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I've been having so many witchy feels lately. Its definitely connected with the time of year, autumn, as well as Samhain being our new year. I can't stop playing Damh the Bard and Loreena Mckennitt on repeat.

I am returning to my true nature after years and years of trauma. Not so much discovering as remembering my true self and my true power. I was blind to it for so long. I am rediscovering my celestial mother. Kali Ma was loving enough to adopt me and keep me safe so that I could return to myself and to Ceridwen when I felt safe enough.

As a writer and aspiring singer and songwriter, and even as a painter, I have always experienced Awen. Ceridwen always shared it so freely with me. I am so obviously her child. I'm even healing my relationship with the God, in the guise of Cernunnos, the Horned God. And thus, I am also healing my relationship with masculine energy; my own and that of others. I'm relearning how not to be toxic, and to not accept it as a "masculine thing" to be toxic by default. Masc energy is kindness, strength used to protect, not harm.

But , let me get back to Ceridwen. I hear her speaking to me every day, endless stream of consciousness. I must dedicate myself, she says, you are wasting your power. This book is past due. Time to transform. I already am amazing, but now I must *do* something with it. I'm ready to be consumed within her cauldron, with perfect trust, and whatever I become will have been meant to be.

Silver you fly, a ghost in the sky

Like a ship on an endless deep sea

You are a Goddess, to this holy novice

A spiritual refugee

So to you I dedicate my rites

Guardian of the mystery of the night

(Chorus)

You are silent moon

You are silent moon

My right hand it catches, you power as it waxes

A silver smile in the night

I feel you growing, the seeds I am sowing

Blessed by the maiden’s moonlight

On this night when you are born anew

Lady I will share my dreams with you

When you are waning and times they are changing

I offer into your care

In a world gone insane, you heal the pain

As the Mother you’re always there

Lady you are Mother of the Tides

Standing here where land and sea collide

I cannot see you but I can feel you

When the veil has hidden your face

And as the Crone you lead the dead home

To the comfort of your embrace

Yes I know that everything must die

But for now I ask you pass me by

--Damh the Bard

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This has been me for two weeks!

Meeting Ceridwen

I have a tiny bit of “Ceridwen and Taliesin” by Damh the Bard stuck in my head and am mindlessly muttering it to myself.

Me: Ceridwen, Ceridwen, Lady of the Cauldron

Ceridwen, Ceridwen, Lady of the Cauldron

Ceridwen, Ceridwen, Lady of the Cauldron

Ceridwen, Ceridwen, Lady of the Cauldron

Ceridwen, Ceridwen, Lady of the Cauldron…

Ceridwen: What.

Me: [realizes what I am doing and who I’m talking to, deeply embarrassed] I…I like that song.

Ceridwen: So do I!

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Trying to learn more about Ceridwen beyond the Taliesin myth is exhausting. They always tell it over and over. I need to learn mooooorrrrrre.

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The Cauldron of Ceridwen by Katherine Sunderland

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When someone goes through my search history

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Today, I’m grateful for daily routines. I’ve been following one all week, and I feel like a new person. It just makes life so much easier when I’m able to plan, and I know what to expect.

I’m also grateful for Mills, my emotional support animal. He has gotten me through so many  hard, emotional times in my recent life. 

The third thing I am grateful for is my husband. Without him, I wouldn’t be able to get through life. It would be about 956890x harder without him. I appreciate him for this; and I love him more than words could ever say.

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I care so much about everything, that sometimes I feel crushed under the weight of my emotions.

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Dental Hygine App

To all my autistic, spoonie, and otherwise disabled peers. (or those who are just bad at brushing their teeth) there is this great app that helps me. It’s not childish looking, super simple, has morning and night alarms, two different ways to brush teeth. Audio and text instruction, and very small size. Android (on the google play not galaxy app) and iPhone(I think)

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Coincidence Project

Over the past few years, photographer Denis Cherim has been steadily building up his ‘Coincidence Project’, a personal series that compiles an inventory of chance encounters in his everyday surroundings.

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The Holly King. Happy Yule! #yule #hollyking #digitalpainting #digitalart #art #artistsoninstagram

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I've have a pretty gnarly cold, but I've still been sketching and writing my book. Here is one sketch of many. Happy Yule! #sketch #male #digitalart #digitalpainting

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#crewscrew #silencebreakers

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CHRISTINA BOTHWELL #Ceramic + Cast #GlassArt #Sculpture Work | #BetweenMirrors

► www.betweenmirrors.com/2017/12/christina-bothwell-ceramic-cast-glass-sculpture.html

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I love drawing cute scenes.