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I am back

I did not go dormant, I was forced out of front and we took an internet break.

I feel way better than before and a lot less angry. Ask me things, I don't know what I will do for now.

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What's your pronouns?

i don't know since when this ask is here but Jake uses it/xe pronouns mainly. it uses anything that isn't she, he or they.

(full set for both: it/it/its/its/itself and xe/xem/xeir/xeirs/xemself).

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my(bodily) sibling(they're genderfluid)'s best friend always says "i'm gonna touch you" and "i busted" to them and I'm kinda scrrd what do i do jake - 🎭

(Twinmask, The Cosmos Party)

responding for Jake cuz gatekeeper won't let xem front for the moment (for reasonable reason) :

it's understandable to be scared when someone says that. to anyone. the first thing to do is make sure your sibling is okay with that. the second thing i can say is to try to avoid their best friend if they make you uncomfortable. if you see an action that might be appropriate try to talk to your sibling

ultimately, if your sibling's best friend makes them uncomfortable, the best thing to do is talk to them.

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GROOMING NEEDS A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP AND IS ABOUT INAPPROPRIATELY CONVINCING THEM INTO DOING SEXUAL ACTS, ILLEGAL BEHAVIOR, OR VIOLENCE. OFFERING TULPAMANCY TO PEOPLE AS AN ALTERNATIVE TO A HOMOPHOBIC SECT OF A RELIGION IS NOT THE SAME AS GROOMING THEM INTO DOING SEXUAL STUFF OR CRIMES. CAN WE STOP WATERING DOWN THIS WORD FOR FUCKS SAKE

👍

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Being pro good faith identities and anti-endos is contradictory, by the way.

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not even saluting you cuz what i just read and your banner gave me a fricking headache and i am serious.

first of all: we are literally a ramcoa c-did, that is mostly traumagenic, system. but why do you interact when i'm literally endogenic.

second of all: there are studies that approve endogenic systems and even in the DSM it doesn't say it needs trauma.

third of all: claiming to be pro ALL good faith identities while being anti-endo is like saying you support xenogender folks but not transgender.

fourth of all: not all endogenic systems claim to have a cdd.... yk...

fifth of all: most system places irl are full of mixed origins and endogenic and non disordered systems.

last of all: you are the one who is uneducated, we literally had a hyperfix on cdd when we were younger. do better.

- not Meredith but call me Rabid.

Being pro good faith identities and anti-endos is contradictory, by the way.

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Can someone help me know how to make like... Nails hurt less?-

I (other sysmates do it too but I do it so most) bite them because of stress and now they are so short that they start to hurt

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Just a small post today

Plural/plurality was coined as inclusive to endogenic systems (from memory called "natural systems" back then), separating it from multiplicity as a term due to medicalisation.

We've been through this before.

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Non-traumagenic plurality: How could it be possible?

First off, let's start with what some anti-endo folk mean versus what they don't mean with traumagenic plurality

They mean systems caused by/as a response to trauma and traumatic events, and those who are still affetced by them, aka systems who are disordered, DID/OSDD/UDD.

What they don't mean is systems who have trauma in their origin along with other causes. They do not believe a system can very well be traumagenic but function smoothlessly due to recovering, or have multiple origins.

Note: We are a diagnosed DID system with mixed (trauma/ramcoa/neuro/para) origins. Yes, we know what we are talking about. No, that doesn't mean we can't do mistakes, but we will try our best to be as accurate as possible. We will include scientific articles, DSM-5 DID checklist, and many more in this post.

How can that be possible?

1st: Brains are quite complicated. Research on brain functions is far from being complete, it is a long road that we are still at the very beginning of. We still don't know how brain exactly works let alone how it can form seperate conscious identities and work them together. We do know headmates exist based on brain MRI's ( link here ) That proves us that systems indeed, exist.

2nd point i want to make is that science is not done in a linear fashion. We are studying to be neuroscientists ourselves and the very core of what makes science doable is MONEY. Yes, in this capitalist system even the most seemingly basic research requires funding, money, and a goal that can be monetized to get done. Reseaches on female autonomy, rare disorders and "demonized" disorders such as DID is therefore not often as it is not easily capitalized and funded.

Therefore we do not have enough research to prove or disprove that the only way of becoming a system is through childhood.

And that brings me to my 3rd point, where we will take a look at what DSM-5 (The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition) says about diagnostic crietria of DID. We will see how it is a dissocative disorder, not a trauma disorder.

Found under dissociative disorders (not trauma disorders!), checklist for DID is as follows:

See how none of those checklist include trauma as checklist? Yes DID is commonly caused by trauma but not always. Yes it commonly is created during childhood but not always. Those arent in diagnostic criteria.

Definitive feature is not trauma, it is distinct personality states or experience of possession.

DID is associated with traumatic events, does not mean it requires it.

DID can manifest at almost any age (DSM-5 is saying that, folks)

What's more is OSDD doesnt even have a definitive checklist like DID. it is found under differential diagnosis, with other disorders. PDID (partial DID where one part is frontstuck a majority of the time) is also up to psychiatrist's evaluation rather than a concrete checklist.

4th point is : What about Structural Dissociaton Theory?

This theory is as it goes: The theory of Structural Dissociation works off of the assumption that everyone is born with different ego states that later merge in life. Those different ego states operate for different actions in life, that later integrate into one person during ages of 4-6. Trauma disrupts that integration and causes ANP (apparently normal parts) and EP (Emotional parts). EP's are stuck in the trauma while ANP's are not.

source: The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization" by Onno van der Hart, Ellert Nijenhuis, and Kathy Steele. 

Yes, theory. Theories are not concrete. They can be disapproved, they can change, they may not fit every experience. Structural dissociation only explains how DID can manifest at childhood, but we already know by now that DID can manifest at almost any age.

So I personally think basing everything on a theory about how DID might've been caused (which doesn't even perfectly explain every possible way) is not as fault-proof as one might think it is.

Point 5: experiences of "multiple identities" exist for so long into history (people who are possessed, talk to themselves, act weird at times, are very different at times, etc), way before any DID/OSDD terms were created. And actually, how can we know how many people in history have had this experience when the very society we are in is very scared of them? It is fair to say only the disruptive cases must've been noticed, and majority of them probably were either deemed as crazy or exorcised as they believed those people were possessed by spirits. Just because your experience does not fit with others and just because science hasnt done anything to back them up, doesn't mean people's lived experiences are false. Why would so many people tell that they are a system when they are not? We are not living in a place where being a system is happy or fun, we are not in a society where its profitable or anything. It literally gives a person zero + points for being plural if they arent. It would be a nonstop roleplay they have to keep up throughout every aspect of their life; and at that point, it must be either impossible or that person is already plural and not roleplaying when no one is looking at them.

Creating headmates is on the same basket. A person with DID can create headmates in blink of an eye (we know from oursleves) sometimes splitting threshold is so low you may split off multiple people at once. You cannot know what is going in a person's mind, and what mechanisms work for creating a headmate. If they claim they did, it is very much no chance they are faking being different people 24/7. It *is* a real chance that they actually did develop a headmate. If you do not believe them; ask them about their experiences. I am %100 positive that if you actually listen to them, you will see those people are only trying to live their life.

Also, if you think healthy systems cannot exist and only way to be a system is through dissociation and dysfunction; then why would DID systems try to heal anyway? Wouldn't that just be sanist and ableist to expect all of them to turn into singlets because healthy multiplicity isnt a thing?But no, it is a thing, and healthy multiplicity and recovery is possible for systems. DID and other disordered forms of plurality do indeed exist, and they are indeed, treatabe in multiple ways according to what a person feels comfortable with. That is also a system's right to heal however they please. They don't owe anyone their right to stay as plural or become a singlet.

6th point I want to make is about: Why do we even care?

If a person says they have multiple people in their head, why do we care and tell them they are faking? They are not claiming to have a diagnosis, even if they did; if their situation is causing a distress to them, then they ARE diagnosable and that therefore is none of our business, again.

Last point I want to make is how endogenic DID is possible. yes, possible. remember how trauma is not in diagnostic criteria and DID can happen at any age? If endogenic plurals can happen, they can also form DID at later in life. They can also become disordered due to an event in their life. They can lose harmony and become so dysfunctional they need professional help. That doesn't mean they are no longer endogenic or some other origin, that simply means their state is different than what it was and they need help.

End of our post. Thank you for reading.

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You are not an ass, love. You can be a little harsh sometimes and you can act like one, but you are not one.

I love you, Jake:). -Lorenzo

I can say a lot of shits. I can sometimes be very tired. I can say things I did not really mean. I can forget a lot of shits. I can be very direct. I can be too harsh sometimes. I can be and I am an asshole. But after all, I still and will always love my sysmates and I try everyday to show it to them even if I am bad at showing it. But I know I can do it. Why? Because I accepted that people, animals and non human beings all need some kind of love. Whenever it is platonic love, romantic love or other kinds of love.

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I deeply apologise when I am an asshole. I am an ass I know it and I am sorry about it.

I can say a lot of shits. I can sometimes be very tired. I can say things I did not really mean. I can forget a lot of shits. I can be very direct. I can be too harsh sometimes. I can be and I am an asshole. But after all, I still and will always love my sysmates and I try everyday to show it to them even if I am bad at showing it. But I know I can do it. Why? Because I accepted that people, animals and non human beings all need some kind of love. Whenever it is platonic love, romantic love or other kinds of love.

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Dedicated to me and Lorenzo<3. We were already in one in exo-memories but it feels really better to actually have him with me and be able to cuddle him and such:).

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Hey, I did not post anything, I was on vacation with the body's dad. I just wanted to warn you about someone. It is @astrothetherian . TW: (implied) SA, anti-endo

They said on one of my posts that they were going to touch me. They did that because I am endogenic. First of all: under any circumstances, do not say that to anybody. Second of all: what the fuck. The body is a minor, it is literally written on my intro. Third of all: even if I am an adult, I want all interaction to be SFW. And last of all: alterhuman is a pro-endo term so remove it from your bio, and PSTD is a trauma based disorder, not DID, OSDD, UDD or more who are DISSOCIATION based disorders.

Also, breaking your own DNI is faking hilarious.

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Hey, I did not post anything, I was on vacation with the body's dad. I just wanted to warn you about someone. It is @astrothetherian . TW: (implied) SA, anti-endo

They said on one of my posts that they were going to touch me. They did that because I am endogenic. First of all: under any circumstances, do not say that to anybody. Second of all: what the fuck. The body is a minor, it is literally written on my intro. Third of all: even if I am an adult, I want all interaction to be SFW. And last of all: alterhuman is a pro-endo term so remove it from your bio, and PSTD is a trauma based disorder, not DID, OSDD, UDD or more who are DISSOCIATION based disorders.

Also, breaking your own DNI is faking hilarious.

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“Endos and radqueers are the same thing” blah blah blah blah I DONT FUCKING CARE. Radqueers support pedophilia and zoophilia. Endogenic systems are just systems trying to exist. Get a fucking grip.

I’ll start believing your anti-endo rhetoric when you can show me where endos and radqueers, which are two different things, two different groups, are the “same thing”

-Natasha/Angel

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Not us entirely but this is to Lorenzo<3

This plural is neurowillo!

F2U with no credit! flag: the neurowillo flag by us!

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Whether you think it's real or not, I don't care. But I want to know how that is transplural??? A transplural person is someone who wishes they were a system.

Hey, I did not post anything, I was on vacation with the body's dad. I just wanted to warn you about someone. It is @astrothetherian . TW: (implied) SA, anti-endo

They said on one of my posts that they were going to touch me. They did that because I am endogenic. First of all: under any circumstances, do not say that to anybody. Second of all: what the fuck. The body is a minor, it is literally written on my intro. Third of all: even if I am an adult, I want all interaction to be SFW. And last of all: alterhuman is a pro-endo term so remove it from your bio, and PSTD is a trauma based disorder, not DID, OSDD, UDD or more who are DISSOCIATION based disorders.

Also, breaking your own DNI is faking hilarious.