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Spot the difference

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Andrew Garfield on consent and privacy

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Canon Feelings anyone?

My first time having intense feelings for someone was .... obviously when I was 13. It's like what they call in fanfiction, hmmm what is it? Yeah, canon. CANON?! I generally hear nobody acts on these feelings but has anyone ever tried? I think I regret this to certain extent, but also the excitement at the uncertainty was too good to give up. I'm pretty sure he never like me back but I liked him for years. And I still do. But that's because those moments are frozen in time. I only know and remember him from that time. My memories are defined by my experiences and surroundings at that time. But if I met him now? I don't know. There's a good chance I wont feel the same way, but honestly I'm scared of the possibility of still loving him. I'm sacred that I'll still have the same earning and he won't. I'm scared that when I look at him I'll think of all the good times with a tinge of despair and when he looks back he won't have more than a passing thought. It's crazy that someone can have so much impact on you and you can spend years thinking about them. The only solace I find in this is that maybe.., just maybe- someone else is there. Who thinks about me the same way I think about him.

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Nessian

Mor sipped her tea, the portrait of elegant innocence. “We’d be better off throwing Nesta into the Court of Nightmares. She’d thrive there.” Cassian clenched his jaw, both at the insult and the truth. “That’s exactly the sort of existence we’re trying to steer her away from.”

This is upsetting. I hope the next book turns out better for Nesta.

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My wife and I have a little game we play called "Speaking From Ignorance."

To play Speaking From Ignorance, all you need is a phone with a voice recorder, and another person who knows considerably more or considerably less about a topic than you do. The topic can be anything: from "how to bake a quiche" to "what happens in the Peter Jackson Hobbit movies" to "who is Florence Pugh" to "how does the traveling salesman problem work." All that matters is that one of you has a firm grasp on the material, and one of you absolutely the fuck does not.

Then the person who knows about the topic turns on the recorder, and says to the person who knows barely anything: "Hey - tell me everything you think you know about [X]."

The speaker is then not allowed to ask any questions. Nor is the expert allowed to volunteer any information. The expert is allowed to pipe up with a faintly incredulous "Oh--really? Do you--do you think so?" from time to time, but for the most part, the expert's job is just to sit there and make encouraging sounds while the speaker digs their own grave.

This is never not funny.

The reason you record it is because, very often, the first thing the speaker wants to do after finishing the recording is find out how you actually make a quiche, or whatever. Then you both get to go back and listen to how wrong they were.

We have a small library now of Speaking From Ignorance recordings, and I'm going to be listening to them until I'm eighty.

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This was just screaming to be written somewhere

I think a lot about the lyric "I don't want to look at anything else now that I saw you".

Maybe it's the way she says its with reverence, as if she can't bear to see or think of anything else. Or maybe it's because it makes me realise that soon things will be alright, I just have to wait for the right person. And that when I fend the right person, nothing else will matter. Not the years that I have been cast aside or the reasons why I think I've been cast aside. Because I just don't care anymore.

I'll come back home to this person and all these feeling that I've had for years (where I've been forgotten, or missed out, or just not cared enough about) will vanish and in their warmth I'll laugh at the fact that I ever bothered to care.

I'll finally not have the need to prove anything to anyone. I'll live life on my terms cause I know there will be someone waiting for me to pick me back again and again no matter how stupidly I mess up. Someone who finds me endearing.

I think about all of this when I hear this song, this lyric especially. And now, it's my saving grace. When things go wrong, I just home this song, when I am crying I hum this song, when I'm absolutely alone I go on a walk and listen to this song.

Thinking one day and maybe one day I can be that person for someone too. And if I'm really lucky I can be that person for myself.

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This song has my heart.

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@nestaarcheronweek | Day Seven: Free Day

And for the last day of my favorite event of the year, I reserved a fanart that I’ve been saving for a while. It’s not so much about the couple itself, but about discovering people who respect and like Nesta so much and honor through writing a character as incredible as her, and needing to thank, in some way, these authors of the fandom, among so many others, who dedicate their time, knowledge, talent (all of this for free), and constantly allow me to rediscover and fall in love with Nesta in different worlds, at different moments, from new perspectives, countless times. You are the best.

From left to right, in this beautifully illustrated artwork by Jessica, we have:

My Fire Was Fate With You by @moodymelanist

SAPPHIC!NESSIAN (IN ALL CAPS). This fanfic is so unintentionally made for me that I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve read and reread it, and I should even feel ashamed (or not), but I don’t. This bisexual who prefers sapphic relationships felt her little world blessed the day Morgan decided to publish My Fire Was Fate With You.

A Favor by @ncssian

Possibly the number 1 recommendation from anyone who has read it, A Favor really is everything everyone says it is. How the author (re)imagines the characters and their relationships is fantastic and brilliant.

Semper Eadem by @whyisaravenlike-awritingdesk

I’m fascinated by listening to and reading people talking about subjects they like and are experts in, and Semper Eadem, besides leaving me kicking my feet from beginning to end, exposes delicious aspects of the Elizabethan period, which left this South American eager to read not only each chapter, but also the historical notes.

Of Death and Resurrection by @kale-theteaqueen

See, almost everyone talks about and recommends (deservedly) To Pay a Debt, but I first came across Kale’s writing through Of Death and Resurrection, and I can’t think of this fanfic without getting emotional. It was something I didn’t know I NEEDED until I read it. Not exaggeratedly, how many times have I heard “Nesta”, “Cassian” or “Rhysand”, among others, and immediately thought of this fanfic instead of canon.

Although I only chose four, I love everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, that these authors have written, and continue to write, because you can see in every sentence the respect they have for Nesta.

For that, my sincerest thank you!

Art by: Jéssica Brasil (jessi.brasilart)

Commissioned by: @podemechamardek

🚫 Please do not repost.

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𝓝𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓪 𝓦𝓮𝓮𝓴 𝓓𝓪𝔂 7: 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓮 𝓓𝓪𝔂

Here I have a fun AU Nesta and Gwyn art of them as Taylor Swift and Florence Welch during their performance of Florida!!! On the last night of London. Nesta having the support from Gwyn when she was at her lowest is why their friendship is one of my favorites in the series.

Anyone watch the grainy live of this performance? that’s when the inspiration hit. @/evaroseart did an absolutely gorgeous rendition I am absolutely in love with it.

Art by evaroseart on instagram

Commissioned by me for @nestaarcheronweek

Characters belong to Sarah J. Maas

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color study but make it caitvi wedding !!

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Conrad's clearly looking at Jere but he's looking at Audrey hmmmmmmm

I’m calm

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TSITP TEASER

DAYLIGHT AND RED. THE TRANSITION!! I love the first cut where she sings I don't wanna look at anything else.

Omg this might finally break me. And Daylight for Jeremiah? Does this mean they are endgame? And she's literally wearing red when she sees Conrad.

This teaser was done so beautifully, I can't wait till July.

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Just a Rant

I hate that I'm feeling valid emotions and concerns. Because life has been shit for a long time. Maybe I'm making it shit cause I feel that I have to inflict maximum pain on myself for a great future.

But then my period comes along and I have to be "Oh, you're just feeling this because you are having your periods. It's alright there's nothing to be worried about."

And because of this shitty thing I can't even call anyone and have a good cry, I hate this.

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PERCY JACKSON FANS HEAR ME OUT!

It’s season 3 of the PJO show AKA The Titans Curse. Percy (Walker) is sitting in front of Aphordite Goddess of Love and Beauty who just so happens to look like an older version of his best friend Annabeth (Leah) totally unrelated we’re sure.

Then he blinks and the beautiful woman in front of him changes….now she has brown hair and blue eyes she smiles, its Alexandria Daddario movie Annabeth. Just a split second cameo and then she’s gone.

Now a different woman is sitting in front of Percy, a woman with blonde hair and hazel eyes Kristen Stokes Lightning Thief Musical Annabeth. She shifts and changes again.

The final and last woman we see before Percy has curly blonde hair, tanned skin, and stormy grey eyes it’s book Annabeth.

Percy doesn’t realise it but we do. The Goddess of love shows him every version of the girl he loves from every universe he loves her in. It’s beautiful, it’s cinema, it needs to happen.

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You ever hear that old chestnut about how most people neglect the part of the story of Icarus where he also had to avoid flying too low, lest the spray of the sea soak his feathers and cause him to fall and drown? You ever think about how different the world would be if Icarus died that way instead? If the idiom was to Fly To Close To The Sea? A warning against playing it far too safe, about not stretching your wings and soaring properly? You ever think about how Icarus died because he was happy?

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