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Literally my dream body, someone get me to there

I think I got bigger

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This little guy has been shrinking

Maybe it needs some help to continue going back up...

(in other words I unintentionally lost some weight, I'm not sure how I'm feeling about it)

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Could this be the Freshman Fifteen?

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Such a dream scenario

POV: your boyfriend had always been super skinny and bony when you met. You feed him and he gets quite fat after some months of dating (not true, I just like to eat hahaha)

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How's my S shape going???

Did I say these jeans were once loose on me??

I mean damn, they make those waistbands for little tiny twinks man!!! I like to eat!!! Does that means all my jeans must end up looking like that on me? I say no! It has just been added a few inches to my waistline, they must be made to endure more!!!

Man!! Just look this

That's crazyyy

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I think I'm starting to get a sense of what "filling out your clothes" means

God, just look how wider my frame looks. The before pics were from the beginning of last month (July), it hasn't even been that much

I don't even know what I'm eating to be getting that weight

I have just been more carefree with my diet, yk, if I want something, I eat it. But that ain't a reason for that amount of weight so fast. It has just been a few more things to eat here and there.

I don't think I will, but imagine I kept that kind of pace, I'd balloon to the overweight category before the year ends. But my ass has got a fair amount of that new weight, which drives me crazy.

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I think my biggest fantasy with this kink is imagining this; having a cute twink/jock bf who would slowly but surely fatten me. He'd make sure I always have my necessary meals, and a bit more, some snacks, and a bit more, some desserts, and a bit more. And as I get bigger, the difference, the contrast in size between me and him would just grow bigger, while he stays lean and fit, I would increasingly get fat all around, fat which he would admire every new inch of it and that he personally was sure would be there. He would love my plumpier ass, my softened pecs, my rounded belly and my thick thighs. And to be honest, I probably wouldn't care much how big he wanted to be, probably even to sizes rn I don't even consider at all. I'd be his fatboy and I would love every part of it.

A shame that it's really just a fantasy.

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More like a dream shape

What do you think of my S shape?

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Same abs, different shape

Abs without protection ❌ // Abs with several layers of protection ✅

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The way he continues to shove down food into his jock body

I ate so much, damn I couldn’t take it anymore… but f*ck, I love it.

Love feeling full. Love knowing you’re watching.

The full video is up now — raw, messy, and unfiltered.

💥 Watch it on Patreon 💥

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Fuckkk, I'm becoming obsessed with comparing myself with pics of me in the past, I know it's not much, and that I'm not really big and that under no condition I would be considered fat or something, but mate the first photos are from just two months ago, the other photos are from today

Jesus, am I starting to get love handles???

At least some weight has gone to my ass, I absolutely love that.

Well, yeah I have had better times with these jeans. They're getting tight!!!!

I suppose that's what happens when you stop caring what comes to my mouth. I started to adopt the philosophy of; I want it, I get it (or well, in this case eat it).

The results are very clear.

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Okay, this is going to be a long one, a fucking really long one.

I don't know why I'm doing this, I really might delete later, or not at all, idk, the thing is, I've felt this coming for fucking months, and I think there's no denying now. I'm may be overly dramatic, it really isn't that much. Or so I say, each and every time.

I don't have what you'd call a "journey", as many people in these place say for the lapse of time of them putting fat on themselves. I've never really consider I was getting any fat, a few years back I was really underweight, like stick skin.

This was when I was at my skinniest, ever.

So, being this thing, even if I went up some pounds, it really just was healthy weight. But since for more time than I'd like to admit or remember, I'll get the itch, "the gaining bug bitting hard" as some say here, and for a month or so, I would eat more, exercise less, etc. And I'd put some weight, usually around 10lbs, but after the itch went away and I'll go back to "normal", most time just half of the weight will go, so I'd have 5lbs more on me compare to before the itch came, and then I would stay around a weight range for some months, always around a range of 5lbs, where I wouldn't go any lower or higher than that range. But around 6 months later, the itch would come again and the story repeats, and I'd end up with 5lbs, and repeat. So I suppose you can see how I would slowly put up some weight. But as I said, I would always just say that it is healthy weight that I was so skinny, so even a few pounds didn't matter, it's not like I'll look fat or something.

Ofc, needless to say, in all these I would constantly jerk off to something related to this kink, seeing man after gorging themselves into being overweight or obese, as I have done for more time than I can remember exactly. I started before I even knew what in the actual fuck I was doing, so I would literally (kinda) jerk off to dudes getting their asses fatter, and not know I was into guys, that little I knew what I was doing. So basically this kink has raised my sexuality (some might say ruined it), like 90% of my orgasms is because of something related to this kink (mostly browsing in gainer cornera of the internet like here in Tumblr).

So yeah, I would be months in the same weight range, sometimes starving myself a little (I did this cyclically, I'd come and go), eating normally, or a little bit more.

But as time would pass I'd grow ever so more in trouble with this part of me, that was always there and never would go, so one day it hit me, I was an addict, this was my addiction. So what does addicts do? Abstinence. And so I try it, for a few months, I was kinda really good while it lasted, my record was 46 days or so free, but at last abstinence showed itself as a failure, since shortly after my longest strike I fall back deep again, really deep, and now even posted a little of me here on Tumblr (in accounts that now are deleted).

This is how I looked just before starting all that in that time, which was a little over a year ago.

I started eating (intentionally) more. I gained some weight (repeating that cycle I talked earlier, but now posting it here on Tumblr) in the lapse of like a month, and I would be a huge liar if I said I didn't fucking love it. I did, every part of it, the attention I was getting, the messages, feeling for the first time attractive to a lot of people and a lot of things, oh, and I was horny ALL the time, it was like fucking being high, but one day a few days before my birthday, it all felt to real, because of that same reason, and in a moment of clarity I step back, erase the blog and everything, and just continue as an anonymous silent observer/admirer , as I have always been.

Fast forward six months (kinda religiously repeating the cycle, even if it wasn't entirely a conscious decision), between a really hard time mentally, being so occupied with college that I couldn't be distracted with many all-day destructive thoughts, I came back to what I remember being something that felt good, even in these awkward place with just strangers on the internet, so I did it all again, creat another blog, post, gaining a bit for a month. And this time it was even MORE wholesome, I fucking enjoying it and love it, I got even more people to see me, more likes, messages, I kinda even talked regularly (and eagerly) to 2-3 people, hell, even a generous man donated some (good amount of) money to the cause, asking nothing in return, which was absolutely mimd blowing to me then, I was completely shocked that so early on there were people like that. But well, you get the idea, I love it. And not only the interactions and all that but it would also be a huge lie if I say I didn't like the way the extra weight settle, and how it felt and looked. But again, with a significant date on the calendar, now Christmas, everything started to feel all to real, I again step I deleted everything. But as the other times, some of the weight stick around. And the weight range of what was now "normal" for me, yet again move up around 5lbs.

I went back to just being a silent observer/admirer. And so it was until this year, in which I found myself in a similar situation as the last time the itch went (this was around 3 months ago); in a horrible mental place, with a heavy load from college in the next few weeks, and another six months were about to be passed since the last time the itch came hard, so I was thinking that in itself was a foreshadowing of what was to come. But I became undecided, not letting myself go deep, started posted, eating more and more in an intentional way, and all that, but I didn't want to just continue as I was since I felt I needed it, but not wanting to go either way for different reasons, I just stay in a kind of middle point, so I decided that I might be more carefree in my eating, getting things I normally wouldn't, eating a bit more here and there when I felt like it, little things, nothing huge, nothing to commit to, just to be like that and see if the weight came (and in the start of that was that I created this account/blog, so if I actually gain a bit, to starting posting here), but for like two months it really didn't. Sometime it felt like it was, and in all this time I was like "I most post again" and so, which would mean going back as I was, but the weight didn't seem to stick, by then I was out of the immediate need I felt to go back to this, but I didn't want to just delete this account, and go back as I was, since I felt I was going to fall again, or that maybe, maybe... I wanted to fall, so my eating continue to be in that carefree manner, since I was to actually think that I wouldn't be physically capable of getting any fatter than the top range weight I had been for the last 6 months or so, so I continue, but this last month, and month and a half I think that that weight which I was hoping (a kinda looking forward to) on packing, has started to settle, and I can see it, and feel it, there's no denying it.

And I don't know how to feel about it. Again, I would be a huge liar if I say I didn't like it, that I don't like how it feels, looks, etc. But even though, there's something, some might say the internalized fatphobia or whatever, and maybe, but I feel is just something more, something more fundamental that made me step back the last two times. I mean idk, many people here kinda lose something when they indulge in gaining, before they'd get any girls or guys (or both) which they wanted, or simply a lot of them, and that changes as they grow fatter. Me? I'm not losing anything, no one finds me attractive irl, aside from some brief drunk moments in a few parties in which I got to make out (just some kisses) with a person here and there (always separated for months each of them), so I wouldn't lose anything on that side, because simply there never was to begin with. But still, I get to ask myself if I don't want to get skinnier again, but unlike most people here that day that they could go to the gym and lose it, I don't say that, I have never place a foot on a gym in my life (it shows), I would starve myself, as I have very well done before. But also, I know that the reason I have continuously gained weight throughout the last few years (even if really slowly) is because of these kink, because even if I start to starve myself for a while, it never lasts enough time, and from being an underweight 115lbs little twink to a 155lbs (thicker) healthy twink(???), which putting that into words makes it sink in of how absolutely crazy that is.

And also, noticing how in this last few months I've been putting some weight has make a common occurrence to wake up in the morning being hard of thinking of me getting fatter, and imagining situations and so on. Thinking back to those days when I posted and gained and whatever. I think the moment when I accepted that I absolutely may have a little extra chub in me was when my dad literally told me that I was starting to get a belly and that my cheeks were filling out. And yeah, the increasing tightness on my jeans say so, which I can't shrug off of it being "a little extra healthy weight" or a bloat, which btw, ik it is cliche but I had been actually kinda wanting to believe that this little (little) belly I'm getting is just that, a bloat, but yeah, I'm getting it's not that. Also a big moment was a few days ago, when trying out if I actually was fatter, I put on this swimsuit which I have tried as a way to kind of track my body fat, since even when I was way skinnier, it was tight, I could wear it normally, but there were tighr, but as the weight slowly came I went form being tight, to being complete unable to stay buttoned, and then unable to button at all, to then not being able to go anywhere up my mid-ass, which was how I remember it being, and it was what I was expecting, but now I just could get it midway through my thighs, not an inche higher. So yeah, I completely outgrew that, which is wild to think of, that I actually did it, even if they were tighr to begin with, I could wear them.

So idk wtf to do, idk wtf I want, idk why the fuck I make this fucking biblically large rant of me and this kink of mine. I'm so confused. I just know why I put it out in this place, and that's because I feel like these is the only place I can actually put out, fuck, I can't even write of this in my diary, when I write about it in there, I always use a codename and talked really vaguely about it. But I can write it here, when only other people that have this kink like me can read it, and maybe kind of understand it.

And now, ofc, the comparison pics, from my absolute thinnest to today.

I don't think I must tell you which are the before and which are the after.

And this is me trying to suck in this jeans.

It's crazy to think those were so loose on me once, and now they're ripped in the ass area since that thing has been growing (which I have been noticing in and LOVING IT, probably the thing I have liked the most of this new weight I put on).

And yes, the jeans are of small waist (29'), and yes, I was a little bloated since I ate a few hours ago a meal before that pic, but still, you and I know the difference wouldn't have been so big, and STILL just because a meal and a now small pair of jeans make me look LIKE THAT it's wilddd. And I swear I don't like that on most clothes, it's just those twinkie size jeans.

Seriously, then with all these you may be asking way I'm typing all this, well, it's because, since the itch came back a few months ago, I say to myself I would try those jeans on and see how I looked, and if I looked ridiculous, I would be back, and well, I finally put them on, after actually noticing I was putting on weight, and that's how I looked, and here in posting all this. But ever so, I felt like doing this, it was on the back of my mind all this time. That I should come here an post again and see then what to do next. So I suppose the occasion finally came. So that's why I'm putting out there, because as I said before, I don't feel like there's any other place where I can put out this, even as disorganized, messy and non-sensical as it is. Here it is.

Well, that was a lot... and everything, I guess, in my rambling I probably miss something but whatever, this is long enough.

Idk what I'm going to do, if I'm gonna put more weight intentionally, if I will step back, starve myself, continue to just be carefree and see what happens, post more here, but I already put this out, and the last time I did such a thing, well, I had an effect on my waistline, that much I can tell you.

Now if omeone actually made it to here, OMG thank you, idk what make you have so much interest on a stranger story but it means a lot. If I haven't delete this, feel completely free to DM me saying anything. Now, a little reward for reading it all...

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Literally when gaining fantasies materialize in the real world

The hottest thing just happened to me.

Il met with a friend of mine for the first time after about a year or so. When I was out of the country, he started college and got in a really serious relationship and we were really excited to catch up.

His name’s Mayor. He was always this thin pretty boy with a baby face, keeping a cute Australian mustache. I was never attracted to him because he’s not my type but I dod think he was sexy and that he has a nice body.

Then, at first when I saw him tonight, I thought he looked different, maybe a bit softer? but I let it go cause I wasn’t sure and i figured it’d just been a long time and that i was just imagining.

But then, when we sat down for a smoke, I caught him patting his belly repeatedly, and I noticed a cute round and soft paunch filling his hand with every pat. It was perfectly round and bloated, and I could tell it was super soft.

I was really turned on and curious as to seeing more of his gains but had to make myself hide it so he doesn’t catch me staring. He kept casually drumming on himself and I was literally fighting myself from grabbing a handful.

And then, the unbelievable happened - he started pinching a nice looking roll from his lower paunch, examining his new softness. I was shocked, and I couldn’t stop looking. I couldn’t tell if he was seeing this for the first time or kinda having fun playing with it. Thinking about both options made me even harder.

I couldn’t help myself but to secretly grab some pictures so I’d have another look at home. He’s staring right at me doing it on the third one (maybe he actually likes it?).

During the rest of the night I made sure his cup of sugary juice was full and that he can reach the watermelon slices. We were smoking weed and he was constantly munching.

Then when I left i knew it was my chance to feel it for myself, so i gave him a tight hug, and managed to get a tiny squeeze to his softening waist - what a dream. I hope he didn’t feel my bulge 😅

When I got home I couldn’t help myself and texted it was good saying him and that we should for a smoke at the beach next time. He immediately replied he’s in.

I also found out his doing this Man Do Pilates think and was tagged in this hot video of his swelling ass (first guy)

To be continued…

- G

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You gotta love when a cute twink starts to get fond of eating. They just start eating, and as no one ever tells them when to stop, they simply don't, indefinitely. Such are the results, bravo!!! 👏👏👏

been slacking off the gym recently and might of gained a little weight. it’s not too noticeable, right?😅

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🍔 bulk drive 🍰

1 like = 10 calories

1 comment = 25 calories (preferably teasing comments 😉)

1 reblog = 50 calories

1 new follow (follower count 2326 at start) = 100 calories *from suggestion*

Every 100 reblogs is an additional large Big Mac meal

Whatever this post gets by the end of Sunday August 3rd, I’ll do a full day of stuffing, snacking and chugging to reach that calorie goal

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A dream

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It's drives me crazy when I found another jock/twink who eagerly threw away his good physique as soon as they turn 18 to finally follow their dream of gluttony, lust and greediness. It reminds me I could easily follow their steps ...

Hey, I am 18, looking for a feeder and ready to be encouraged !