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You don't have to struggle in silence

Demi Lovato

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The most common question ever

 Ever since I was a kid I have been asked the same question over and over again “what do you want to be when you are older” and this question alone gives me anxiety. I know this is stupid but this question makes so many “what ifs” swarm in my head it feels like Its going to explode. When i was a kid my answer to this (like any other kid) was “I want to be famous” now that I am a teenager you cant really say that anymore or you will get weird looks,laughed at , or get told that it is”unrealistic” or “stupid” the closest thing I get to that dream is lip singing to Harry Styles and Ariana Grande pretending that I am great at singing and loved by most of the world. Then it is like I wake up in this same world realizing there is nothing really special about me. I cant sing and most of the other things I have tried I have never been the best at. So I guess this may be the closest I may get to my dream and that may be depressing to some because I have 0 follower or likes but to me it means the world because it means maybe I don’t need to give up on my dream.Now when someone asks “what do you want to be when your older” I remember 8 year old me smiling up at them saying I want to be famous and right now I am thinking where did the time go.

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I am here with you

Anxiety is something I think I have had most of my life. 40 million people in the world have anxiety and 7% of kids have anxiety. This is a really hard topic for most people to talk about and right now I am trying not to be like “most people'' That's why I'm writing my thoughts. Google says anxiety is Intense, excessive, and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations. In my opinion it's hard describable. The only way you will feel the weight of it is if you have it. I know it's something I want to rip apart, stomp on and throw away. I have always been an active person. Soccer, basketball, swimming, golf, you name it I have done it. For most people this sounds stupid “sports is an optional thing it doesn't matter get over it” but today I quit this season of basketball (which I have never done in the 7 years I have done it) because my anxiety was too much. I was thinking “what if I cant do it” “what if they hate me””what if I look stupid trying”. I guess the definition in my book for anxiety is “what if” it controls me, makes me feel worthless. I am not trying to make you feel depressed or try to make you like this but just know That if your going through what I am you can always talk to me and If you do want to follow me lets get through this together.

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