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— Daphne du Maurier

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to sow the seeds

in your lamb's mind

to wring the neck

every time a sick puppy whines

teach, feed, obey

father, son, mother

treat his wife like you have

maybe then you've won

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Federico Fellini

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i would never be a therapist because that's who i've been all my life. i wonder if i would ever let myself be a mother.

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run your fingers across my visage

like my pupils are old petals

and when i protest

cut my tongue out

so that our children will be born without a voice

but through violence and erasure

we still exist and breathe

through the water in the creek

through the wind in the trees

through all the little animals

who treat their women more kindly

than men ever will

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I told a boy in the dugout That I did not believe in God. He moved away from me, As if it were catching.

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flowers are meant to be watered

and the little weeds

which hack and fight through broken concrete

do they not need sunlight and love too

do they not need a reason to exist

underneath all that pavement

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I hope you think of me,

and that it shakes you,

that my memory,

lingers like a bruise

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“Because with the right person, sometimes kissing feels like healing.”

— Lisa McMann

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the passion in the trees ₍ ₎˚୨୧

its what you feel when the breeze grazes your neck

when someone laughs awkwardly

or when you lock eyes

and you speak through your pupils

a silent "i want you too"

it's the blades of grass brushing against your knees

an accidental touch, or two

when someone writes you a song

or a poem

it's finding one another in a crowd

it's what i was never sure of with you

because i've always known it with another

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blinding little eyes

the line has been cast 

and i’ll take the bait every time 

with red, broken lips 

the iridescent glow of your eyes 

drew me in every time 

i found you shivering under a streetlight 

and offered you food

when i had not enough to eat

and offered you a bed 

when i had not a place to sleep

pink, wrinkled skin 

clinging on to paper thin bones 

but in my eyes, when i’m on my last leg

i’ll still see that iridescent glow

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just put me down

the room drains of color

my face too

my eyes go from brown to blue 

because suddenly i really see you

my wrists are black and blue 

i’ve always been chained to you 

my lips are black and blue 

i always drink when i think of you 

i hope you think it’s worth it 

when you find me passed out on your front porch 

i know how to let myself in

and your freshly painted house 

the room with a crib 

the bedroom where you hold her close 

i watch your bodies rise together 

hearts in perfect harmony

as mine finally gives out

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castle combe awaits

wash the knots out of my hair 

run your fingers through my veins 

tell me you’ll never leave 

and we’ll rot in bed 

in a pool of our own sweat

all you’ve ever wanted 

is to keep me in that room with you 

suffocating doesn’t feed me anymore 

but i’ll always keep that door open 

in case you decide to follow suit

magari un giorno 

saprai amare 

e non mi farai più provare il peggio 

magari un giorno 

capirò come non amare un altra versione

di me stessa

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marathon to the end

would you steal me from my thoughts

overburden me with the physical 

anything and everything in me aches

i run across lawns every time i fall in love

undress me so my shoulders protrude 

color my lips black and blue 

anything and everything in me loves

i drink every time i fall in love

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mounting wish

i have spent countless hours 

declaring my respect for you

and how sure, 

you’re everything i’ll ever look for 

but i would never cross that line 

and how sure,

i will look for you in everyone i meet 

and none of them will ever pass 

because i only like looking at you

somewhere along the way,

somewhere in the fear and desire 

my heart gave in 

and stopped pretending 

and now, my worst thought yet,

i want you 

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my whirlpool, my love

sometimes i picture you lying beside me

a hand reaches out, you stroke my hair

and when the electricity sparks

our bodies move, lips against one another

you taste like you always have

and i would surrender myself for you

but i'm lying in bed alone

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nobody's home

just remember me smiling

when the light's gone from my eyes

just remember me smiling

and if one day i spill my heart to you

put it out of mind

i already know, don't cry

i already know

i've always known

when my knuckles brushed against yours

and your hot breath lingered on my neck

i know you felt it too