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the idea of using my real name irl feels like a sword of damocles situation. but instead of like, power and wealth its just getting to live my life happily knowing that there's a non-zero chance word will get back to my parents.

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Accepting that maybe even the best version of you would be hated by some people can really set you free like life doesn't have to be making other people comfortable or being the most lovable and fair person in the universe like actually the satisfaction you seek is beyond judgment and lies within your own interests and desires fr

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im making a prototype for a plushie i wanna make (first time ever sewing a plushie and its a self made pattern) and its kinda starting to come together and im feeling prideful

but i also have supercharged adhd so ive been half assing this plushie and sewing it wrong and not bothering to fix it because i dont even have the right colored fabric yet so its like objectively the worst plushie ever. the stitches are miserable. half of the fabric is facing the wrong direction and i accidentally sewed the some of the seams inside out.

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i know i made a whole post about how deltarune chapter 4 was specifically catered to me, but i somehow neglected to mention the part where susie, unprompted, eats a flower. something i once did for #Weird Girl reasons.

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濮院puyuan, tongxiang, zhejiang province, china (photo by Genevieve，金元宝旅行日记，旧na样)

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In my experience as a third culture kid who travels a lot the best indicator that you as a non-x is appreciating x culture is if the locals actively invite you to participate in it with them

Yes, you are allowed to buy those handmade Inuit winter clothes if an Inuk is literally selling them to you. They would not be offering you a price point if they didnt want you to buy and wear them. And you might discover that theyre the best winter clothes youve ever worn because of COURSE they would be if theyve kept this culture warm in harsh winters for thousands of years.

Yes, you are allowed to join those Cambodians in that local holiday theyre celebrating during your visit if they literally invited you to it. They would not have invited you if they didnt want you to participate. And in the process you might learn a lot about a culture you never wouldve interacted with and you can all have a laugh together about your clumsy but genuine attempts at getting your footwork right in one of their traditional dances.

Yes, you are also allowed to ask if you can participate in something from the local culture you are visiting. Sometimes you will get "sorry, thats a closed practice" but in my experience most of the time you'll get "of course, let me show you how to do this!" And in my experience people tend to appreciate when others make an active effort in sharing their culture and wont stone you to death if youre clumsy about it while youre learning. I guarantee that the local children doing all of this for the first time too make the same mistakes you do and they can tell if youre being disrespectful or genuine.

So much "cultural appropriation" discourse really starts to sound like "you cant participate or visit any other cultures if youre from a Colonial Culture and have to stay in your little box and never relate to other people"

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the starwalker walk animation is actually a really strong candidate for the funniest sprite animation I've ever seen. even now, sometimes I'll randomly think of it in public and have to silently drag my hands down my face to not lose it

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An older comic from when I used to work at Build-A-Bear

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My first med gives me vivid dreams and nightmares and my new med takes those vivid dreams and shuffles them together like peep soup, rendering my dream journal obsolete because I can't begin to describe my dreams

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hey everybody come look at my super relevant current meme

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Gave myself an hour to make somethin!

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a reoccuring pattern in the deltarune secret bosses (specifically gerson and spamton neo) are that they're boss fights that never got to happen in undertale

so if we get the blue soul and i hear "song that might play when you fight sans" in deltarune im going to scream

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would you believe me if i told you that was the third time i died at that exact part of that attack

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chapter four scene illustrations

close-ups

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i almost beat the chapter 3 secret boss i got to the final attack. and then i realized i had no idea how to navigate the final attack