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✞ 666 ✞

[ghvstgrl]

✞ 666 ✞

[ghvstgrl]

✞ 666 ✞

[ghvstgrl]

I would rather....

I would rather starve myself and put my hungry, empty body through the weeds before I allow food to touch these lips. I feel like I don't deserve the food, I have been bad, ungrateful and spoiled. naughty children don't get food when they don't do as they are told.

but you know.. You're not a ch9ild, right? you are an adult now, and adults need to eat to live and you have no wrong anyone or even yourself. please go eat. *dissociate*

[ghvstgrl]

Thank you coffee. Thank you weed.

[ghvstgrl]

Cherry Coke Lips

your kisses are so sweet, I nearly didn't notice the poison in the aftertaste of your kiss. as you pulled away from me and looked into my eyes, i was under your spell and you had me back in your hands. You hand me another glass of Cherry Coke and i drink it, consume it, obsessed, in love, i need it. i don't need it, i need it. no. fuck. You think i didn't notice the poison on the aftertaste after that first sip. I was hoping it would be poisoned, i came back to you because no one gets me high like you, no one fucks with my psyche more. like you have a controller to my spirit, my being. I want your filth, i want your sick, i want your infections, i want your pain, i want your curses, i want your bitterness, i want all that keeps the things ur missing the most to be return to you by being the one to carry all the burdens. I want to see you free. You hand me another well deserved glass of Cherry Coke.

[ghvstgrl]

GHOSTEMANE - D( r )ead

[ghvstgrl]

uzumaki by junji ito

[ghvstgrl]

I desperately need to be bred

Onlyfans // Twitter

[ghvstgrl]

The wonderful @iamanocean-iamthesea tagged me to post 5 tracks I have on repeat at the moment. I’m not going to lie; I’m going to steal one of their tracks as it’s been on my repeat since it was released:

(Love this KennyHoopla track because it sounds like The Cure, Joy Division, Bloc Party all the whole still sounding emo/pop punk)

(This one may be a little controversial but it slaps)

I tag: @koolaidkitten @hazzyhead @sierrawrmaria @coldenblood @cutestcandle and anyone else who wants to get involved 🤙🏼

Cheers!

[ghvstgrl]

I don't worship Satan I'm just saying we get along

[ghvstgrl]

🖤

[ghvstgrl]

Don't cry honey crazy girl

[ghvstgrl]

Just reaching out. I had a really big day today, i had to tw; speak with the police and give a full statement due to SA. I don't want to be lonely, i don't want this event to consume me and hold me back bc i'm sick of being held back all the time when lives gets hurtful and tough. i'm 31, i really want to have a life outside of inner healing. Ive been thinking about going back to work, but i dont want to go back to work when i'm still hyper emotional/senstive right now. I have considering doing one day a week volunteer work as a trial. that even makes me nervous but feels like a safer way to introduce myself back into working life. I haven't had a job since 2021 and ALOT has happened in that short time. deep breaths I refuse to allow the man who r-word me to get into my head and under my skin, i refuse to give him my power and become powerless. There is a fire in my belly.

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[ghvstgrl]

I feel like the idea of being good or evil is shattered, I've never been truly good or truly evil. I have been perceived as what fits your narrative. I am your angel when you need someone to cheer you on, but then i am your devil when you see that i'm human and i make mistake. You pull and stretch my skin to fit your ideas, not to fit on my body. on me. i am not me. i am what you need me to be.

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Can't you see that I have been here the whole time? in front of you and within. bring me back together, bring us together. Remember when they told you not to be scared of your own shadow.. now do you understand?

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