fractured-clockface

[fractured-clockface]

The fact that our coworkers often praise us as a manager for being good at delegation and time management is fucking laughable to me, because in reality we are just so fucking lazy and have ADHD and DID.

[fractured-clockface]

i think that post about reassurance seeking being bad for ocd did irreversible damage to my mind

[fractured-clockface]

‘no one is coming to save you’ okay fine I agree but can I even get a hug at least

[fractured-clockface]

shaking and breathing heavily and biting my lip to stop from screaming fuck should be a sexy thing and not a me hiding in my workplace bathroom trying not to have a breakdown thing

[fractured-clockface]

*fucking someone nonbinary* you've been a bad person

[fractured-clockface]

I'm a transfem alter in a transmasc body, and even though I have a female body now I still feel dysphoric about it, because now it feels like my trans identity has been taken away in a sense? It's so weird I wanted a female body and now I have it I feel like I'm not a "real" trans MtF anymore :[ Like I'm supposed to be MtF and I am but now in this body I'm not? Now I'm just… F. but the Mt part of MtF was also part of my identity if that makes sense Internally I still have a "male" body as well. This is all so confusing. I don't want to lose this part of my identity.

Being a system is weird. I hate it.

River // Remi

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

delicate and violent

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

I may be bitter spiteful and ugly as sin, but I have a car and a job and can kind of fold a fitted sheet so Im prime hoe material

[fractured-clockface]

bc of the alcohol scene people are FINALLY clocking that Toriel is also kinda shitty. for people who didn't pick up on it this is not new to Deltarune:

Toriel is incredibly stubborn especially about her beliefs and therefore she states very blatently that she is good and Asgore is bad and evil and horrible, meanwhile Asgore himself is a pushover and takes it like a pussy. Because she states it with such confidence people just kinda.. believed her.

Toriel's the one who left and decided to stew instead of actually solving any problems. it took six kids for Toriel to actually try to hold one back. When she comes back like. yeah a lot of this is Asgore's fault but what she says to him then could've been said six dead kids ago instead of basically ghosting him. Even after all of her worry she still doesn't come with you because despite herself and what she thinks, she's just as much of a coward delaying the inevitable as Asgore is.

These themes really continue in Deltarune. While Asgore is definitely too pushy, Toriel refuses to talk to him in any way at all, throwing away his flowers and trash talking him behind his back while also not talking to him at all. Similarly to Undertale she'd much rather avoid and trash talk him than make moves to fix anything.

Even though Toriel kinda does, it's not an argument of who was worse in the situation of either Undertale or Deltarune, if you start counting "sin points" to decide who was worse than you're loosing your media literacy. As far as I can tell at least in Undertale Toriel is just as at fault as Asgore is, even IF she tried and failed years ago and gave up, shutting herself off from the world and pretending it doesn't exist is no solution, and it's almost the same solution Asgore took, even right before he kills you.

We don't know the situation in Delatrune other than Asgore seems to have something he's involved with that Toriel doesn't want to talk about that Carol is "financing", very well could be an addiction of his own.

But I think the blatant alcoholism (that's in Undertale btw, in the alarm clock event she also got plastered) that people who know what alcoholism looks like noticed how Kris (and Susie) act in that scene has made it more apparent than ever that Toriel is an incredibly flawed character and one of her flaws is not being able to see that, something that Asgore does the opposite of where he's always wallowing in self-pity.

Toriel is really good at general mom-isms like making breakfast, taking the kids out, supporting interests, giving hugs, etc. However when actually worrying about Kris' safety and wellbeing she ends up falling short, as people have pointed out when we come home in chapter 4 she doesn't ask why either of them were out so late. Even a controlled state Kris has enough embarrassment and shame about the scene that they hide their face, meaning Kris has shown obvious signs of disapproval before that Toriel has not seen or ignored.

I think that's why her and Sans mesh so well together in an actually horrible way. Sans also likes to pretend stuff doesn't exist and brush stuff off with a joke instead of doing anything until literally the last minute. With how he acts in the scene he may not know, but weather he knows or not he is absolutely enabling her, which weather Toriel knows it or not is why she likes him and keeps him around. Finally a succinct way of saying why I believe their relationship, whatever you believe it is, is a toxic one.

TLDR: the only parent doing a good job here is Rudy unless we learn info later that changes that

[fractured-clockface]

[fractured-clockface]

if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it being the last line of the brokeback mountain novella is so crazy it makes me feel like my guts are falling out. if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it. jesus fucking christ

[fractured-clockface]

if i had a restaurant i would serve a sandwich to myself and then close