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it's true and you should say it.

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It sucks so much that it took years for me to figure my gender out, so many years never feeling fully satisfied calling myself anything, because of joint transphobia from cis people and misogyny + exorsexism from other trans people. Like, on one hand I had cis people try to force me to be feminine, pushed me into being A Woman in a way that made me so uncomfortable and dysphoric that I became extremely avoidant and negatively biased towards it, thought I had to be a man and only a man or otherwise I would have to be that same thing getting forced onto me. Then while I was growing up there were transmeds everywhere, I briefly was one after some adults pulled my 14 year old self into a Discord server from Tumblr because I was openly IDing as a demiboy. And obviously they, all together, were able to dismantle a younger teenagers half-baked arguments and understanding of Big Scary Words and they sounded smart, so I thought they must be right. Then being surrounded by misogyny, the constant discourse about queer women of this or that group, the right-wing and antifeminist memes of my teen years being everywhere, Gamergate, transmeds... it only made me feel both unhappy in my manhood because it was so focused on self-hate, but it also unknowingly made me internalize so much misogyny and basically made the idea of also being a woman sound like a horrible, awful thing. Not great when you're both

But there's a silver lining to it, from when I got pulled out of the transmed spiral into hell, that I still remember to this day. There was this trans guy on my bus who was just... the most radiant and incredibly positive person I'd ever met. He was always there for me when I was going through all that depression and moping around, no matter how ridiculous I thought I was being, he showed me happy music and patted my back and was just. Always a friend! And he barely even knew me! One day I find out two things. First of all, he didn't have gender dysphoria. And it confused the hell out of me, because The Worms had taken over my brain and I thought, wait, what, aren't those people [insert horrible stereotype here]? That shook me hard enough. But THEN, not long after I found out the guy- this positive, unconditionally kind guy who was seemingly friends with everyone- was getting bullied. By almost all the other trans people in my school, including ones I thought were nice. Purely for not having gender dysphoria. And I realized how fucked up my new "friends" twice my age really were and said fuck that, bye assholes! Shout out to Marco the best trans guy of all time.

About a year later, largely thanks to Marco, I was very open about being trans. I didn't know I was nonbinary yet, but I was much more comfortable in my manhood and went by just a male name and pronouns despite not "passing" at all. And I met this person who at the time was IDing as a cis pan guy. We became REALLY good friends, I sometimes got asked kinda weird questions but I was open to it, I knew my friend's parents were conservative and not everybody's gonna know everything, though I did put my foot down [gently] a couple times when I needed to. I just existed, openly, around people. And just last year, I got an email from her. It turned out, she was a trans woman and she had no idea that was even an option for her. And what helped her figure it out? According to her, it was meeting me. Realizing it was an option, because I didn't hide who I was in front of a supposedly cis person who was confused, but never mean, always tried. Hearing that was fucking life-changing

I think my point to all of this is like. Actually, being open about who you are is a good thing. I don't think you should ever feel ashamed for being open about yourself and living confidently with it. You might not realize it, but you literally change people's lives and make them realize that they don't have to be miserable purely by existing openly. That being trans can bring you joy and happiness. Marco, purely by being nice to me and being open about his identity, pulled me out of a self-hating spiral that was built on harassing trans kids. I, purely by existing, helped a trans girl who didn't even know what the hell a transgender person was, who didn't always use the right language and who I openly talked to about being trans anyways, correcting but never shaming her for it, realize that she could be trans, too. Your open existence literally brightens people's lives

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Diversity win: you’re a weird little thing

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I WANT A BOYFRIEND SO BAD

ahem— anyways

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dump his ass. move to a walkable city. start hormones. get into fiber crafts. dye your hair weird. grow an herb garden. foster a distrustful cat. take a welding class. invite your friends over for tea and cake. get way too into obscure media. explore a new cuisine. lie to the police. protest in the streets. life has so many possibilities don't it?

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very true. pinterest and youtube are why i’m here

"tumblr humor is only funny to tumblr users" NOT true. those bitches on pinterest love us.

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I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.

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Well those are allllmost done

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Our 10000000 Mouthwash order from humans never arrived PONY EXPRESS SUCKS

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hey i’m Genesis, which is made obvious by my username lol

my pronouns are they/them/theirs

i’m queer and nonbinary

i’m also very neurodivergent

also my profile picture is from this picrew:

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hi people, been a while lol

quick rundown:

i got ghosted by the guy i liked, then got a girlfriend a few months later

we were together for like 7 months, i broke up with them. not gonna share any bits about our relationship because privacy

but hey, i’m back now and i’m back on my yearning shit, just not for a specific person

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i’ve never been in a relationship. for most of my life so far, i was completely fine with that.

then, i started liking this guy.

we went on a date.

we went to prom together.

i really really hoped that it would become something.

i hoped we could be partners. that he would be my boyfriend.

i hoped to go on more dates with him and spend more time with him.

it was the closest i’ve ever been to a relationship.

before, i didn’t realize how much i want that.

and it hurts now that i have a glimpse of that.

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Reblog for me to send you a stupid ask!

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among us blanket

make a salad but your contribution is the object nearest to you

tag people if u want idk

i'll start:

UNO CARDS

@post-unuwuifer @yes-im-youtube-kids @microsoft-edge-real @the-red-planet-mars @bingle-official

@wordswordsorswordswords @india-reblogs

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don’t worry everyone the doctor who wiki has everything under control

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need a cute guy to cuddle with to fall asleep in their arms😭