ghocean

[ghocean]

lessons / mantras from tonight’s breath work

let it feel good

these are my arms

i am proud of myself

i have come so far

i am making progress

i am on the right path, aka the path

me to me: it’s you

you are free

freedom & intuition

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joy meditation

joy to a friend (hello kitty frankenstein)

joy to each other

open to joy ourselves

receive as sunlight pours in through the window into the room, washes through leaves

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looking through camera roll for first time in ages

i remember: my life is so full

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wondering at the closed shower curtain — always

the gentle gust of wind that made the leaves swish swish and the sound of the birds and the surprisingly bright yet warm light from the sconces lining the building on the corner

“curiosity > shame”

being drained

a moment of vanity

neuroses -> inner critic -> anxiety -> perspective -> letting go -> relax -> enjoy

STOP ENJOY TRUST or STOP TRUST ENJOY

my throat hurts

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t. r. u. s. t.

stop trust enjoy

i have stopped i am learning to trust so i can enjoy

it’s okay to let go

you can let go

let go of it now

clinging to it won’t change it

won’t change it

warm salt water rinse

let me rest

let me rest

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i am in the right place at the right time

i am exactly where i need to be

i am right on time

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make fmv to your name set to closer

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learn to crochet + make my own headphone covers

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rehearsing for the performance

going on the upside down ride at coney island

sitting downstairs during japanese breakfast

hosting/reconnecting with friends i haven’t seen in a bit

challenging myself at hop hip and getting food with the crew

going to yoga and recommitting to my health

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i am okay

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when making forever stew: who watches the stove overnight? do they hire part-timers? what is it like to guard a precious thing?

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i am in fluid balance

i ground for support while opening to source

i am both, and — not either, or

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03 - every day, drink from my own cup

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curious to read notes on shapeshifting

haven’t even read it but for some reason think i might like to write something like it

go figure!

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the fingernail of hope returns

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i am proud of myself for living authentically

sometimes, parts of me ruminate on things i’ve said, especially at work or among friends, and i smile to those parts

i remind them that unmasking, in some situations, is important, and good for my long term health/happiness

and i’m proud of myself for living authentically

i cannot change the past

so no amount of rehashing will change what has already been said or done

i accept that i cannot change the past

i tried my very best today

i talked to a lot of people and was exposed to new things

so i am proud of myself for living authentically

…

p.s. my best will be different in different moments and on different days

[ghocean]

covers to make

wildflower, billie

beside you, keshi

any indigo