euthanizeher

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Hi! :-3 gone for so long but I'm back

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Heaven.

(came back to post this here & on IG. It's too important)

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Prime Swap

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Knowing yourself means not relying on external sources or people to tell you what you want to hear. It involves understanding that there is nothing inherently separate from you and any appearance you dream up. It means being undisturbed by seeming external happenings on a deeper level but knowing that you can react and act however you want to if you decide to engage in the game you are dreaming up. Knowing yourself involves refraining from asking limiting questions and realizing that you are directly experiencing every aspect of existence. Continuously seeking external validation or answers indicates a lack of recognition of one's true nature.

Are you not tired of waiting, seeking, and feeling confined by the limitations you have given yourself by thinking? It's a game and it's obvious. Any appearance is your experience and pure entertainment, no matter what seems to happen. That'll never change. Ever.

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i have noticed " " Many times by now and i understand that nothing is without " " Like nothing can exist without " " And that it is EVERYWHERE but i can't seem to understand that " " Is the only thing that exists, like I can't understand the oneness. How can i be the oneness? Like I believe that i already am this oneness but what do i do about these doubts? How long do i keep noticing, who's witnessing these doubts until they go away forever? I hope you understand what I'm trying to say?

Infinity is self revealing. As you sink more and more, deeper and deeper into your BEing/ISness, it'll eventually be as clear as a bright sunny day. Even right now you're just aware of such thoughts/doubts, but is there really a person who is doubting or thinking?

Look closely. Look deeper. It's all right HERE. THIS is IT. It's always been HERE, take a deep breath and just BE. YOU are the answer you seek. It's not in more words or more thoughts, it's silence. Be still and notice.

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Green Path

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You don't really transcend everything. You are either nothing or nothing appearing as something. When ure appearing you can always return to nothing nothing...

Now that uve seen urself, I feel like some of u still haven't tried dreaming up some appearance...try it!!! Some of the self inquiry should include being urself dreaming!!!!! Try it!!!!

Since you sound enthusiastic I had to post this ask haha😭 But for the sake of simplicity let me rephrase this;

Be Bold. Don't wait for some grand awakening or big revelation to experience whatever it is that you want, just notice how you've been doing exactly that all along and dream a beautiful dream for yourself.

Be bold. No ifs and buts. There will be no AHA moments in future, you won't wake up in future, it's all here right NOW.

(I hope I didn't twist what you meant anon, I'm really bad with comprehensions anyways. So forgive me if I did🥲🔫)

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Lazily stealing this from an anti because "all selfshippers" means ALL SELFSHIPPERS.

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"why would you think i'd ever leave you?" your f/o asks, their voice quiet and gentle as they sat with you. they reached out to take your hand in theirs, rubbing the back of your hand with their thumb. "i'm not going anywhere, you don't have to worry."

your f/o would do everything in their power to make sure you feel secure and supported as long as you're with them. it doesn't matter how they act normally — whether they're rough and closed off, or they're very affectionate, or anything in between, they love you and they hope you feel safe and comfortable with them. if you ever feel insecure or scared, they'll be right there to console you.

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Now let’s be clear for a sec:

Do you think your seeking will end ? Like do you ?

The mistakes I made was reading was too much and thinking I’ll find the answer while reading or I must read more to understand it and obtain more and more ! It became a habit , and I stopped it , stop thinking i have to read more to become “realized” like RW , Rupert or Ko and started relying on myself because that’s what it’s all about SELF

Stop this ! Don’t waste your time on searching when the answer is right here

Take a breath and realize you are THE ANSWER

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"how did you find out i didn't do it?" "i didn't, i just realized i already knew."

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this is your official permission to make your f/o completely obsessed with you, yandere for you, or otherwise absolutely down bad for you. you're welcome

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by Dawa 🎑 + translation

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decided to keep my old posts up since i think they're cute and there's some merit to them, also for nostalgia purposes.

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I listened to some explanations by Rupert Spira and suddenly a few things clicked completely into place.

He talked about Mary dreaming that she is Jean walking through Paris. The dreamworld is completely in Mary's consciousness, surroundings, characters, everything.

But to experience this dream from first person Mary more or less 'injects' her consiousness into Jean. Rupert calls Jean then 'localized consciousness' and the rest 'non-localized'. But it is is still all the same consciousness.

When Mary wakes this same consciousness localizes as Mary, and the 'real world' is again the same consciousness, but non-localized.

This gave me a handle that I needed to deal with the apparent seperation between my focus as a person and everything around me.

In another talk he mentioned that we learned it all backward. At least in the western worldview, everything we think and learn is based on the principle that matter is real. But there is no such thing as matter. There really isn't, and the stupid thing is that as someone trained in physics: I @#€& know this! What we call solid matter is only a lot of empty space surrounding a few quantum particles (=energy) that flash in and out of existence and are influenced by observation, i.e. consciousness. I've known this for years, heard countless other loa-ers etc. mention this and the true implications only hit me yesterday.

And with these 2 puzzle pieces it suddenly fell into place, I suddenly switched from seeing matter to seeing only consciousness. I was in the grocery store of all places and I must have walked around in a complete daze, just looking at everything and only seeing energy and consciousness, God if you will. Which was me.

It was like becoming lucid in a dream but much more stable. I still saw the same as everyone sees, it didn't start to shimmer or anything but it was like I suddenly realized that it was just a pattern, just energy/consciousness with a form and a name. I had the feeling if wanted I could just stick my arm through the wall even though it still looked as solid as ever. Didn't try it though, just like you don't fall through every floor in a dream I am very grateful that there is a system in place that keeps everything functioning as it does. We call it physics but I now also realize that this is also very much 'made up'. By our own consciousness. Without us even knowing we're doing it. Which makes us truly incredibly powerful and very, very intelligent.

Even though I still feel mostly the person I always was, function in the world the way I always did, I can now switch perspectives in the blink of an eye.

If this is enlightenment it is at the same time amazing and peaceful and incredibly liberating and on the other hand the most normal thing in the world. More like a 'duh'- feeling, like how could I ever have believed/seen otherwise. No fanfares, more like finding something wonderful in your attic again that was always there but that you had completely forgotten about.

And I also know that this is just another step on the journey, there is much more to come.

If anyone is interested, these were the talks I listened to:

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(this post was SOOO long initially and i deleted it all, because no matter how much i spoke it just wasn't enough for me. LOL.)

thanks to all the friends i've made. i may not have been as popular as some other blogs on here, but i still loved our wonderful community.

i love you all. see ya, and go within!

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"Ego"

This is the very last time we're saying the ego is not real. Ego-related asks are increasing and I have no idea why.

What's an "Ego"? -> collection of thoughts. -> what are thoughts made of? Nothing -> thoughts come and go -> impermanent -> do not exist -> meaningless & not real. Thoughts can be dropped instantly. They have no power over anyone. You just notice them.

The way the majority of you is talking about an "ego" it seems to me as if you WANT & CHOOSE it to be "real" in your own finite world. You can do that but what are you trying to achieve? "Change an ego"? How can that happen if it is nothing?

Why are you obsessed with making things hard and complicated? Why can't it be simple and easy? Do you want & choose to go in circles for decades? Do you want & choose to fight the made up Thing you call an "ego" forever?

If you want to do all that, do it. I couldn't care less. You can do whatever you want. No one is stopping you. I certainly am not going to stop you, your Will is your Will.

Some of you love feeling sorry for yourself, making up one reason after another why something is not working. Be honest to yourself, don't you see it?

Chen