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I have a first paragraph. I have an end. And fuck all else. Work backwards… work backwards yes. You see I simply have no fucking clue. I have random scenes some adorable some violent. But actual plot? We don’t know her.

[itsplutotime]

I’m just gonna use this as a way to be a shit person. Maybe not a shit person maybe just tired and trapped. Basically don’t mind the vent.

I do everything for him. Literally everything. And somehow that’s not enough and I’m trying my best but oh no. Not good enough. He used love like a weapon and when I show that I’m upset in any way he tells me there’s nothing to be upset about. I can’t fucking leave for more than three hours cause I’m a goddamn caretaker. I didn’t ask for this role. I didn’t want this role. I do not have the mental stability for it. But did I ever get a say in the matter? Nope! So here I am. Doing my best while he throws slurs and criticism and manipulation and conveniently forgets the shitty things he’s done and said throughout my life. And yes I know. He’s my grandfather. I’m supposed to care. But I am so beyond the point of being able to give a fuck anymore. I want to move out. But I can’t. Because fuck my life I guess. Need a job to be able to leave. Need to be able to leave to have a job. My mom says a few months and if it isn’t better we’ll talk like that makes the fact that I haven’t gotten a fucking break since September okay. Like… man I am tired and so far beyond done it’s not even funny. And this man… just the entitlement and the fact that he did this to himself but blames everyone but him? Nah… no. Fuck all the way off. I am not a nurse. I did not and do not want to be one. If I did, I would have gone to school for that. But even they get to go home at the end of the day. And oh yeah had a say in doing it. He doesn’t want me to hate him but says hateful things. He says sorry, doesn’t say why he’s sorry and nothing changes anyways so doesnt matter. And I’m just… here. You know I can’t even really go outside? The two minutes I had today was the first time I was outside in 2 weeks.

[itsplutotime]

When your “progressive” grandfather throws out homophobic slurs… and you’re just here like 🙃 🫠 …yeah that’s …something.

[itsplutotime]

if youre not worried about trans rights issues because "its only in the usa" then youre sorely mistaken, once theyre done fucking killing us in the usa, theyre coming for other countries too. there was already a terf protest in australia, given, they were drowned out by trans supportive people, but this shows that they wont fucking stop in just america. we need to do all we can to fight transphobes, fight for our rights, fight so we can fucking live safely.

[itsplutotime]

I finished Art Heist Baby

I’m actually going to go insane. Like that was beautiful and then …pain. Just ow.

[itsplutotime]

Tell me why I’m using art heist baby as a way to cope with crimson rivers …oh I’m fucked…

[itsplutotime]

…hey… what the actual fuck- but- no!

[itsplutotime]

‘You don’t have to be sorry  for leaving and growing up’

~ Matilda is for Sirius.

‘I can run, but I can’t hide From my family line’

~ Family Line is for Regulus.