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“I feel like

                                                                                                       I’m the worst–

so I always act like

                                                  I’M THE BEST.”

    Indie Peridot. Semi-Selective. Powered by Sig. Au/Headcanon-based.

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In case ya don’t know, ‘clod’ means stupid person. So that’s why Peridot uses it to insult people and stuff

((I legit just SNORTED))

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Will the URL for the peridot blog have the word ‘clod’ in it?

((’will it have clod in it’ gjyfcktyhgdkyfjc. funny, but no))

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You know, you could also make a new main blog a hub blog for multiple kin RP sideblogs.

((eh,,,separate main blogs are better for rp purposes. besides I already picked out a url and the blog has been made. as a main blog. via a new session in sessionbox. tho I just made it like 5 minutes ago & I’m still working on the promo image so legit nothing is set up yet.))

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Why not make your main blog a multimuse for all your kin stuff

((I learned from experience that multimuse  blogs are too stressful and rp blogs are better off being main blogs. meaning I gotta make another email and set it up using sessionbox but oh well))

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((I,,,now have the urge to make a Peridot blog? not gonna be too kin-based to start with at least since I barely remember anything yet. probably just gonna label it as like. AU/headcanon based. also probably gonna be archiving this blog. lost muse for spinel. not much went on here anyway.))

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not going to school today but no I don’t wanna talk abt why. basically this morning was terrible & I’m real grumpy. no idea how active I’ll be on here today because of that

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I wish you the best.

((thank ou,,,I felt a liktlje beettetrt whiel watchin tv witjh my mon,,,ofc I dindnt te; her hpw I was feelijng or anhythng. tho now that im back in my romn wihtn my thoughts im gettn a lil antsy agani. stillk kinda hard to tyoe as you can see,,,my fihnrers refuse to typoe propjhnerlu when im panicky amb  ihave no idae why))

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((no idea why I’m not just originally posting this on @infinite-insignia​. because it’s related more to that blog than this one.but less people see this blog so less people will have to worry if I post it here but hey what do I know? I’m just some dummy. some dumb kinnie. some crazy, delusional person.))

((,,,I kinda lost it last night. I have this kin-based diary thing that I’ve written in every night for the past few months. on a notepad file on my pc. usually I just keep things short with a summary of the day and it’s all written in bullet-point format. but last night,,,what I wrote seemed kinda like the ramblings of a crazy person.))

((and then? while I was laying in bed tryna sleep? I mumbled to myself! mumbled the same few things over and over, got super angry! head hurt! wanted to cry but couldn’t! like a scene in a movie where a character spirals into madness,,,I felt like that was happening to me. and I tried my hardest not to seem like that had happened. I tried today but,,,))

((I’m. concerned. for my own mental health. which is saying something cause I usually don’t put much care into my own health. I don’t wanna go crazy. I never wanted to. I didn’t think I ever would. so many bad things happened back then that,,,the memories are making me lose my mind. I,,,idk guys.))

((I can’t be crazy. I can’t let my mom be right. I can’t let that anti-kin asshole from over a year ago be right. I can’t tell anyone because I’d be proving their point--I’m going crazy. I’m losing it. I deserve to be thrown into a psyche ward. this isn’t what being a kinnie is supposed to be. I’m not supposed to be going insane! it’s just a part of who I am! I should be able to live with it! and I can! it shouldn’t be hurting my mental state so much but I just!!! I don’t know!!!!))

((already had to go to a mental hospital for a week a few years back. it was for a completely different reason,,,but I don’t wanna go back there. or to a psyche ward. heard those are worse. it’ll give me too much time to think and go crazy. but this is who I am. can’t change that. I’m a horrible person. I’m some asshole who somehow got reincarnated into this lame human body.))

((I don’t have my powers anymore? I don’t have my squad or any friends I could’ve had. just bits and pieces of memories and feelings that I know are true. emotions I can’t control. mental state I’m gonna lose. I’m freaking out it’s getting hard ot typo))

((this happendd beforr. I had a panic attckl it was awflu I need brealk from tublr I’m gonnakloaw it. freakni out. I literly cN;T typr I didnt think this woild ever happen agiohn I’m having a breakjonw. aaaaaaa. but whatevejr youi do dont worry about me its a temporauy thinfih I shoihld be finbe but whatgiy do I tell my noim. ,,,nikj. ,,,mon. ,,,close nrihg (enough). for now im gonna ;lojg ojff befoire tihs gess anu wouese. needo itakl madicnie. magyeb thetll haleo. he;lp, not haleo. its suippisd to hel;po withni ancixtyu. anxiey. that. mightio deletke thiso lopst later but if my activity drips tonight then its cause I hjust had a lirterl mental vreakdonw.))

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((why am I always so short. like ok I think I may have kinfirmed peridot. which means. without those super cool limb enhancers I had,,,baby hands. I always have baby hands. every life. all the time. even in my last life as Sig. small hands! current life? hands still small!!! body still short!!! can I be tall in any one of my canons pls???))

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((hey so I’ve kinda. disappeared off the face of this blog again recently?? I’m back with a few things--first, as you can see, I’m gonna start using peridot as a faceclaim here. partly because, y’know. steven universe. I’ve been binging it recently. and also partly because,,,I miiight be kinsidering her??))

((I mean. not sure. but ofc she’ll just be a secondary kin, nothing too major. the kin vibes aren’t even that strong. I just,,,have this gut feeling that it’s possible. might shift a bit once I figure it out for sure but. Sig’s still my main. once I figured that out,,,well, it’s not gonna change. I’ve learned so much abt that canon and it’s just,,,a part of me. my identity.))

((but uh,,,kin bs aside. sorry for the lack of activity here. not much going on here thread-wise. well,,,not much at all, I should say. my focus has been either on @infinite-insignia​ or binging su. or just,,,other stuff that I do. school was in the way this week too. didn’t feel like going the past few days but I had to.))

((that and I’ve been. really thinking abt peridot today? that’s how you know I’m kinsidering. most of my thoughts for the day/time period revolve around the character and frantically trying to see if there’s a kinnection there. and rn I’m still not sure. if there is one, it’ll have to build up over time. I’m gettin the kin vibes, sure, but,,,not too strongly yet. I probably sound crazy.))

((,,,,,,,,,,*cough*. hope you guys understand my poor excuse. I’m just being a kinnie on main again. high-key kinsidering. might shift a bit. Insignia’s still main canon. still me. Peridot, if anything, is gonna be secondary, albeit with the highly-likely shift. I always shift for a bit when I discover new kintypes. but I’m still not 100% sure here. but ugh I’m rambling.))

((basically. sorry for the long explanation. tl;dr I’m kinsidering and binging su. as well as doing stuff on my other main. my,,,main-main blog, I guess. not sure when I’ll be back on here. might need to get more threads, but I can’t motivate myself to do any new starters, and the one I did a while back still hasn’t been responded to. not that I’m rushing anyone. whatever, ignore me))

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((wh. how does this blog have so many followers. I haven’t done much over here yet cause I’m mainly over on my other blog,,,))

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((how’d that one Lesbian day post get so many notes? I’m not complaining, it’s just,,,what. it’s just a dumb post I made to show how Spinel has no understanding of earth terms? but uh. anyway guess what-))

((I waited til the end of the day to tell you guys, but. today’s my birthday! I’m 17 now, and I feel,,,))

((,,,no different than I did yesterday. is it gonna be like that when I turn 18? cause I highly doubt I’ll feel like an adult by then but oh well. man I’m old now. ridiculous. I’m not ready to adult. someone stop my aging process.))

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you. you is a lesbian

“Does that mean that the definition of ‘Lesbian’ is...me? I don’t get it. How can I be the definition of a word?”

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“Heard that today’s Lesbian Day.”

“.......................................”

“I don’t know what Lesbian means.”

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@starspook liked for a starter (memory wipe verse)!

A pink, heart-shaped gemstone lay on a wooden table, completely still. This gemstone happened to be Spinel’s--having been hit with her own Gem Rejuvenator, she was reduced to her gem.

However, within a moment, the gem levitated off of the table and shone with a bright pink light--what was once an upside-down heart became a properly-shaped one. The light burst throughout the room for a second, blindingly bright.

When it cleared, Spinel’s form was visible--yet she wasn’t the same scythe-wielding, crazy-looking gem from before. Instead, she was a bit shorter, her hair was neater, and her color scheme was a bit lighter.

Her eyes were sparkly, and she smiled wide. She seemed happy just to be alive! It wasn’t long before she noticed Steven standing there--and, of course, she remembered nothing about him. To her, he was just her new best friend!

Giggling, she rushed over to him, bouncing slightly on her heels once she came to a stop. She was like a child in a candy store--in other words...hyper. Lacking any sense of personal space, she quite literally wrapped her arm around his and began to shake up and down.

Was...this a handshake? It wasn’t your typical one, that’s for sure. I mean, she was shaking his entire arm. With her arm literally wrapped around his. That’s...not exactly how handshakes work--but oh well. It was something.

She didn’t bother to stop shaking, even when she began to speak, her voice high-pitched and full of excitement.

“Hiya! I’m Spinel! Ooh, I’m so happy t’ meet’cha!”

...She really didn’t recognize Steven, huh?

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((gotta get some threads going on here, so. like/reblog this for a starter in the memory wipe verse? don’t ask why, I just feel like writing in that verse and seeing where it goes. and I’m gonna be capping this at 5 so I won’t overwhelm myself accidentally!))