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my headcanon for gwaine finding out about merlin’s magic is that it happens at the same time as for the rest of the knights. like there’s some Catastrophic Event that forces merlin to reveal he has powers and all of the knights are there for it. gwaine included.

the thing about gwaine, however, is that he is the first to notice merlin’s eyes glowing and therefore has 0.1 seconds more than everyone else to process this information. and when he does process what this means and the danger merlin is now in, he doubles down. no ‘oh arthur but he meant no harm :((!!’ no. gwaine uses those extra 0.1 seconds to feel betrayal and outrage and re-direct all of it at arthur.

arthur is like ‘i don’t believe it’ and gwaine is like well tough😤😤 yeah my friend is a sorcerer and so WHAT. no, and so WHAT? is that a CRIME? (‘yes, it is, gwaine’ ‘mind your business leon’) stop staring at him like that. who CARES if he is a mastermind here to end your kingdom?? (‘i’m not’ ‘oh ok cool’) i have considered doing the same myself a few times?? you gonna burn me? stab me right here and now?? come at me, COME AT ME

arthur is not even looking at him, he is having the world’s most intense silent conversation with merlin. by the time arthur decides that okay, we need to have a talk, possibly one of the hardest talks of his life, gwaine has thrown a gauntlet at arthur 3 times (he keeps picking it up and throwing it again)

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Arthur doesn’t know if his mother ever held him.

His father has not, will not. On rare days, Arthur is gifted a grip to his shoulder: tight, heavy. Always with that crushing, crippling shame. The weight of his own disappointment.

Arthur tries to—well. He slaps his knights’ shoulders, light, quick. Sometimes even a rallying punch to an arm, closed fist, gloved fist. Never skin on skin.

He is not slapped back. Untouchable, always, on the tourney field and off.

Of course, he’s had servants to dress him since before he could lift a sword, but they’ve always known their place. Always careful, deferential. Never eye to eye.

“Up you get, you giant—fucking— lump—!”

It’s like hot steel, shock skewering his belly deep, each time Merlin touches him. Grabs him. Moves him bodily. Pushes him out of bed, shoves him into tunic and hose.

Fussing, always fussing, careless, full of care. “What’s that, on your face?” A warm, calloused hand, checking—skin on skin, eye to eye. “Oh, I see, just your big fat mouth as usual, no cause for alarm.” The dimple pokes Merlin’s cheek as his fingers poke Arthur’s sides.

It should sate his hunger; instead, it reinvents it.

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Marvel currently has 1 Representative in main bracket

PROPAGANDA

Mr Sinister:

A clone of a geneticist named Nathaniel Essex, Sinister continues his biological research without care of who it harms. In some continuities, he’s responsible for the Weapon X program that dunks a man’s skeleton in metal. In others, he orchestrates a marriage to get two people to produce a powerful offspring…not realizing he could probably just wait a bit because they were getting married anyway? Either way, he was also responsible for helping to create technology that allowed for clone-based reincarnation of mutants.

Dr Hank Pym:

Can’t seem to stop making murderous robots despite his best intentions. One of the more unhinged scientist heroes. Has bipolar disorder which was originally diagnosed as schizophrenia before. One thing I love about him is how he is both an unhinged mad scientist and also shown as a genuinely good person in his issues. There are enough mentally ill villains in comic books in comparison to heroes, so Hank is nice to see.

Dr Michael Morbius:

Suffering of a rare blood disease, Morbius turned to a cure that used vampire bat DNA. IT'S MORBIN' TIME!!!!

Adrian Toomes:

Inventor of the electro-magnetic harness, he uses it to commit crimes as The Vulture

Dr Curt Conners:

Though ultimately well-meaning when human, any doctor that willingly injects Lizard DNA into his own body, probably deserves to be categorized as a Mad Scientist.

Dr Otto Octavius:

Classic comic book mad scientist, it'd be a travesty if he wasn't included in the tournament.

The High Evelutionary:

Quite possibly the most evil character in the MCU. Will bio-engineer entire civilizations, only to mass murder them if they do not live up to his standards.

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Bruce when he wakes up besides Clint: 👁👄👁

I could not decide how to interpret this so I drew what was funniest to me-

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Do you think they use pressing foreheads aggressively as opportunities to sneak a kiss?

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are they stupid

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The Rem Infodump.

The one where i rant about rem and subaru's dynamic and why it's special but i dont think a lot of people really understand it!

This was written a while ago and i may have some things wrong, and it's also good to note I don't think subaru and rem are unnhealthy for each other in the sense that they shouldn't be together (whether romantic or platonic), i just mean the situations they were in forced them to act in certain ways!

I think a lot of people who are bigger re zero fans (who also understand what the story is about) shy away from rem as a character because she's the one "only fake fans who watch the anime for the waifus" like, but while she's not my favorite character i want to bring her a little more appreciation from this side of the fandom!!

new-to-tumblr post spam 3/4 complete, i'll slow down after this XD

I tried tagging with spoilers but just in case it didn't work: spoilers ahead!

So. The rem thing. Ive talked about it vaguely before but never went into detail cause there were people that could be spoiled. The whole point of rems attraction to subaru is not because of harem wish fulfillment. The author clearly stated he hates harems. Subaru does love both rem and emilia, but he has solidly chosen emilia and that's the end of that. It doesn't matter what romantic feelings he could have towards rem because it's already doomed. They both know it. The relationship they form episode 12 and beyond is not meant to be healthy for either of them!! Rem has been saved from her mindset of needing to atone for what she thought of her sister, but her self esteem is still AWFUL which is why she attaches herself to a "hero" instead of learning to recognize her own self worth. Subaru saved her from some things but he's not a hero and he's not exactly the person rem says he is. Partially, but not all of it. It's kind of a mutual decision of theirs to lie to each other and themselves because they need it to cope with themselves. Subaru needs to be a hero for rem or he could never step out of his depressive state. Rem needs a hero in subaru or she cannot feel loved and understood. It's not good for either of them but they don't have an alternative. NOTICE: When subaru rants about how awful he is and rem responds with her famous speech, she doesn't actually contradict much of what he says. They love each other and need each other but it's bad for the both of them. Rem lost her memories because the witches (later correction: it's the bishops) targeted her for her sin, and subaru killing himself over rem is not the action of a person in a healthy mindset. Rem's development was cut short and kind of fridging, its frustrating, but it's not basic waifu stuff and it is meant to be tragic!!!! This is also all a mirror to how subaru and emilia are!

Because while subaru constantly talks about needing to save emilia, he also calls her the main heroine. I used to think about rem as a yesman, but she does many a thing behind subaru's back for his sake the exact way he did to emilia. He learns more about the consequences of his actions that way. oh, it hurts. and oh boy the speech is so misunderstood. That is rem's promise to love him "unconditionally", without acknowledging his flaws, and it helped. It's absolutely what he needed to hear. But it wasn't good. but also, for other reasons, it mirrors another little speech.... subaru's season 2 confession to emilia. Where she can't believe he'd love her, and where he starts to list off things he's done for her and the ways she's made it hard for him. And then tells her, he still loves her, because that's who she is and he wouldn't want it any other way. Which could be taken as another niceguy rant (like a repeat of the season 1 fight) but it's NOT!! Because this is what Emilia needed to hear, because she is not the kind of person who can accept praise without a drawback or asterisk. If she heard all that, all she'd see is another pedestal to fill. this is the healthier version of the rem speech, where she can accept she's flawed and realize she's still loved. Both despite, but also for it. And... it's still not perfect. Because the characters are still growing and learning!!! They are young adults with so many problems and a whole life ahead of them and they still need to learn!!! The upsides and downsides of unconditional love,,,, and is it more unconditional if you love them "despite flaws" or "with flaws" or without seeing any? And is any of that healthy? How can it be good? How can it be bad? Maybe it can be both at once, maybe love isnt perfect!!! a lot of this is hidden in subtext, and the framing of rem's speech may even trick you cause it's triumphant but no there's so much complexity to why they say every single thing they say!!!

Subaru is a character who struggles with love for himself and with love for others, he doesn't know how to make others happy and gets caught in a loop of thinking the only way he can possibly be loved is if he's constantly putting his life on the line for others, without asking anything of them in return. which ends up with him breaking and needing support, and not knowing how to ask, which is why he yells at emilia in season 1 (doesn't help that his deepest trauma is something he is magically obligated not to share for fear of death). His relationship with emilia in season 1 is both very sweet and very unhealthy. he's just a guy with a crush on a girl who's far too good for him and he's trying to work for it but the basis for it is not good- he's attached himself to the first kind person in this new world that he knows and due to "return by death" he's far more invested in her than she is in him- she will never know everything they went through together. and then.... he finds rem. someone who didn't trust him. someone who killed him multiple times throughout the mansion arc, but someone who could understand his loneliness because she was also lonely, and wow- he managed to save her, too! and she doesn't know everything about what he's gone through, but she knows how to read his emotions like no one else can. so they... fall into a codependency. like said before, they can't live without each other, but not everything they do is good for each other. subaru, while gladly taking the role that emilia has in this new relationship, learns more about how she feels. with rem, he learns more about what it means to love, and they both know that it won't last. they didn't expect it to end so soon, though. but oh well, subaru does not have the option to stop. the nature of his powers means dying is pointless, and he has to press on anyways. and he does!!! He meets more people he thinks he can trust. some betray him, but some stick with him. Otto (my sweet boy!!!) is notable!

and now he knows more about love, about trust, about how to treat people, and how he should expect to be treated. so many things. keeping in mind it's been a while since i've watched re zero so i probably don't even have everything there is to say. but like.... then in the end, he can approach emilia with his true emotions. and he can tell her about it in a way she'll understand. and he knows he can do it without being a burden this time. he's become a better person. he's not sure if he'll be rejected, but that's not the point anymore! The point is he loves her and wants the best for her and wants her to know and hopes, no matter the outcome, that she'll be happy to know she's not alone! and the honesty, that's what his speech has over rem's. he's not putting her on a pedestal, he's not using her for the sake of his own self esteem anymore, he just wants to love!

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Extra note on the end (talk about suicidal thinking, be warned!!!)

something I've talked about but don't have saved writing for, a bit more about rem!

I do also think Rem is suicidal. i think she and Subaru recognized each other in that mindset without ever really talking about it. To me, this relationship is two suicidal people trying to prop each other up so the other will keep living, and knowing that if they really give up the other will too. That's why the season 2 development was so punishing for Subaru. I think that Rem's terrible self esteem and feeling of needing to atone for """"ruining her sister's life"""" contributed to it, though i don't know if that's all of it. She also makes multiple comments that are extremely concerning, like how Subaru is her "reason to die", how when she was ready to die fighting the white whale she said she felt like this was the moment she was made for, and biggest of all!! When she was telling her hypothetical story of how she and Subaru would run away together, she planned it all up to the death "I'd like to die first and I'd like my family to be with me", and to me it felt like she was *trying to think of a death that would make her life worth living*. Her motivation to live is following people she can die for, and that's, that's concerning. i hope her character arc properly follows through on what's happening in her head (i don't know how arc 7 goes yet)

...and i also think that Beatrice is the first time Subaru's had to confront his mindset head-on, because Beatrice would refuse to dance around the subject. The lesson he takes from Rem carries over to both Emilia and Beatrice in healthier ways, and I think that's incredibly important!!!!

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thank you for reading!

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Arcane x Mario Kart, I’m pretty sure. Which is a pretty cool combo. Arcane racing game, let’s go.

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I would like everybody (who’s into Avengers:Earth’s Mightiest Heroes) to go listen to ‘7 O’clock’ by Penelope Scott and think of Hank Pym. Please.

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i love it when people tag your post on here with an acronym for a show you've never heard of like

#benny and frog from altoctotaobaf #altoctotaobaf #altoctotaobaf critical #anti altoctotaobaf cw

it's like you're reciting ancient and undecipherable chants at me

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Fanfiction idea: arc 5 time loop

Sooo I was thinking about what gonna happen if we took character (NOT Subaru or Al) from arc 5 and lock them in a time loop in Priestella (idk if I'm spelling it right)

If we choose Wilhelm than we gonna get something tragic when he meting dead Teresia again and again and again... and maybe he is even happy about it. He loves his wife more than anything and if world give him the opportunity to be with her again even if it's only for less than a minute when she gained her mind back after that monster killed her again... Wilhelm gonna took this opportunity

Wilhelm is a poetic character. So I think that in this scenario he'll end up dead with his beloved wife and there is no new loop after that

Julius is also interesting character to stuck in a loop.

[Let assume that loop is not give characters immunity to authorities]

Julius here basically trying to save his brother. Because Joshua is just getting eaten/killed again and again. And there is the problem with gluttony — Julius CAN'T REMEMBER his brother when Joshua's Name get eaten. When time resets memories are coming back like everything else. Can you imagine Julius' horrifyingly deep sense of guilt when this happens? because he's not only failed to save his brother (again), he dared to forget him and his duty to him as an older brother.

As for Julius's spirits... I'm not sure what to do with them. they may be in the loop with Julius or they may not. if we take the first option, this can lead to a lvl up of the spirits and their contractor, which will happen earlier than in the canon. This also opens the door to angst because spirits also cannot remember those whose name was eaten. Even if it's Julius. Even if they are together with him in a time loop. When loop resets Julius never blames them.

But if we take the second option it turns into a story where everyone is worried about Julius. Because wtf man what's happening with you? Why'd you act like this strange black haired kid? Oooooh Subaru. There is potential for Julisuba yk. From Subaru's perspective this asshole just starts to act like he just died and come back. And said asshole is pretty good at hiding it from everyone else! But Subaru just know. And he's worried as fuck. Just how rude of this bastard knight to made him worry

Tbh I don't think that our glorious knight need very long time to escape the loop. He need 10-15 resets I think and boom he's free (and caring a trauma now. Average time travel experience)

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I really love this quiz and decided to retake it almost a year later. I still got killed by Julius just like the first time. I think my answers say something about my personality. 😅 I’m not quite sure what that is.

btw hiiiiii i started making this silly little quiz two years ago and then procrastinated on it up until today. have fun if you want to.

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btw hiiiiii i started making this silly little quiz two years ago and then procrastinated on it up until today. have fun if you want to.

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Re:Zero fandom, please rise up and submit EmiJuliSuba. I think they deserve to be here.

ot3 showdown!!! PART 2: electric boogaloo

Hello!

This is the mod of the ot3 showdown! Quite a few of you asked for a rematch, so I'm giving you the chance to shout out your faves that didn't make it last time!

LINK TO THE NEW FORM HERE!!!

Reminder of the Rules:

I will not be taking into account the amount of votes from the last bracket, if your fave made it last time, that doesn't mean they'll make it this time.

The top 32 nominations will be participating.

Qualification of this bracket: It has to be THREE.

It can be romantic/platonic/or whatever kinda relationship you decide. Free your mind. Love is love is love.

That said, I'd prefer not to include Love Triangles. they all got 2 hands (emotionally).

This is about fictional characters. Please no RPF (yes the youtubers count as RPF.)

Spock/Bones/Kirk will be ineligible for submission, because they already won the first round.

ONE SHIP PER SUBMISSION!!! you may submit a form as many times as you please, but for my sanity, please one per form. It'll make counting them up a LOT easier.

Please be kind. To yourselves. To each other. And to me, just a regular guy.

This form will be open starting TODAY, August 1st, 2023 and will end in TWO WEEKS on August 15th, 2023 at 11:59 EST !!! good luck everyone!!!

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