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This is long, and I'm sorry.

I am suffering from serious heartbreak right now. My LDR just up and ghosted me. The last thing he said to me was "I love you" on a video chat, and then the next day, nothing. I was blocked everywhere. All my attempts to contact, nothing. He had his roommate block me too.

He had just visited me and left his old phone (he got a new one) so I opened it and I saw in his messenger he talked to a friend about breaking up with me because he couldn't handle school and a relationship at the same time. That's the only thing I have to go on.

I know it shouldn't hurt as much as it does, but it really really hurts. I have been a mess for a week, barely eating, barely functioning. I have BPD so it affected me really badly.

I'm sorry to post this here. I just, am so hurt. I never imagined he would do this to me. It's my own fault because he did it before in April when we first started talking, but when we got together in October he swore to me he wouldn't do it again and would talk to me if there were any issues. I believed him. He left a really big void in my life because we were actively making plans for him to move up here, and we talked every day. And I had tickets to visit him again in Feb and that's not happening now.

I just need a hug.

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Not me not playing Obey Me for like, 6 months and then coming back full force because it's my husband's Birthday Event. 😂

No matter how busy I get or how crazy life gets (or even finding myself a brand new real romance 😊) I still love my otome husband. ❤️

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Confession: I've been away so long I don't even know where I'd start if I came back. 😭

Did everyone enjoy my stories about Kana and Solomon? I wouldn't mind writing some more about their lives together. Or did you prefer headcannons and other silly things? Are we moved onto other Fandoms now?

My life has been super hectic the last few months. I've moved. I've lost and gained new love. I've been raising my 10 year old daughter. I've been creating, but not as frequently as I would like because I have an entire 7 bedroom house and 5 people now to take care of. 😭 (That will be changing within the year as I plan on moving AGAIN but right now I have to work with what I've got.)

Let me know if you'd like to see me back, writing OM stuff (tbh I haven't touched the game in months, but it's still on my phone) or anything else you'd like to see. Miss you all.

Thank you for supporting me throughout everything as well! ❤️

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Hi friends and followers.

It's very, very embarrassing for me to do this, but I am in need of some help. (I hate asking for help 😭) I don't really want to post all the details, but I'm really in a financial bind, and if anyone is willing to donate a few $ to help me out I would greatly, greatly, immensely appreciate it. Absolutely NOT nessecary, but I'm reaching out to my platforms because I just ... need help.

I know I've been absent from Tumblr for a while and I haven't written anything new, but I have been extremely busy and going through a lot of rough stuff these past few months. I know its going to get better, I just need to hang in there. I miss all of you, and I hope all my friends and followers are well. I love you. ❤️

Here's my information:

Cashapp and Venmo - madigansmama

PayPal - paypal.me/CoriLightcap

Thank you with all my heart if you are able to help. And if not, that's totally understandable. I just had to pluck up my nerve to ask.

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Solomon would NEVER put me through the BS I go through with real men.

That's all I'm gonna say. 😂

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A reminder to everyone I'm still in love with this man. 😍😍😍

Also hello, yes I'm alive! Life is still busy but I figure it'll be winding down in the fall. I sure hope it does, I miss OM (I've barely touched it in the last couple months), Kana, my husband, my Tumblr moots and writing. I'm doing my best! 😊❤️

And hello to my new followers I've acquired! Thank you so much! ❤️❤️

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Friendly reminder that this blog is pro-choice and if you don’t think everyone should have full control of their own body, then kindly unfollow me right now and go to hell

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Hi everyone! I'm alive!

We moved to our new house on the 17th, and our internet is a little spotty.

I still have to unpack and set everything up, but everything is going good! I'm hoping over the summer I can get caught up on OM things and start writing again. ❤️

I love and miss you all! 😊

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Woah, I hit 600 followers and I haven't written anything in a month and a half! If not longer. 🤔

I'll definitely be back though! I promise. My move is set for June 16th. So hopefully over the summer I'll be able to catch up in the game, have some lovely headcannons and stories for you, and continue Kana and Solomon's adventures together. ❤️

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My husband is getting a song!!! 🥰❤️

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Hi everyone!

I'm so sorry for my absence. I've missed you all so much. There has just been so SO much going on and Tumblr and OM have been on the back burner.

But I miss you all, and I miss Kana and Solomon and the rest of the boys and writing and even the game (I'm pretty behind, I haven't even had time to open it in days. 😭)

I'm going to try and be more present as time goes on and things settle down.

*Hugs*

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Hi everyone!

I've been going through a LOT of stuff with my mental health and personal life ... I've totally neglected so much and I'm so behind on everything.

I'm starting to feel a tiny bit better, so I'm slowly trying to catch up on everything I have to do and been meaning to do.

It might be a little bit before any new content, but I miss writing and definitely want to get back into it. I'll make a longer post a little later with a full life update.

Love you all! ❤️

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I was going to wait until I posted my newest HC and short story featuring Kana, but who knows when that will actually happen because my schedule has been absolutely crazy, but Kana got a haircut! As I did a few weeks back. 😂

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weirdly specific and unrelated asks to know someone well:

chipotle order?

thoughts on veganism?

a specific color that gives you the ick?

mythical creature you think/believe is real?

favorite form of potato?

do you use a watch?

what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?

do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)?

on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice?

anything from your childhood you’ve held on to?

brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare that you trust 100%?

first thing you’re doing in the purge?

do you think you’re dehydrated?

rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

an anxious compulsion you do everyday?

your boba/tea order?

the veggie you dislike the most?

favorite disney princess movie?

a number that weirds you out?

do you have an emotional support water bottle?

do you wear jewelry?

which do you find yourself using, american or british english?

would you say you have good taste in music?

how’s your spice tolerance?

what’s your favorite or go-to outfit?

last meal on earth?

preferred pasta noodle?

ask me anything !

leave an ask for the person you reblog it from!

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I got my husband! So I'm happy. 😊❤️

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I'm alive, I promise. 😂

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My Genshin Characters - so far. 😊

My faves are Xiangling and Kaeya, and the Traveler. But I REALLY wanted Ayato and I got him tonight. ❤️