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I just want to watch the US Open men's final. Instead it's fucking delayed because orange faced buffoon decided to come. He can barely play golf he wants to watch tennis?!? Must be so exhausting destroying USaid; he must need a break. Fucking prick.

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A post only for the ladies: like when u go see the gynecologist for the pap test, part of u is like, "well this is going to be uncomfortable and hurt" and you kind of expect it. Today marks the best pap test I've ever had. It was painless. Quick. This woman was a fucking gentle genius. I could have hugged her. I've had other female gynecologists before but this....this was the best test I've ever experienced. I had to tell someone so....yeah you guys are the lucky recipients.

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The level of joy in my heart for Taylor and Travis is off the charts. This is a love story that we all needed right now. I'm stupidly happy for them, and I just feel like...it's such joy in a US full of darkness.

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Seinfeld – 8.04: The Little Kicks

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I'm watching the Red Sox game on ESPN. By far the WORST commentating I've ever listened to. Good Lord. Love Ceddanne but for fucks sake these guys suck ass.

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Feeling wistful tonight.

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occasionally I am struck dumb by the sublime beauty of the world in the small moments, you know?

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I was enjoying the Red Sox game and now I'm fucking irritated so I'm changing the channel. Ggrrr

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He looks like Voldemort.

What a xenophobe.

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I would laugh harder at this if it wasn't so accurate. I don't actually vomit but I pretty much dry heave at least once every morning. I say to my body each time "really? Again? Can we not do this? Like wtf." Then I wake up the next day and repeat the process.

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Hahaha tell me you have ADHD without telling me u have adhd

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Yeah, I feel the same. I am unable to direct my overall fury into some protest. I don't know what to do as one person, but the loss of something so monumental to my childhood is sad. It's an awful feeling.

I'm so sad in such a strange way to hear about the Corporation for Public Broadcasting officially shutting down. It's a weird feeling. Most of it is the intellectual level of "oh this is SO fucking bad and terrifying that we'll no longer have federally supported public information channels anymore, it will ALL be through the private market, not to mention the stark reminder of the US government's continued descent into anti-intellectualism and fascism," all of which makes my stomach sink.

But on a smaller level it is the disappearance of something that was so ubiquitous to American childhood. I'm pretty sure the vast majority of Americans can hear the exact intonation of this phrase in their head: "This program made possible by the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, and by viewers like you. Thank you."

There is a lot more that could be said about the likely repercussions of this. In addition to being sad, I am also exceedingly furious. I wish despair upon all the Republicans who helped kill the CBP just because it took its mission seriously and refused to broadcast overt right-wing propaganda as news.

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Maybe love stays. Maybe love can’t. Maybe love shouldn’t. Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to. And love leaves exactly when love must. When love arrives, say, ‘Welcome. Make yourself comfortable.’ If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her. Turn off the music, listen to the quiet. Whisper, ‘Thank you for stopping by.’

Sarah Kay & Phil Kaye; When Love Arrives