insightanddelight

[insightanddelight]

Where Have I Been? And a New Introduction.

Hi there! It's been a while...curious to know what's happening in my life? Read on.

So, okay, wow, over ten years later and I finally feel comfortable enough to tell the world about me.

30 years young. A Libra. And a woman with epilepsy. Yep, that's pretty much what it's all about. 

...then again, maybe it's not. 

Insight + Delight is a little writing corner so that I can share my journey with the world, and give some insight into what it’s like to live with epilepsy. There are so many challenges and struggles that one will have to overcome in life. Then, there's the delight with the happiness that follows afterwards. 

It's definitely a lifelong voyage with some high and low tides, and maybe a storm here and there, but all in all, the vista is always wonderful.

And also, what is the purpose of why I'm starting this blog?

What's the blog about? Well, keep on a readin' to find out...or just maybe, what I'm about, too.

For those who don't know who I am, my name's Suzanne and I have epilepsy.

As for those who do know me...surprise, I’m back!

I’ve been off the grid for about six years now. It's funny how years fly by, right? If you’ve missed my beauty blog and YouTube channel, maybe even my wedding photography, I would say I’m sorry, but I’m not.

That’s what some people have said. Yeah, well, get over it. I don’t mean that rudely or obnoxiously, but it’s about basic understanding. People need to learn to hear the full story, not just the headline, because it doesn’t tell you everything. We can relate that to judging someone as well.

So, there’s that whole ‘I apologise,’ concept, but honestly, I shouldn’t have to. In the future, a whole post will be about mental health, but we’re going to put that on pause for now.

I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t miss what I’ve done, because I do. However, many things happened in my life and have changed it so much to a point that it’s hard to find the strength to move on—even when you’re forced to do that.

As of right now, my little wedding photography business is put on an indefinite hiatus until further notice; but even if it’s a chapter that’s completely over in my life, I’m perfectly okay with that.

What’s the reason, you may ask? Well, it’s because I’m at a point in my life where I’m content.

I’m truly happy.

And no, I didn’t italicize that because I’m trying to be sarcastic, it’s because I’ve never been so sure about something.

“Happiness is a direction, not a place.” ��� Sydney J. Harris

It’s hard to come to that realisation when you feel like everything is going wrong in your life, and you’re stuck, surrounded by hundreds of walls, or you’re just in the centre of a maze and can’t get out—that’s how I felt for years. 2017 and 2018 were incredibly hard for me.

Medications decided to play dirty with my brain, and it wasn’t nice—not one bit. It wasn’t just that, though, it was with my hands too.

You can easily say that photography and tremors don’t exactly go hand-in-hand, do they now?

Wow, the irony of that. I mean, it's great. Really.

Now, you see, that was sarcasm.

But, as I’ve mentioned, I’ve come to realise that it’s okay for things to suddenly come crashing into your life without any warning whatsoever, messing absolutely everything up. It’s exactly what happened to me, and on multiple occasions since my diagnosis; however, the past few months is when I realised that there were also so many things that helped make me feel better than just ‘okay.’

That’s where I’ll repeat my previous statement from up above—I’m happy.

But recently, I’ve been writing and wanting to become an author—precisely, a novelist. It turns out, this whole time I’ve spent feeling sorry for myself, I found out that I have a talent for writing. I’ve taken courses in creative writing and have a professional certificate for it.

Would you look at that? Even when I’m not able to leave the house at times, I still found ways to try and be successful.

Now, you also might be wondering what’s up with this name. Insight + Delight?

I mean, how many of you know what epilepsy’s actually about? My guess is that not many of you raised your hand. Well, with the future posts, that arm will raise an inch each time.

My goal and purpose in starting this blog is to try and be an inspiration to others, and hopefully, I’ll be able to succeed. I want to be the person who I was looking for when I didn’t have anyone and be a helping hand to support others who have epilepsy. Who knows, maybe even at the same time, I'll give some insight into what it’s like for those who don't.

Catch my drift?

There’s so much more about epilepsy that not many people know about it because they don't know someone who is epileptic. Or maybe, you recently found out someone is diagnosed with it. So, my plan is to give you some of the ins and outs, the highs and the lows, all based on my experience. Feel free to stick around if you’re up for that, and maybe one day, you can be that someone for someone else. The posts might not all be about the disorder, because it’s also not what life’s all about. You’ll see. I mean, it’s just filled with pure delight.

Ain’t that the truth?

As for my entire epilepsy story, from the very start, and what happened after first being diagnosed, I’ll leave that for a whole post on its own. You might need a nice cup of coffee or tea while you read that one. Maybe even some snacks.

And honestly, for the first time, I’m completely, utterly, and beyond thrilled to share it soon.

Suzanne’s Epilepsy Journey and More Coming to a blog post near you.

P.S. This has been reposted since October 2020, and information has been updated.