know." You deadpanned.

"Gilderoy hates Remus." James leaned against the wall in a panic.

"So?"

"Emilia and Gilderoy were talking about Amortentia this morning."

"So?"

"Remus said he had been partnered with Emilia and Gilderoy for a DADA project and was dreading it."

"James what does this have to do with-"

"Sirius said Remus came back all tired and loopy, muttering about Emilia and shit and then he collapsed in his bed and went to sleep." The dots were beginning to connect.

"Emilia drugged Remus with Amortentia."

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