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idk which david jenkins evidence pile this is going on but it's going on something

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Happiest of birthdays to the wonderful @gentlebeardsbarngrill 💛 I’m so grateful to know you and to be able to call you a friend 🫶🏻 you are the kindest, most thoughtful and caring person anyone could ever meet. You take the best nature photos and I cherish all of them! I love and adore you endlessly 💛 I hope you have the best day that you deserve 🎉🥳🎁🎈

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books of season one where each chapter starts with stede dictated captain’s log (and any notes or “actually here’s how it was” from lucius)

rewatching OFMD made me want David Jenkins to release it as a book series so there can be more from the first 2 seasons plus the idea he had for the final season

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the thing is that i just really love the glance ed gives stede during lucius and pete's matelotage not only because he is smiling in that way that makes his eyes crinkle but also because there is a such a fondness in it, half "i found this family thanks to you" half "it could be us too one day, i am ready to stay, are you?"

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they should start a band x

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I've had this screenshot sitting around for like a month bc every time I see it I get this vivid mental image of Stede laying back in bed, dick out and hard and leaking, messaging back and forth with Ed about all the things he wants to do for him and how he's gonna treat him so right, and Ed is like "pleeeease I'm so wet right now daddy 🥺" and Stede goes "show me, love 🩵"

Smash cut to Ed standing in a long line at a grocery store, just casually leaning on his shopping cart with a completely neutral expression on his face as he tries to figure out how to explain that he will gladly send a picture but it's gonna have to wait like 20 minutes

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happy father’s day to my favorite deadbeat

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hi gongeous happy pride <3

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

Help a nonbinary parent feed their family of 9 this month.

No matter how much my partner and me work every little jig we can find, it doesn't seem to be enough to keep food on the table.

We have multiple people with chronic pain and chronic illness, especially elderly. We need help getting to the constant doctor appointments for our diabetics and for my MiL's herniated discs, plus my bad liver and gallbladder.

One of the appointments is to file for a refill of insulin, to keep our 4 diabetics safe and alive.

We also need help with bills or we will get our lights and gas cut. We need to keep our fridge functioning or we'll lose the little food we got left.

We have a massive debt hanging over us, plus we owe two months of rent we're negotiating.

We live in a house full of mold, we even had to fix a literal hole on the roof this year.

And I need medication for life to be alive. I could get only one box last Monday cause the pharmacy ran out.

Please, it's been hell finding a job with our many ailments.

Anything helps!!!

$108/$800

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Our last post for transparency's sake

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going feral over stede and the bar scene in the finale, send help.

because in some ways, this is a continuation of the party scene in e5; only now, ed’s not here. his pain is theoretical, and stede still thinks they’ll never see each other again.

ed would never know if he let it go, this time. no one would ever know.

it’s tempting. stede’s brokenhearted and feeling utterly alone, and these men are offering him attention alongside a fucked up poison pill masquerading as acceptance. 

all he has to do is share a couple stories, so long as they’re the stories that confirm the horrible things these men so desperately need to keep believing, or realize they only thrive and profit off endless cycles of human misery. if that ever happened, they would be forced to make an active choice to keep perpetuating the misery or step away and become part of the solution.

which means: that cannot fucking happen. under no circumstances do they want to be in that very uncomfortable place. they like their lives, they like their clothes, they like their nice houses. they are just doing their best, they tell themselves; they do not go home at night and feel like they’re The Bad Guys.

so they do not want to hear about ed, who is lonely and confused and strong and super hot and very complicated and the most lovely person stede has ever met.

ed would fuck with their emotional economy. if ed exists and he is not subject to their definitions of the world and the reasons they made up and codified into science and law to explain why they have what they have, then hooooooly shit kids. holy shit: what the fuck else are we wrong about???

these are the thoughts they cannot think. world-shaking, identity-sundering thoughts. these thoughts fucking suck.

all they want is blackbeard. they do not want a man in all his beautiful nuance; the ways in which he is angry, the ways in which he is tender or silly or looks like an elvish prince or romance novel cover without the beard. ed, who kissed stede on the beach and was willing to give it all up for him isn’t the story they want.

they want a monster, born of the devil. they want to go gawk at the locals like the poverty tourist shtick from the republic of pirates, but without even having to leave the comfort of the home they stole. they already feel so fucking superior, but they want more. 

the hunger that gnaws at them has nothing to do with the food they can afford to take for granted. they will always want more. 

and now they want stede to feed them. they want him to show them that he had his wild fun, off with those little urban friends of his— now he’s back where he belongs, intemperate fit of madness over. 

he’s still weird, and he’s definitely still gay and they still do not like that at all, no sir, but in this moment they decide: for right now, he’s one of them.

this is how he can do it. this is how stede can win, just this once. now, he can give them someone else to gleefully chew on and bask in the shared glow of keeping somebody else down.

because here’s the catch: stede will no longer be one of them if he defends ed even a little, their pushback says. 

so make your choice, stede, these fucking assholes/the narrative says. what’s it going to be?

and because this show is very real and heartbreaking and understands that good and bad is not so much something people are, it’s something people do: stede slips up. the words come out of his well-meaning mouth, and he can’t take them back.

because mary hasn’t yet attempted murder with a skewer, stede’s still in his belly of the whale moment, so instead of remembering what he learned at the party (that now is the time to say fuck you fuckers, here or not ed would be horrified to hear this and thus i am horrified, because his pain is my pain now that i know it exists and then burn their lives down) he backpedals, but he doesn’t take it back.

ed’s a killer: the worst thing he could possibly say.

the secret ed told him—the secret i would guess ed has only spoken aloud to stede in that exact way— alone in their little bathtub confessional: he denied it. he knows that ed has hurt people and let people die, and while the morality hair is being split admittedly fine there along with the exact definition of murder, to ed that makes a difference. 

and because stede is flawed and human and kind of an asshole sometimes but at the end of the day, so so wonderful: he knows that even if ed will never know he said this, it matters. stede will know it happened, that these gross men wanted to point and laugh at his friend and the man he doesn’t yet understand he loves, and that stede didn’t protect ed from that.

the world ed moved in means he was told the acceptable methods of protection only have to do with the physical world; you teach a man to fight, you shield him with your body, you fuck around and jostle. he was starting to test those limits and move outside his box to allow his other instincts and desires to surface alongside the parts of himself he allowed out already, but these men don’t care about any of that. 

it’s supposed to be stede’s job to protect ed here, because ed is perfectly fucking capable but he shouldn’t have to, and because these are stede’s people — or more accurately, it’s everybody in the crew’s job to protect each other because that’s what a fucking family does, and without frenchie and abshir and the rest of his compatriots, stede wouldn’t have been able to do what he did at the party.

unfortunately stede left the crew when he left ed, even if he didn’t see it that way. they would have reminded him who he actually is: the gentleman pirate, thieved plant and all. they know he’s a weirdo and he might misuse all the oranges again, but they love him. part of loving him is knowing he’s still on his way to figuring it out, and giving him a little more room to grow within their space. that’s what you do when you love someone: even when they drive you nuts, you give them way more benefit of the doubt than you would some asshole on the street. (or in a bar.)

because he’s worth that love and kindness and does the same for others, stede tries; he redirects, won’t say another mean word about ed (won’t say a single word about ed, in fact) but the words he already said ring in his ears. he lied in a way that would be a particularly rough blow to ed’s feelings, he didn’t stand up for ed enough after that, and he fucking knows it.

so he stumbles back into the party and is a real shithead to mary (while… acknowledging she should absolutely be mad at him… for being a shithead. stede fuckin bonnet, i fuckin challenge you to c’mere a second i wanna give your complicated, sad face a gentle hug) but what he says is very, very important.

the gentleman pirate, he called himself at the bar. ed called him that when they met; the crew went full sports movie locker room speech vibes confirming it in front of the royal fucking navy and thus probably god. stede finally believed it in that moment, that he was achieving his vision of forging a new path in piracy. maybe all the nice things people said about him were… not something to just brush off???? seems fake, but big if true!!!!

and then chauncey’s big dumb mouth and big dumb gun blew that rising thread of confidence to absolute shreds along with his big dumb face, so here stede is: yelling at mary and pretending he’s not just yelling at himself.

he says mary needs to give up her fake title: he means, i hate myself. i was never actually that strong and loved man. i was not a gentleman or a pirate and i did not have a family. i was pathetic, there and here, and i will never be anything other than that.

my father was right.

and then mary has fucking haaaad it and tries to STAB HIM! IN THE EARHOLE! and we get like, the most gorgeous move into a journey out of the underworld/reverse lot’s wife deal where stede’s sin was not looking back and it’s going back and dying that heals him and i am. i am honestly sort of lowkey forever wanting to chew on this show like old bubblegum but it never seems to lose any flavor!!!! 

love it.

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Hellaur everyone. These are all prints on my Inprnt Shop

Happy Sailing!

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✨ Morning After Stiddies ✨ For @gentlebeard 🎉💜💙💍. Happy Birthday to my dearest, darling wifey! If I'm to gift you stiddies, they have to be the very best, most SACRED stiddies 😌💅. Nothing but the best for my babe; I love you so very much, and I hope you have the absolutely greatest day. Xoxo from afar........UNLESS

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Izzy being trans seems like a very common headcanon, and at first i'll admit i didn't get it at all since his main role in the show is really just "guy who rigidly enforces the expectations of toxic masculinity for everyone" and that didn't really work with a trans read of his character for me. i feel like modern Izzy would be posting "there is a war on masculinity" memes on his facebook. but upon thinking about it i have decided that more importantly it is very funny for him to have that personality and still be trans so here are the ways i think he could've become like that

a. he just decided to trade one set of rigid gendered expectations for another. at no point did he think "maybe having a set of rigid gender expectations is wrong," he's fine with that part

b. he was normal before he met Ed, at which point the narrative of Ed's life decided "well someone has to externalize Ed's whole deal with masculinity right" and then Izzy got knocked on the head and just woke up like this

c. he has just never had a complex thought about gender in his entire life. maybe he joined his first ship "pretending" to be a guy and then his brain just went "alright i guess we're doing this now"

d. as a child someone told him "girls don't swear" and since that's the majority of his personality he went "oh fuck, guess i'm a boy then" and just never thought about it again

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I’m ngl I don’t know if there’s another live-action show that’s lodged into my brain the way ofmd is

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There we go. Look at that. You were fine things well.