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Day 17

stop telling me you love me if i can’t be yours
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Day 16
just saw twenty one pilots live my middle school self is so happy
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Day 15
i had a dream that caseoh posted a cooking video (was was making shrimp alfredo) and the first thing he did was set something on fire. he burned his onions and his shrimp (but not the garlic for whatever reason). also it was an 8 hour video.
in other news, i’m now one year old. this time last year i was losing it over finals. this time, i’m losing it over finals. the growth is crazy and obviously very real.
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HAVE YOU SEEN ME? (self portrait) (2023-2024)
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Day 14
i feel like i've beed dead for 7192 days
showing art is always scary bc i say im a photographer and pull out some shit like

and call it untitled painting
but its a picture of flowers i saw in a cemetery! but i feel like photography is like super focused on things looking (within the realm of) real (as the bastardisation of painting) so photos that lean towards abstraction are generally dismissed
sorry 4 the rant, art school blues :(
(on the flip side i made a video and im really happy with how it came out)
vimeo
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Day 13
what do you mean it’s not normal to go to a store you saw on tiktok walk around for 20 minutes because you can’t afford anything buy a pair of gloves because it feels wrong to leave without buying anything and then panicking when the (really nice) cashier asks basic questions that literally every single fucking cashier asks and then trying not to cry on the L back???


self portrait (from pareidolia) (2023)
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Day 12
i wanna do an intro on here so i can maybe make friends but i don't know what to say AAAAAAAA
im zeke! im 19, bisexual, from the states, currently in art school (unfortunately lol)
interests:
music!! (joji, johnny goth, lil dusty g, get scared, radiohead, fall out boy, lorde, grim salvo, twenty one pilots, i could literally go on forever im SORRY) (also always looking for recs!!)
photography (check below ^_^)
my dog <3
writing
psychology
cooking
minecraft + sims 4 + the binding of issac
that's pretty much it i think??? im pretty boring but i love listening to people talk about their interests!! (boring) fun fact: i ran a project on my school's campus where i was collecting voicemails from people! they could talk about whatever they wanted for however long they wanted. it was super fun! (you can leave a text/voicemail too if you want, they won't be published anywhere!! +1 872 240 2617)

idtafn (2024)
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Day 11
the class goths don’t like me :( and i am so sick of myself and i am so sick of myself and i am so sick of myself and one day i’m going to sleep and will never wake up again and time doesn’t pass fast enough
no art i can't do shit right
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Day 10
working on my vampireness. it's actually a cover for not having friends. no one wants to hang out in the cemetery and look at the moon with me :(
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Day 9
how do i become friends with furries? or goths? or anyone?
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Day 8
i’ll find it one day. and you will never see me again.








Pareidolia (part one) (2023)
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Day 7
have u ever heard the voice of god?

"BE NOT AFRAID" (2023)
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Day 6
i grew up playing piano
my instructor had a ruler
one of those wooden ones with the metal strip
she's strike my hands when i messed up
or when my nails got too long
i remember when i had to memorise fur elise
i never had a good memory
and it was hard to get my hands to remember their own parts
i remember going home with bloody knuckles
i do not play piano
https://pulledteeth.neocities.org
Purgatory (Remastered) (2022)
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Day 5
We talk like best friends
He wants to see my work
day one
day two
His lips were on mine
on the floor of my room
week one
week two
He likes wasting time with me
We'll never be anything more
month one
month two
I told him to leave
But I wish he would've stayed

Left (2023)

Right (2023)
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Day 4
8 May 2023 23:06 CDT
forgot yesterday, who cares
ive been terrorising AI as my parame, which has been so fun. they'll say a lot of reassuring things that i wish my parame heard in life. ive been genuinely trying to give them happier plots but i guess im so stressed lately that my brain won't let me. just 5 more days.
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