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Psychosis feels like the line between your thoughts and experiences is thin, or nonexistent. You can't tell if it actually happened, or is happening, or if it's a delusion again.

Psychosis feels like not being able to trust if you're experiencing something "real"- even if it tangibly is by nonpsychotics.

Psychosis feels like something is "off" constantly- maybe in the air, maybe intrinsically within you -that other people don't notice.

Psychosis feels like everyone else has their shit together but you- and they're refusing to tell you how.

Psychosis feels like the entire way you view yourself is distorted. It feels like being disjointed, out of proportion, discoloured. Like a fever dream you can't understand.

-> Of course, this is based on our own experiences. Other people may not feel the same.

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It needs to be more taboo for people to use traditional marxist symbolism, especially the kinds of symbols associated with the USSR.

The kinds of human rights abuses that mainstream Marxism engaged in are horrific, and not worthy of glorification.

The outright denial of Marxist atrocities common on the far left is shocking and astounding.

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Russia started a war that’s killed over a million people. Russian diplomats aren’t murdered. China runs concentration camps. Chinese diplomats aren’t targeted. Iran funds terrorism across the globe. Iranian diplomats aren’t gunned down. Turkey bombs civilians and jails dissidents. Turkish diplomats aren’t hunted. Sudan is collapsing in genocide and famine. Sudanese diplomats aren’t executed. Pakistan harbors terrorists and persecutes minorities. Pakistani diplomats aren’t ambushed. Syria used chemical weapons on its own people. Syrian diplomats aren’t shot outside museums. North Korea starves its citizens and threatens nuclear war. North Korean diplomats aren’t attacked. The list is endless. But out of all these countries, only Israel provokes such obsessive hatred that someone would throw away their entire life just to murder two innocent Israelis in their 20s. Today is a terribly sad day. May their memories be a blessing.

Yehuda Teitelbaum

@chalavyishmael

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I'm forgetting and forgetting. What can I do if I can barely keep track of time, even forgetting about my hobbies? Nothing holds any weight and no consequences have reached me but I don't know what to think. There is no script of what to say, just a weird reality where the time has left me. Is anything even real anymore?

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stop calling Ireland a white supremacist ethnostate when trying to convince people that Israel isn't challenge

And for that matter, can we also cool it with deriding India as an evil conservative colonial project oppressing the poor innocent settler-colonists? The rise in Hinduphobia as well as hibernophobia is stark and obvious and part of a global pattern of denigrating indigenous people and tearing down their attempts to secure autonomy in their homeland as evil colonizers colonizing the poor innocent extremist islamists*.

Can we just stop pitting indigenous cultures against each other to begin with? It's not a sport. This isn't a contest. Nobody is going to give you a medal for Most Potential Allies Chased Off With Phobic Rhetoric Against Their Group Specifically. We won't get more respect for Jewish indigeneity by denying the indigeneity of other indigenous groups.

I know people are mad, but we absolutely must make sure we don't fall into the exact same traps antisemites keep falling into when bleating about zionism.

Indigenous rights means indigenous rights for all indigenous people, not just the ones you're not mad at right now.

*islamist =/= muslim any more than christofascist = christian.

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Fear

Makes hallucinations more

Wow

Brain is making so much to see

All because fear helps them grow

The real world disappears

Behind the colorful magic land stored in my eyes

My vision is almost completely taken over

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Delusions.

I struggle with admitting I have them.

But I remember the times

Where I was running terrified

From the Fbi

Obviously hunting me down after a fire alarm went off

And I know somewhere in me that I do have them.

Or believing my food is poisoned

To the point of not eating

A fear

That doesn't exist

Without delusion

Some of the many examples

It's so hard to accept these things, I don't want them. But I should tell therapist. I always lie to them, and deny it so strongly.

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you have to be able to defend people who are receiving unjust treatment even if they annoy you even if you personally find them extremely annoying you still have to be able to stand up and say "well thats fucked up"

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I have seen more vitriolic antisemitism from left wingers than anywhere else. It gets worse every day. I don’t understand. I don’t understand.

Do you agree??? Is that what I’m supposed to take away from this???

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Much needed reminder that terms like zio and zog are terms mainly used by white supremists and neo nazis against all jews, including antizionist jews. Yes even the most "burn Israel to the ground" antizionist jew is considered a zio or zogbot, specifically a crypto (secret) one.

They don't suddenly stop being antisemitic slurs and become woke leftist terms just because you, a leftist, use them. You just become more of a white supremist, a neo nazi and antisemite.

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I long for a simpler time.

I long for my teen years, in which is spent all my time depressed.

Maybe a do-over, if anything.

Adult me still struggles with mental health but the feeling is so much deeper, so much more than when I was a teen and I just don't know.

Adults have bills to pay, obligations and jobs they can't really take time from while every piece feels like it's crumbling apart .

My brain is being distorted and I feel all my emotions while also feeling none.

I know it'll be that much harder to put my life together later but I can't bring myself to care about the responsibilities I'm dropping and the consequences of giving up on finishing so many things.

Maybe I need more time in a hospital again, despite just leaving one yesterday. I don't feel human yet, and can't get past the fogginess and exhaustion into completing daily living skills and coping

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Having consistent morals that I apply to everyone in this day and age feels like I’m going insane.

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“Why won’t you call it a genocide” this is why. This exact scenario is the reason I’ve been arguing against that term for over a year. For all the postulating about Genocide Joe, he ended up brokering a solid ceasefire deal between the two most bitter rivals in the most unstable region in the world.

One month later, and it’s the official policy of the United States government to cleanse every single Palestinian from the Gaza Strip. That’s actual, real, genuine intent to destroy a population of human beings based on the way they were born. But after 15 months of genocide accusations against every Israeli, Jew, and US politician on the planet fucking Earth, the word has lost its meaning.

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if you like rhythm games then you should play osu if you don't like rhythm games you should also play osu

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ao3 turns 15 today

reblog if youre older than ao3

(there's a lot of people asking about this, but the legal age to use social media is 13, except in few countries. so yes, there are people here under 15)