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Diox did im fact have SO MUCH life in it, waiting (im)patiently for my classmates to share the pictures/videos 🙏🙏‼️‼️‼️

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I’m so fucking glad that Heartstopper made it abundantly clear that even if Ben was a hurting, damaged person, that does not make anything that he did okay. That what he did to Charlie will never, ever be okay. That Charlie never, ever has to forgive him. That Ben never deserves that. That nothing Ben does will make what he did okay. Ever. 

And even if Ben becomes a better person, that will never erase what he has done, and it does not ever mean that Charlie has to forgive him. 

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just rewatched barbie and it has only confirmed my belief of barbie and ken being aspec

ken only ‘likes’ barbie because that’s what he was basically created/told to do. his whole worth was based on how barbie viewed him

ken and barbie seem more like best friends than anything. i don’t think there was ever anything romantic there, ken was just told to believe there was. he was more desperate for her approval than her ‘love’ in my opinion

and like of course would you think that you like someone if you’re told you do and you’re that desperate for their attention and approval

barbie kind of obviously didn’t like him romantically from the start, which she’s aware of but doesn’t express to ken until the end

and honestly, her telling ken freed both of them from the expectations they were burdened by

aroace barbie and ace ken are real to ME

also i fully believe allan and ken start dating after everything settles down

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Rest in peace you strange little unknown egg

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this little fella is Diox, my new friend for bacteriology class, they are made of water and hopefully many many bacteria and parasites (well see that tomorrow)

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Que bendición with the teachers who at the start of the semester give you all the books and presentations that they'll use Dios mío it's just sooo much easier ojalá les den todos los bonos del año 🙏🙏🙏🙏

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"It's like cock for short cause it's kind of a mouthful."

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been drawing favourite girlfailure while all the technical difficulties were happening

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A month or so ago I came across a listing on Marketplace with one photo, a price of $50, and the following description: "12x8x1 i have 45". Now, $50 for 45 pieces of stained glass of that size is an insane deal; $50 per piece of stained glass is...well, it's not crazy, but it's not a price I'd be willing to pay. Glass generally isn't as expensive as you think.

So I messaged him, and he clarified that the price was per piece, and I did my best to politely explain that I was not interested in paying $2,250 on stained glass slabs. Extracting myself from that conversation took some time, since he was keen to make a sale, and I had zero budget for it, but I did eventually make my graceful exit.

And then three days ago he messaged me, saying he was moving and to make him an offer on the glass.

I told him I really don't have much room in the budget for this, and I know it's not a number he'll like, but the best I could do is $200.

He said sold.

So yesterday I went and fetched forty five slabs of stained glass, each an inch thick and a foot long, and eight inches wide. My plan is to use some in the aviary, and also I may use some for book pressing, because they're pretty. The glass is so thick that you can hardly tell what color they are when they're laid flat. The colors are mostly a range of dark blues, purples, greens, and browns, which works great with my color palette. I want to eventually add a loft so that the doves can be out year-round, and ideally natural light would be good. However, doves are easily startled, and transparent glass runs the risk of them trying to fly through it. Stained glass is both prettier and safer.

They're intended for a stained glass technique called Dalle de Verre, where slab glass is chipped into irregular facets and set in concrete, which was popularized during the Brutalist movement. It's a cool technique! I don't know if I'll try it, but it is lovely.

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something that i don't see talked about a lot is that when you're aro, there's so much work you have to put in to understanding romance. as a conversation topic it's unavoidable because romance is such a huge part of many people's lives, even if it's not in yours. when people talk about crushes, you have to figure out what to do. when people get together or break up you have to do the mental math to figure out how to react because you're expected to just know. of course you know. everyone's had a crush, everyone's been a relationship, everyone's been broken up with. everyone understands.

but you don't.

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just pulled this shawl off the blocking mat!

super in love with it, the only thing i would change is that it’s a little smaller than i hoped. i think i should have used one needle size larger. for some reason i have trouble trusting that looser gauges will look right even though i love them when blocked and finished lmao

also this thing had like. a billion ends to weave in because each of those little points created 2 ends so it was a bit of a slog however i think the end result is worth it!

pattern link here!

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i have very much respect for designers but some of these paw patrol amigurumis are pure nightmare fuel what happened to these dogs 😥

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listen to me y'all. listen. hear me out. i know the hesitating to kill the monsters with your children's face angst is spicy. i know it's tempting. don't fall for it.

phil didn't fucking hesitate for a second. he's the one who got everyone else to stop hesitating. once he logged back in, he attacked the codes immediately and shouted for everyone else to do the same. he hates the imposters and he hates them more for daring to use his children's faces. the angst isn't the idea that he would struggle to obliterate a threat to his family.

no, the angst is what happens after.

the angst is the next time tallulah needs her papa's attention when he has his airpods in and she shakes her maracas and he doesn't hear and she has to decide between asking him about the botantical garden and "it shook its maracas too much so i killed it"

the angst is the next time chayanne is feeling clingy or scared and wants to stick close to his father's side but in the back of his mind is just "it got close to me too much so i killed it"

the angst is that phil can see their fear because he knows them and he reassures him as much as he can that he would never hurt them and he would always know the real them but all of them have to live with the question of "but what if you don't"

the angst is phil giving them passwords and code phrases to memorize to prove its really them to soothe their fear of him not being able to recognize them because he solves his problems in the most straightforward, practical way he can but now they're just scared of what if the codes learn the passwords and phil explains that the passwords are just another layer of protection they're not everything and then they're right back where they started

the angst is two children huddled up together in a hotel away from the windows trying to decide if it would be better for their father to kill them by mistake or die by the hand of a monster wearing their face because he didn't think to strike first

the angst is chayanne privately asking phil the question he's trying desperately to pretend tallulah hasn't also thought of: what happens if wilbur comes back and it isn't wilbur?

the angst is phil replying with "he's my son too. i'll recognize him." and he doesn't remember everything from before the island but there's an old ache in his wing that seems to tell him that recognition may not have been enough

the angst isn't that phil hesitates. the angst is that phil doesn't. the angst is that phil loves his children too much to hesitate. the angst is that sometimes doing the best you possibly can by your children will still fuck them up so so so bad

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Dapper

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i saw the barbie movie and i loved it, here's my review