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Had a really shitty past few days and kinda binged :/ might kms atp

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Got forced to break my fast at only 15 hours in :// I'm so pissed off, it was 200 cals and I purg3d after but still. Starting a new one now, let's home my family will leave me alone for a few days at least.

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13 hours in and I hunger

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Am I the only one who sees this?

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Currently 8 hours into my fast <3 cigarette for breakfast yummyyy

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Just start3d my fast <3 hoping for a min of 3 daysss

If anyone want to join Ms go ahead and dm me!! 18+ please

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Old tumblr thinspo 👽

All pics from 📌

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why do i have such ugly a$$ body build , even if i would be only skin and bones i wouldn't look good cause i look like a fu€k@$$ block , im so jealous of girls with naturally pretty bodies

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just cracked 5 days no f00d

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How much longer till im skinnier, how much longer till its my next meal, how much longer till i pass out, are my legs gonna last? is it too much to ask..?

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i always binge when i see the tiniest bit of progress it’s so pathetic

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Starting a 3 day f@st in 5 hours <3

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heres me : this is actually pretty accurate lmao (my hair is blonde for like 3 days then itll be purple)

all the pressure tags!!/j : @wasted-kay @remysdead @normalcysboringg @imliterallyjustagirls-blog @tinyboyangel @dr-boness @bedrotter13 @bl1sx @justanotheridentitycrisis @magicalspellrebel @problematicpastries @velethfasts

Trying to start a tag game-

Here's me:

Tags: @salubriousbean @fictionalmenjusthitdifferent @the-art-of-psalrmararue @cyarikaskywalker @salubriousbean @chibai06 @foxcism @sev-says-so @beskar-of-a-bygone-era @liopleurodean + open!!!

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My hair is now kinda blonde kinda green 😭

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You're already miserable, why not be miserable and thin?

You're sad that you're fat, so you eat? It doesn't make sense. I'm sad that I'm fat, so I eat. No matter how much food I fill my lungs with, the air stays the same. The same air that I inhaled when I was a kid, the air i exhaled when I had my first heartbreak. The sadness that consumed my thoughts and weighed me down when I first met my obsession. Having an illness that constantly compares me to those around me is the very thing i live for; that I breath for. Middle school, being weighed in gym, I remember vividly. The extra oil that my mother cooked the broccoli in, I remember vividly. Punching and banging my head hoping that I would finally have the willpower, strength, determination, illness. I have fully convinced myself that I do not have a "real" problem. I am not underweight. I do not have a thigh gap. I do not pass out. I have a "normal" BMI. No one is concerned about me. Am i faking it? of course I'm not. I have had this thing in my head for years, and it wont go away? Am i doing it wrong? I have studied every recovery video and every triggering post, every girl who has struggled with it, learning their ways silently in the dark room that I hide in, scared to leave in fear of the glowing refrigerator light. I am worthless. I want something this so bad. I need to be thin. I need to scare people. but why? I exhale, I inhale, all day long, and my lungs stay the same. I'm at peace. Until, I turn my doorhandle and exhale with regret because I know what is about to happen, and so does the voice in my head, who has once again failed to make me perfect. I fill my mouth with fruit, crackers, almond milk. Then one cookie (158), another cookie? No. Stop. What am I doing? I can't keep doing this. I CANT KEEP DOING THIS.

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Little bit of a b0dy ch3ck!!! Lmk if you'd like more and what your thoughts are on these. Not the best pics (shitty old laptop) but hope you like them <33

34.5kg - BMI 13.8

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The way this trigger3d me is insane