h3l1x-isl0st

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back on my homosexual shit again

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GYESS WHO GOT CONAN GRAY TICKETS

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"You're going to regret that when you're older"

okay, but isn't that the point? Isn't that what makes a teenager? Having to deal with this constant pressure of approaching adulthood so much so you can't handle everything, you dont have it all under control, you're inexperienced, you're reckless. You feel more alive in making those regrets because thats exactly what society tells us not to do. There's nowhere to go, the world seems gray, our lives are short and everything could stop tomorrow. In my eyes reckless adolescence is the exact antithesis to this bleak realization. You can't keep the lid on a boiling pot forever. And if I make a few stupid mistakes that I will remember for the rest of my life as the time when I was the freest ive ever felt than those are regrets I will carry like a badge of honor.

I want to kiss people and trip and fall and sneak out to stargaze and feel the cool air on my skin and explore the creek and dye my hair and go to the county fair and do harmless pranks and make rude gestures and say bad words and try new foods and paint love letters on my skin and laugh so hard every bone in my body hurts. And I dont want to look perfect or be too clean or be acceptable to grownups. I want to be me. I want the metamorphosis that comes with being an almost adult. I want to be understood as a reckless teenager. I want to have good regrets

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i was thinking about the trend where two people (couple or best friends who knows) would dance under a street light in the snow with snowman by sia playing in the background and i just think that is my specific brand of yearning

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my brother in christ my hair is black and ran slightly blue why are my hands purple

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she magnus on my archive till i hello jon. apologies for the deception but i rather wanted to make sure you started reading, so i thought it best not to announce myself.

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manifesting a boyfriend so hard rn you don’t even know.

this year (school year ig) is gonna be my year and that better include kissing at least one boy. either kissing one boy multiple times or kissing multiple boys. atp i’m not picky.

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This and a pretty boy with a crush on

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oughhh how to flirt with guys i need to learn how to fluster a boy and make him blush and flirt and call him pet names and hold him

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it’s so special to me that i can just rest my head against my friend’s knee. there’s nothinf romantic about it, just me seeking comfort and them providing it. it means they remembered that i find joy in physical affection and are willing to provide it.

it’s even better when they rest their hand on top of my head. it means they remembered when i mentioned that i love it when people play with my hair, when they just run their hands through it gently.

it’s special to me to be known, even more to be understood.

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I'm gonna kiss that pretty boy's face all over bro does not stand a CHANCE.

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the homoerotic tension between me and moving to a completely different town where i can change my name and start over fresh. where no one knows anything about me and nobody knows who i used to be.

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your honor i just wanna look at a boy. like i just wanna look at him and appreciate how pretty he is, and maybe he’ll notice my eyes on him and he’ll just smile and look back.

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K-POP DEMON HUNTERS IS TAKING OVER MY BRAIN.

and my tumblr/tiktok but that’s unrelated

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my coworkers have no idea that I draw deltarune in my free time

I'm like batman if batman drew burghley and tried not to laughed his ass off

my incoherent midnight berdly sketches ^

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I hope you all know, my goal in life is to be a loser teenage boy

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chat i’m losing it i literally just want to kiss a boy