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Feels After Holiday

It wasn’t fun, but i felt productive and meaningful as to just stay at home and play games. Now a days, I feel empty on the inside and don’t know how to feel about it. It has been boring because my friends are not free to play games with me. It kinda suck as i have no close friends interact with through games. In class, I am all alone, I have not made any new friends in my new classmates yet. But I have a feeling that they may not be gamers. “Sigh” i don’t wanna do anything else but game because that is my comfort zone and my lifeline. But I will always set my priority when it comes to homework or important things that i have to do. Eventually, I will just try and find happiness on the way and be happy.

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Polytechnic Life... after exam

Well this sucks. I don’t know what to do in my life and everything sucks. I keep watching anime and korean drama. I got no goal in life right now, I need to do something about it. I have been doing sudoku and honestly... it is fun! I really enjoyed it. I currently have no plans that involves with friends or going outside. But they will message me if we are going to the movies or going out for lunch. I really enjoy spending time with friends both online and offline. Cause is the interection that is interesting and funny. I still have a month to go before school starts and I can’t wait to see my friends again! I hope that I really make the rest of my holidays meaningful and interesting. If not this holiday would suck!!

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And the result is...

It is not within my expectation. I CAN’T BELIEVE I GOT GRADE 5 FOR MY MATH!!! I could have done better than that. Anyways, put the bad thoughts aside. I have been enrolled to Nanyang Polytechnic. The course that i’m going to study is Multimedia and Inforcomm Technology. It wasn’t my first choice but i will do my best at it. Lets keep it short and simple for today. Thanks for reading.

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FINALLY!!!! I FINISHED ‘O’ LEVELS!!!!!!

I have put in my best efforts into the subjects for the past few months. I also prepared the exam by taking a cold shower before the exam, so that I could be more energetic and pay more attention to check for unnecessary mistakes. It made me uncomfortable for having too many easy questions as the bell curve may be lowered. I also screwed up some easy questions and the science QA. There is nothing i can do now to solve those regrettable decisions and also  there is no point crying over a spilled milk. So what is done, has been done, there is no time machine that can travel back in time to change all those answers. All I can do now is to wait for the result next year 2019. I see a lot of my friends were traveling to other countries, experiencing snow while i’m at home staring in front of the computer screen scrolling through their Instagram photo like a loser hoping to be like them. But I am happy of what I am doing now as i’m a minimalist. I don’t need snow to keep me accompany, I have work during my holidays so that i can earn and spend my own money on computer and other electronic stuff. You can say that I am a person that is passionate about new technology and can’t wait to own one of them. While... Merry Christmas! to all the people in the world and the once who seen this post, you guys rock! P.S: For those who don’t know why I have not experience snow in winter, is because i’m living near the equator. 

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Mid Year did not go as plan...

Mid Year Examination was an utter disappointment, It was one of the worst tests I had gotten so far. I was shocked, I need to buck up on my English language. I got an E8 for crying out loud! This cannot happen again. I am so disappointed in myself. I need to practise more in order to do better and achieve at least a C5 for it. This is a significant year, as I will be having the ‘O’ level examination. Which I am being compared with the best students in Singapore, I have to fight for it no matter how hard or difficult it is, I need to conquer the fears and reach to the next level, or else I might not make it. =( But nevertheless, I will continue to strive for my dreams and continue to work harder no matter how much it takes. BRIGHT IT!!!

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Hello Sec 5!

In the year 2018, I had gotten my ‘N’ level results and almost cried due to the mark written on the paper. I got an aggregate of 16, it wasn’t enough for me to go to PFP. Life is tough in sec 5, have to go through the same subjects and the same procedures for another year. There were different topics for me to study. It is fun as I had learned new knowledge in each different subject. I do miss someone from my class 4N1, but I have to let it go. I feel happy for them and hope that they are having fun in their Polytechnics and ITE. Hopefully, I will be able to join the polytechnic family. I need to focus on my ‘O’ level now or it will be too late. English is probably the subject I am bad right now, I need to read more books and take in the vocabulary they used and put it in my writing and improve my final mark. Teachers asked the class about, “What they want to do in the future?” I always wanted to become a game designer as it is my passion, my drive. I will study hard for the course I want in Nanyang Polytechnic, no matter how hard it is! Another reason I want to go Nanyang Polytechnic is that there is a friend I want to meet again. *sigh* I should have done better, but there is no use to cry over a spilled milk. So let's continue with our lives and move on to another stage of challenges! 

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Headache and flu

Not feeling the best for today, it was very difficult to study from all the illness. I tried too hard to concentrate, for example, I tried to eat and drink. But it still doesn’t work the way I wanted to be, didn’t feel any better since. I hope that it really doesn’t affect my studies, and hopefully tomorrow I will get better. Today, me and my sister stayed at home to eat our breakfast. It wasn’t the best, but we had it undercovered. We have snacks that helped to plamish our hunger, and milk to top things off for our breakfast. After our breakfast, my sister went to her school for lessons and I stayed at home doing nothing except doing my gammer revision booklet. I found it helpful and easy to understand how and when to use it. It will help me to score better for my English as my English language papers are always on the borderline passing mark. I need to change that in order to go to Polytechnic Foundation Programme. It is my dream to go there, therefore I will try my very best to conquer these obstacles and made it to the top of the school. There is another thing I want to talk about during the school sports event. Me and my friends volunteered to be in a basketball team that represent our class. So during the actual day itself, my friends are playing against other classes but we didn’t stand a chance to win, and therefore we lost our first match of basketball. But on the second time my friends played, they won! I felt happy and clapped for their great performances. Until they had given up on the last match, they sended me in for that last match and I didn’t even got the chance to throw the basketball into the hoop. I was actually hoping that I can try and do a three pointer shoot into the hoop but … sigh. But there are still many opportunities for me to play basketball so I wasn’t being to hard to myself. Just that I did some push up to make myself more energetic for the next … Oh actually never mind the team didn’t even come to play because of some physical problem. We are unable to play with them therefore leaving me bored and didn’t know what should I do for the next few minutes. I got home after and rested for today’s activity. Hope that I still have the time to type my story again. This year is really stressful for me and my other classmates due to N levels and prelims. Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend and talk to you in the next chat.

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Exam Results!!

It has been a great result from my entire life, but i still think i can do better in math and other subject that i got B3 or A2. It is so close to rank up the next stage just by a few more mark during my secondary 3 holidays. I will have to start to revise on the careless mistake i make during the end-of-year examination. Of course there is a big stone that have been taken away from me and now i can play and watch video. But there are still school during week days. It really is not very important but is compulsory so i really have no choice but to go to school to learn somethings out of it. It could be interesting! But sometimes i am just lazy to go to school. Anyway, during November, our class will go to OVIA. It is a program that we need to visit an orphanage and help the orphanage to clean up and paint the walls. In the meantime, two groups need to create games to let the children play for example mini-sport festival. I think is a bit ridicules because we don’t know how large is the area the can set up our stuff yet. But i got a good feeling is going to be fun with my classmates. Today i learn that practice makes perfect, and that make me want to study for next year but not now :p Time flies when we are doing something that are important next year is going to be tougher than this but i will be prepared once i reach the day of ‘’N’’ level examination. Ok bye! I hope you guys also get the marks that you want to achieve for EOY examination. And also other country people as well. I wish all the best for the ‘’O’’ level students. And have a great day and night! Bye!  

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THE DIGITAL MONTH OF THE YEAR ...

My Sister, if you are watching this, I want to let you know that I miss you for the past few weeks. I know i sounded a bit cheezy but i just want to let you know how i feel, anyway this month isn’t that bad just that i don’t know what to do anymore with my life instead of facing the computer and TV. It has been hard for me to life a healthy lifestyle, maybe that’s why i keep getting headaches and hungry sometimes. But lucky i have my older sister is watch my back! So don’t need to worry. Confirm plus chop, she will bring me to eat with her one. Next monday we are going to eat Sukiyah! yeah! I am going to be fatter when u see me in the airport after you come back. Anyway have a nice time in UK, hope u sleep well bye!

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BE BETTER TOMORROW!

Today is a great day! i don’t have school today, but i don’t get to go to school and meet my friends. But one thing that’s good is actually talking to my friends through Facebook or Whatsapp, it is a fun and rough day, i was hoping that i can get out of my nest and start flying free outside, but the only problem is that i don’t have a friend that wants to go out with. Because i didn’t ask and i am busy with my stuff i forget and lazy to walk out and ask, now i am a sloth. Days went well, i am still here talking to you guys and hang out with. But even so, you are not a very familiar that the guys i hang out with. Anyway, i am bored as hell, i don’t have any games to play with, but i am reading a book that is really cool is called the Ender’s game. i haven’t read finish yet, but is a recommendation to all of you reading my Tumblr, Sorry got to go see you tomorrow on my tumblr again! Bye! 

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DEPRESSION...

Hi, just finish exams and i am up sad about it because i got most of the topic fail, i was to lazy and too confident about it but in the end it was sh*t, i can’t change about it but i can do better in the end of year examination. i believe in myself that i can do it, i try to study harder for the next test, really i need to buck up if not i am not going to the polytechnic i dream about. which is SP because i did some research about it is a good polytechnic for technology, as i went to SP before and looked into their facilities and room for their work place, it looks comfortable because of the air conditions and desks and a white board in the middle of the room to draw on. i think is a good place to work on and don’t care about anything and concentrate onto my task given by the teacher.Anyway it is a big decision and a difficult job to get into it but i believe in myself. JIA YOU!!!

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BEST DAY!!! Or not?

Today i am doing my usual stuff and i am going to kallang theatre, i am going to meet my friends but i screw up, he said change the location but i didn’t saw his massage, so i decided to went home, i am late for the show so i ask my big sister to found out how to go to kallang theatre. So she check on google and said which transport to take to reach there, then my father come back and started shouting at me saying why are u here? why u so blur! i am so pissed off i kinda cry. Oh shut up, men cry ok deal with it. Anyways, i go on my own balance my emotions while waiting for the bus, i already know i was going to be late so why not just continue the journey and live my life, and try to stay away for dad. After some time... I finally reach the theatre, YAH! but it is pointless, i only know half of the story, the first half will have to ask my friend for the plot. After the show, i meet my CCA friends they are all very good buddies, when they say they wanted to go out, i actually think twice whether if i am going, i decided to go with them because of what happen at home just now so i am not going back and instead with my friend, we have the best time together. I don’t regret my decision, we have a lot of fun making jokes and playing in the public. after that, we all went home and say goodbyes, while me and shi yu (My Senior) friend also took the same bus with me, so we talk about people’s weight and how much kilogram we can carry. And finally we both reach home, and say goodbye. And that’s about it, we have a amazing day. but is kinda bad.     

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Days...

Today is a normal day, talking with friends and continue the school timetable, there is bad news and good news, Bad news is there is no PE, good news is thee english teacher is not here. So for me is a normal day, The next thing is after school, that is a lot of people queuing for food, so i decided not to wait anymore and after my math’s class, i regret not having lunch, so i rush to the canteen and buy a burger and mee soto. After i had lunch, we still have DnT programme to build our circuit and make the LED light up! and the rest of the day in home i revise my chinese and make sure i prepare for tomorrow day for school. I am excited for saturday’s school event, TO KALLANG THEATRE!!! YAH! but today (which is thursday) i and my friends did a bad thing, we accidentally kick the ball over the 4th floue to the first floor, we almost hit a visitor, we feel bad about it and i am really sorry to get my friend to this sh**t, i forgive Bin Rui, Shi Yu, Chun fei but the most important thing is to forgive yr ownself not to be angry by some balls... But seriously i dont care though.

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To Every Action There Is Always Opposed An Equal Reaction

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