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Today I deleted all of my calorie counting, weight tracking, ED related apps. If you think MyFitnessPal, MyNetDiary, any of those apps are anything but a tool for your ED you're wrong. I have never once in my journey of recovery required a calorie counting app, but I required 3 during the height of my ED.

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This morning I woke up and got out of bed. The first thing on my mind was not recovery. It was "how am I going to not eat today" then as I made my way into the kitchen for my black coffee, I said "I really want a PSL today" and I deserve one, not because I've done anything, it's not a reward. I deserve one because I want one, simple as that. And then the thoughts of recovery kicked in, and I became inspired. I love myself, why am I doing such irreparable damage to my body? My blood sugar got so low yesterday I nearly fainted. It's time to stop, it's time to recover.

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I have returned from a long couple of months of struggling with my ED. I am here and ready to work on my recovery. I have made a facebook group to coincide with my Tumblr Community, and would love it if you joined.

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I've relapsed into my ED - will not be posting for a while or maybe I will, not sure yet, but I don't want this page to be consumed with ED content. So if you don't see me for a while, just know I'm hiding somewhere probably starving myself. I'm sorry to anyone I've disappointed.

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I have become the very thing I’ve sworn to destroy, but I need serious motivation.

10 notes and I'll try to somewhat read a book

50 notes I'll drink two bottles of water per day

100 notes I'll eat a protein bar

150 notes I wont fast for a day

200 notes I'll ask my mom for a chest binder

250 notes I'll talk to my mom about my paranoia

300 notes I'll talk to my dad about my mental health (he doesn't know about any of it)

350 I'll start actually posting my little doodles

400 notes I'll start trying to make some more actual art and post it

1k notes and I'll try to get counseling for my ED

Green means done and red means in progress

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Me nursing a foot that I broke in FEBRUARY that's not healing properly because I won't slow the heck down.

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Recovery sucks sometimes...

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To any suicidal followers I may have: This is a sign to not kill yourself. You are loved and the world is special because you are in it. Keep holding on.

-PLEASE REBLOG THIS YOU MAYBE ARE SAVING SOMEONES LIFE

You are special and amazing , If you need to talk or some help send me a dm and I will talk to you.

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The SUMMARY of my workday. For once I felt my age...almost 40 trying to fit in with a bunch of 20 something's.

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“I’m not everything I want to be, but l’m more than I was, and l’m still learning.”

— Charlotte Eriksson, Everything Changed When I Forgave Myself

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reblog if you think sign language should be taught as a language in schools.

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Fear doesn't prevent you from dying, fear prevents you from living.

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